Feeling a bit smug.
 

I am a double winner, both codependent and alcoholic. My BF drank last night and I am feeling a bit smug. He would preach to me mercilessly about my relapses. So now I feel a bit vindicated. I know how he feels. I will not lecture or smear it in his face. Don't worry I'm not a vengeful person and I will definitely support him in recovery. Moving forward.

I am also a "double winner". A few weeks ago I drank and it totally put me right back in my place after being self-righteous about his drinking for months. It was pretty humbling.

Yes I know. I'm not going to bust his chops. I'm just going to try and treat him with some compassion. I don't want to engage with him,but detach and give him his space.