Water, not wine - recovery journal
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Water, not wine - recovery journal
Day One
This is my first day of a lifetime commitment to stop drinking. I do not want to have another drink. It is not good for me, I just don't know moderation. It is foreign to me.
I had a big slip-up yesterday. It was the first time I drank all day. Right now, I feel good that I am making a commitment to healthful living. I am having some withdrawl symptoms, like sweating, but I hope to get through this by tapering down. I feel weird about drinking in order to not drink and I am reevaluating my decision to taper instead of go cold turkey. It will be hard either way. I want to do the right thing for myself and family.
This is my first day of a lifetime commitment to stop drinking. I do not want to have another drink. It is not good for me, I just don't know moderation. It is foreign to me.
I had a big slip-up yesterday. It was the first time I drank all day. Right now, I feel good that I am making a commitment to healthful living. I am having some withdrawl symptoms, like sweating, but I hope to get through this by tapering down. I feel weird about drinking in order to not drink and I am reevaluating my decision to taper instead of go cold turkey. It will be hard either way. I want to do the right thing for myself and family.
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1st, there really aren't any rules about where you post your journals/thoughts.
Post where you're comfortable.
It's quieter here than on the Newcomers forum, but it's a place stocked with particularily ... cerebral people.
Blogging is fine, too, as long as you are doing it mainly for you and not so much for interaction.
Just didn't want you to think you weren't welcome.
Welcome!
Looking forward to seeing you around.
Post where you're comfortable.
It's quieter here than on the Newcomers forum, but it's a place stocked with particularily ... cerebral people.
Blogging is fine, too, as long as you are doing it mainly for you and not so much for interaction.
Just didn't want you to think you weren't welcome.
Welcome!
Looking forward to seeing you around.
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1st,
it really helped me when i got it that i didn't WANT to moderate. i wanted to get drunk. that was the point.
but of course that sounded too sick to admit to myself for eons.
don't know if that's what you mean when you say moderation is foreign to you; that's just how it was for me.
either way, knowing moderation's not for us is a good foundation rock!
it really helped me when i got it that i didn't WANT to moderate. i wanted to get drunk. that was the point.
but of course that sounded too sick to admit to myself for eons.
don't know if that's what you mean when you say moderation is foreign to you; that's just how it was for me.
either way, knowing moderation's not for us is a good foundation rock!
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Fini. I agree. It was as if I really needed to get off the rails in order to sober up.
A few days ago I absolutely did not want to moderate. I wanted to get drunk. I did get drunk.
Obladi, I really would rather post here than in the general newcomers' forum. I am trying to avoid triggers and having someone reply that they are "praying for me" or reciting a bible verse (even if it is in their signature) would drive me nuts and make me feel isolated.
I like talking with rational, cerebral people. Talking with like-minded people who are going through the same thing is crucial for me now.
A few days ago I absolutely did not want to moderate. I wanted to get drunk. I did get drunk.
Obladi, I really would rather post here than in the general newcomers' forum. I am trying to avoid triggers and having someone reply that they are "praying for me" or reciting a bible verse (even if it is in their signature) would drive me nuts and make me feel isolated.
I like talking with rational, cerebral people. Talking with like-minded people who are going through the same thing is crucial for me now.
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