Hey guys
 

Well..If any of you know me from newcomers. I relapsed once again last week. It was a mild relapse compared to most. But still one that could have and should have been prevented.
I take every slip very serious no matter how small or undamaging it was.

So I am not feelin or never really have felt the 12 step approach.
I did do SMART for a few months a couple about a year or so ago. I really enjoyed it and got every aspect of it.

I stopped doing it after a serious relapse and since then really havent worked any kind of anything since then. I just been white knuckling it and goin it on ym own. Which I know is a definate set up for me.

I am tired of not doin something about my recovery. I usually get a few months clean and then BAM..There I go.
Sometimes I know why and sometimes I dont.

I am really interested in meditaion and things like Tao but have no knowledge about any of it.

I guess I am asking if there are any members here willing to coach me some on these topics every now and then.
I dont want someone telling me what to do and how to work my program. I just need some guidance on how to get started on these things.

I know what mediatation is but how do you use it effectively?
You know what I mean?
Are there any sites that work with an individual on learning this stuff.

I am really tired of getting clean and thats it. I need more substance to my recovery.
Just putting the drugs down isnt goin to cut it.

I need a long lasting interest for healing and self improvement.

Hope this is in the right place and someone has some insight for me.

I am goin to start making this a regular stop on SR for me no.

Thx for reading.

Welcome! :D

glad you are joining us! pm me any time. lost of deferent tools here :)

there are many different forms of meditation and not all are the same...I practice soto school zen meditation. I'de be happy to recomend a book on it or discuss it with you.

I have a taoist meditation book....I like it..I find taoism and buddhism to be very similar in nature.

I recommend utilizing the local library and checking out anything that suits your fancy and playing around with things till you see what looks to fit you.

I can share what works for me with you any time you wish...although i tend to be alittle slow :( I never could find the reading from my toaist meditiation that i said i would get for daisy......

but i'll do my best to support you in the recovery that works for you (hug)