Commitment issues Hi everyone, So I have made/am planning to make my Big Plan and already I think you can see my problem. I cannot seem to distinguish between the rational decision that I have to make it, and the notion that by admitting that, I have in fact made it... Does this make sense? I thought I had made my Big Plan back in April, it felt authentic, I believe I meant it, etc. I lasted 5 weeks. How do I know it will be different this time?? Should I perhaps have a private little ceremony to mark the occasion, would this help? I'm worried. The issue for me is really centered around the notion of commitment. I think if I could nail that vis-a-vis alcohol then I will succeed. I mean I would never cheat on my husband, regardless of temptations that may arise I am committed to him and our relationship and so it's not a worry for me. I guess I have to find a way to approach my Big Plan in the same way. Any insights gratefully received! |
Hi there, YOU don't have an issue with committing the Beast does. You really have to separate your thinking pattern from it's thinking pattern, that is the core of voice recognition. Fear, self doubt, etc are not coming from you but from IT. |
But then why in the RR book are we told to think carefully about making the BP?? I got the impression that if you accept that you, not your AV thinks it should make one it is almost automatic that it happens (if you fully understand it that is - maybe this is my problem). I mean surely we all agree that is what we want, otherwise there is no conflict as such. I buy into the idea that addiction arises when there is this dialogue inside our heads consisting of 'I don't want to drink/I do want to drink'. I get that the bit that says 'I do want to drink' is AV, but I'm confused about being able to make the part that says 'I don't want to drink' commit to the Plan.... |
Beat the beast, newatthis. Don't let it win. |
No it's not automatic, it's more then the big plan. Just making the big plan and not practicing to differentiate you and it will most likely get you in trouble. The beast will wait and at a time of weakness will try to convince you that it's ok to just have a couple of drinks. Are YOU ready to quit for good? that is the question if understand |
I got sober before this existed, but my thought processes at that time were to do absolutely whatever it took and to endure whatever might befall me before ever taking another drink or using drugs. It was a plan for sure, but I never looked at it as a Big Plan. It was more of a Quiet Internal Commitment. Of course I anticipated at the time that the sober life would be hard and uncomfortable, which sobriety has not proven to be for me. Only talking about the internal decision to stop, not about what it took to deal with my drinking past, or to stabilize my emotions, or to adjust to living full time in reality and dealing with it's challenges sober. I've no experience in successfully overcoming the voice of the Beast, as I've not considered drinking again. In the years I drank the Beast spoke only with my voice, and where drinking was concerned it always sounded like a great idea, at least for the little time it took to drink again after once again firmly and irrevocably deciding not to. |
Originally Posted by Newatthis34
(Post 3754252)
Hi everyone, So I have made/am planning to make my Big Plan and already I think you can see my problem. I cannot seem to distinguish between the rational decision that I have to make it, and the notion that by admitting that, I have in fact made it... Does this make sense? As I look back, I realize there was a benefit to pushing the envelope as hard as I did so the Big Plan made sense sooner rather than later.
Originally Posted by Newatthis34
(Post 3754252)
I thought I had made my Big Plan back in April, it felt authentic, I believe I meant it, etc. I lasted 5 weeks. How do I know it will be different this time?? Should I perhaps have a private little ceremony to mark the occasion, would this help? I'm worried.
Originally Posted by Newatthis34
(Post 3754252)
The issue for me is really centered around the notion of commitment. I think if I could nail that vis-a-vis alcohol then I will succeed. I mean I would never cheat on my husband, regardless of temptations that may arise I am committed to him and our relationship and so it's not a worry for me. I guess I have to find a way to approach my Big Plan in the same way. |
Originally Posted by Newatthis34
(Post 3754252)
Hi everyone, The issue for me is really centered around the notion of commitment. I think if I could nail that vis-a-vis alcohol then I will succeed. I mean I would never cheat on my husband, regardless of temptations that may arise I am committed to him and our relationship and so it's not a worry for me. I guess I have to find a way to approach my Big Plan in the same way. Any insights gratefully received! No conditions are attached to a Big Plan. There are no failures with Big Plans, only wrongly perceived failures. :) Big Plans are not negotiable or created between loving couples. Big Plans are more like secret decoder rings for bringing into the light of present day our respective AV. And humorously like x-ray glasses to see what AV yet remains hidden from our moments in the now being experienced. Big Plans are a simple tool used to gain a means to an end. Nothing more or less, imo. Entrenched committments to your respective quality of life, while living sans-alcohol, are of course, important and required for successful fulfilment of the before mentioned quality of life. :) My Big Plan works even if I fail, and works even if I succeed. No conditions exist between me and my Big Plan. :) Marriage committments and vows are altogether different, in my experience. I'm happily remarried, so I have experienced the (happily) divorced side of marriage too. :) There is no divorce side to our Big Plans, lol. Worrying about our committments to whatever is pure AV. You've asked for insights, and now may I ask what do you now think about Big Plans and committments? |
RobbyRobot "My Big Plan works even if I fail, and works even if I succeed. No conditions exist between me and my Big Plan." Really love this part. |
Phew, more confused than ever now.. GT; Thanks for reminding me to think about what it was that occurred to kick start my drinking that I couldn't have foreseen. The answer is pretty mundane really, a friend visited and I used it as an excuse. Nothing unforeseen at all about being in such a senario in fact fairly predictable. RR; Reading your post has made me think that I am perhaps taking the BP too literally..??? I don't understand your interpretation of commitment though. I mean should I not commit myself to quitting alcohol as a positive, affirmative undertaking that will impact on my life. A commitment to my health, well-being etc. ultimately. Maybe my analogy with wedding vows is clumsy but the point I was trying to make is that once the commitment is made, the rest sort of follows on (or should hypothetically unless/until something changes). Am I totally messed up with the way I'm approaching this? I'm beginning to wonder if all I really want is a quick-fix solution...I'm getting bogged down in semantics and metaphysical notions of free-will and everything here!! And I thought RR promised it was easy to quit if you want to. And I really do. Or I think I do. But how will I really know for sure? AAAAAGGGHHHHH!!!! |
Originally Posted by Newatthis34 And I thought RR promised it was easy to quit if you want to. And I really do. Or I think I do. But how will I really know for sure? Focus on identifying, seperating, and dismissing the AV. Right now IT has got you all tangled up about whether your big plan is iron-clad enough to do the trick. That's AV. YOU don't have to join in any reindeer games. YOU are in charge. Identify, seperate, dimiss... |
Originally Posted by Newatthis34
(Post 3756495)
RR; Reading your post has made me think that I am perhaps taking the BP too literally..??? I don't understand your interpretation of commitment though. I mean should I not commit myself to quitting alcohol as a positive, affirmative undertaking that will impact on my life. A commitment to my health, well-being etc. ultimately. Say, your marriage flounders and eventually fails? Or your income gets slashed in a permanent way because of ongoing health issues? Or other life-changing events etc. Committments are ALWAYS linked to certain conditions being satisfied. Without those established and maintained conditions, whatever they may be - such committments are worthless. With a Big Plan, no conditions are required for the BP to work effectively. This is very important to successfully remain alcohol free regardless of whatever may be served up and experienced in your life. Quitting alcohol because you want a better life is conditional, because you may not get that better life even though you have quit alcohol. Please take a few moments and try to understand a BP as an AVRT tool, and nothing but an AVRT tool. Its a technique of sorts, to reveal otherwise hidden Addictive Voice... and that's all it is... its not something to adore or pledge promises with otherwise. "I will never now drink alcohol. I will never change my mind." Period. End of story. Any thought, image, feeling that goes against my above BP will be as AV to me, and nothing but AV. It's really that simple. :) |
Originally Posted by Newatthis34
(Post 3756495)
GT; Thanks for reminding me to think about what it was that occurred to kick start my drinking that I couldn't have foreseen. The answer is pretty mundane really, a friend visited and I used it as an excuse. Nothing unforeseen at all about being in such a senario in fact fairly predictable. |
I'm getting bogged down in semantics and metaphysical notions of free-will and everything here!! yes YES, i spent years there, bogged down. until i could see that commitments were useless. until i could accept that. which i could only do after really looking at my repeated decisions to quit and my repeated inability to stick to that decision. those decisions and commitments to them were always genuine and authentic, but they didn't do the trick, so to speak. no matter how determined, decided and committed, i drank again. RobbyRobot, thanks for your explanatory view of the difference between a Big Plan and Commitment. i've not really been involved with AVRT, and always thought they were the same. you've shown me a different view. NAT34, when i first got sober, first few weeks, it was really helpful to me to separate "the voice" out from "me", or to split the "wannawannagottagetdrunk" off from "me", but i never really did or could experience that as not me; there is only one me, and not even with distinct parts. so yeah, it was a bit of a tool, and helpful in that it allowed me the space to sit with it and see what, if anything, was behind the desire to drink at that moment. what was going on with me and how best could i handle THAT. nonetheless, i got sober and have been for a few years. not trying to discourage you from making a big plan or a commitment, just to say what really helped me was to see that all my committed commitments hadn't resulted in sobriety. |
Originally Posted by fini
(Post 3758203)
I'm getting bogged down in semantics and metaphysical notions of free-will and everything here!! yes YES, i spent years there, bogged down. until i could see that commitments were useless. until i could accept that. which i could only do after really looking at my repeated decisions to quit and my repeated inability to stick to that decision. those decisions and commitments to them were always genuine and authentic, but they didn't do the trick, so to speak. no matter how determined, decided and committed, i drank again. RobbyRobot, thanks for your explanatory view of the difference between a Big Plan and Commitment. i've not really been involved with AVRT, and always thought they were the same. you've shown me a different view. Imagine the phrase you spoke above that I put in red was not about drinking, but about putting your hand on a glowing electric stove element. Can you commit to not putting your hand on a red hot electric stove element? As you think about the differences, you cannot help but recognize more AV. "Drinking is not like burning my hand. I'm actually successful at drinking some of the time. Nothing bad happens, and I get that wonderful buzz again." I'll now encourage you to try out the same AVRT exercise I suggested for NAT34 because I bet it will help you understand the unconditional permanence of the actual Big Plan: Now, put into complete sentences the thoughts that were going through your head between the time the idea of having a drink came to mind and the time you actually swallowed the first gulp of dilute flavored ethanol. NAT34, when i first got sober, first few weeks, it was really helpful to me to separate "the voice" out from "me", or to split the "wannawannagottagetdrunk" off from "me", but i never really did or could experience that as not me; there is only one me, and not even with distinct parts. so yeah, it was a bit of a tool, and helpful in that it allowed me the space to sit with it and see what, if anything, was behind the desire to drink at that moment. what was going on with me and how best could i handle THAT. I simply accept the loss of that old pleasure from knowing the truth. I drank for the assault of pleasure, and for the idiotic challenge to try to stay smart and stop at the right point while under chemically enhanced stupidity. nonetheless, i got sober and have been for a few years. not trying to discourage you from making a big plan or a commitment, just to say what really helped me was to see that all my committed commitments hadn't resulted in sobriety. GT |
Originally Posted by RobbyRobot
(Post 3756607)
Please take a few moments and try to understand a BP as an AVRT tool, and nothing but an AVRT tool. Its a technique of sorts, to reveal otherwise hidden Addictive Voice... and that's all it is... its not something to adore or pledge promises with otherwise.
Originally Posted by fini
(Post 3758203)
RobbyRobot, thanks for your explanatory view of the difference between a Big Plan and Commitment. i've not really been involved with AVRT, and always thought they were the same. you've shown me a different view.
Originally Posted by GerandTwine
(Post 3759630)
Of course The Big Plan is a commitment. But in AVRT, it is isolated and unconnected to OTHER commitments we make in life. I think that's what RobbyRobot is explaining in his posts here. I hear your Addictive Voice taking the upper hand here with your misunderstanding of RobbyRobot's meaning of the Big Plan by thinking it is not a commitment. Of course you have the ability to make a Big Plan and stick to it. Interesting thread, lol. I'll have to think on my best response, as its not yet clear in my head really what is, or is not, being misunderstood. Hmmm. :herewego |
For me, the word commitment means to be obligated. Commitments, imo, can be broken. For instance, I committed to helping at a baby shower but I fell ill. To me, The Big Plan means no matter what happens I will never drink again and I will never change my mind. No exceptions. No wiggle room for "unseen events". NEVER. I'm new at this so :dunno: |
Yeah, NEVER works for me too, hahaha. :c011: |
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