Today I can- a simple thread
Today I had South Park, and the baseball game. Even better last night I stayed up to watch the season premiere of the one and only show I watch on regular TV. American Horror Story. It still amazes me that I can put something down for six months and when I come back to it I'm still in a healthy state of mind to enjoy it again.
Today I can wake up half cocked, realize two hours later I am in the wrong day of the week and that everything on my to-do-list is for tomorrow but that's okay. As long as I'm not that way from drinking or using I'm allowed to screw up every now and then.
Last night I was able to watch the Vin Scully tribute and cry. My emotions were not numbed by another substance. Today I was able to go to the new SMART meeting I facilitate.
Today I can think of others and myself and achieve harmony in my life-work-family balance which allows me to be authentic and true to myself without harming others
Driving my wagon of hope through beautiful views on my road to myself
Driving my wagon of hope through beautiful views on my road to myself
Today I can feel extremely uncomfortable 108 degree weather, keep an eye on my service dog to make sure he remains hydrated, and walk up with a friend to the liquor store (which I no longer care to drink) so they can buy cigarettes (which I no longer smoke) and get my dog's exercise in during the night when its cooler at 84 degrees.
Today I can read. Look forward to and now watch the new Netflix documentary about Amanda Knox. I don't feel guilty, to have balance in my life it's important I have some time to let my brain rot with mental junk food lol
Today I can enjoy the October sunshine and share with the people on here that not only am I still sober (thank you SR and especially the AVRT threads!) but that I am also looking forward to the birth of my first grandchild just a couple of months from now. I am beside myself with joy and happiness as I had given up hope of ever being a grandma. I've learned a lot from this journey but the main thing for me is gratitude. They say create a gratitude list. I tried that and it was never ending. There is so much in life to be grateful for and the more thankful you are for it the more the list grows! Thank you to all of you on these threads for making so much sense. I am going to be the best granny EVER!
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