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I Drank After 2 Years and Six Months: Iím in Despair

Old 08-14-2019, 01:13 PM
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Oh my my Girlie Friends, thank you for checking up on me. Iím suffering withdrawals, but not so much as if I hadnít tapered. I donít expect to sleep much tonight, but thatís OK considering Iíll feel a little better tomorrow, hopefully!

Iím so glad I followed Augustís advice and poured the last can away yesterday, because, for sure, if I hadnít the AV wouldíve said I should drink it to lessen the W/ds., and this sabotaged Day 1. Not so!

Hawkeye, Iím named after my, now , elderly girl cat, Tatsy. Iím so glad youíre there to comort Tasha!
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Old 08-14-2019, 01:23 PM
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Keepa go girl.

It sucks, but it will only suck worse if you don't stick with it as we all know.

Do exactly what you would have told O to do.

You got this.
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Old 08-14-2019, 03:03 PM
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Yeah, what Drops said!
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Old 08-14-2019, 06:20 PM
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Just back from hot yoga which totally kicked my bum.

I'm petting Tasha and making some tea for us all. Got some nice spoons at the goodwill today so serving will be a bit upmarket by my standards.

It's Barry's red label tea. Irish and a favorite

Day 1 nearly in the bag girl. Well done!
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Old 08-14-2019, 07:07 PM
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....and now the day is done and you will start your second day.
keep going, Tatsy.
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Old 08-15-2019, 03:05 AM
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Thnak you everybody for your massive goodwill! The tea was delicious Hawkeye, I havenít had Barryís Irish tea for years! Particularly liked stirring with your new posh spoons.

Last night was eventful. Whilst awake, with closed eyes, I was entertained with two special effects. One was a sequence of rectangular photo like images, in beautiful black, white and grey detail, floating against the black back-drop. They were beautiful works of art, hard to explain, although some contained people (none of whom I recognised).

The second was a small disembodied red devil head, with black patches and little horn buds, floating around the black back-drop. It was smiling,I didnít find it scary.

I experienced both, when I stopped in 2016.

Day 2!
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Old 08-15-2019, 03:34 AM
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Great job T. Make it a good sober day 2.
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Old 08-15-2019, 05:02 AM
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Coffee or tea anyone?
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Old 08-15-2019, 05:59 AM
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I'd like coffee, please, although I've already had two cups. Maybe iced coffee with some chocolate syrup and sweetener in it to avoid the stomach pains.

Tatsy, sounds like your night was par for the course. In a way, this is a good thing. You're not surprised by it and nothing new and more scary has happened. You can just keep on keeping on! What's the plan for the day? So you experience "triggers?" I mostly don't, but if you do, how will you respond?

Day 2 and you're almost half-way through!
I'm proud of you.
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Old 08-15-2019, 07:14 AM
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I can’t thank you all enough, for your support over the last few weeks. Whilst the beastly AV Beast was attacking me, you carried me. Footprints in the sand comes to mind.

The display of humanity here, is humbling. I am so grateful and I promise I’ll make you all proud, and stand on my own two feet once again.

A tad weepy at the moment, anxiety is soaring, body bio-chemically adjusting, taking vitamins and electrolytes. Drinking copious amounts of water, eating ice-cream and jelly.....reminds me of post tonsillectomy as a child. Sitting in the sun, walking, resting. Finally, after many, many months, I’m self-caring. Feels good.
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Old 08-15-2019, 08:23 AM
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Sounds really good, Tats - exactly right. Weepiness and all. Your body, mind and soul have gone through hell and they all deserve healthy indulgence.

One day soon you'll say, "I'm proud of myself," and that will be so much more meaningful than whatever pride others have for you (though that's nice too )

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Cry all you need Tatsy! Tears are good for you. It's how we cleanse away the pain. Recently, I read a line that said, we are the only animal that weeps. For some reason, I really liked that line.

Enjoy the sunshine!
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You were so right Wholesome, the sunshine feels cleansing and uplifts my spirit!
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O, your previous post meant a lot to me....because I know you donít normally send emojis. Thank you ❣
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Old 08-15-2019, 01:30 PM
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Truly appreciate you folks. You put me back on my feet, thatís priceless, and your kind hearts shone. Thank you so much 💕
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Old 08-15-2019, 03:06 PM
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Day 2 successful. Goodnight everyone.
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Awesome, Tatsy! It is so good to read that you are back on track!!
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It really is. You're doing great. Everything's going to be alright. I hope you have a good sleep. See you tomorrow
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Thanks Gettingcloser and Wholesome, goodnight 🤗
Sticks, stones and barbed words, wonít break my resolve.
My experience is irrefutable.
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Old 08-15-2019, 06:27 PM
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Goodnight and good morning on Day three in a few hours

I’ve been dealing with computer issues and a touch of food poisoning today but managing to stay positive despite it, but not posting much as a result. Off to bed now myself.

I’ll check in tomorrow afternoon when I get to the lake.

You are doing it Tats! So pleased for you!

Here’s a little bunny dance in celebration:

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