gneiss

Yeah. That'll about sum it up. My life sucks.

californiapoppy

Boy am I glad you guys and your contagious spring fever are on the other side of the Atlantic ! I'm feeling great, the sun is shining, it's warm, the fields are green and some are profusely blooming, makes them look like yellow velvet. Trees are leafing out, the fruit trees are covered with pink and white blossoms, birds are chirping, building nests on my roof (incidentally making a mess in front of my windows, but ok, it's spring) I'm getting in a lot more walking because I want to appreciate this great weather, so I think the extra oxygen is making me happy. I FEEL GOOD ! If what I've got is contagious, here, I'm blowing you all a big contagious kiss ! GET BETTER everyone !

Ananda

yeah.....i'm whiny too.....come on guys....lets get a grip!!!!!

:ghug

Eroica

Good morning everyone. Sorry you guys arent feeling too hot! I had the hardest time falling asleep last night. I was overcome with fear that someone was going to break down my apartment door and kill me, so I had to keep looking through through the peep hole to make sure no one was there. It was frustrating because I knew nothing would happen, but I was still so afraid. Can anyone relate??? lol

californiapoppy

I used to be afraid at night, like things couldn't get me during the day. Now I live in the country far from any neighbors, I've got a scaredy-cat big dog that hides behind me, and I don't get scared any more, at least not of nothing. I'd be scared if some screwed up person with a weapon bashed in my door and really threatened me, but I don't conjure up things to frighten me anymore. I don't know when I stopped or why, it just happened. Must be the wisdom that comes with age.

Zencat

Eroica I can relate.

I'm being treated for (among other things) GAD. Some days I feel like I'm walking through a land mined field. As if I'm just one step away from disaster. Being in a constant state of heightened alert is exhausting. On those days I too don't fall asleep easily.

windysan

back from the caribbean. off to the beach crib in FL. all is well.

lunarise

Can I come in if I promise not to whine? hehehehe

I am a little better. There I said it.

californiapoppy

Pimptastic? Is that a spelling error too, or are you going to teach me a new word? No one has told me what kitty flowers were either. I may be fluent, but if it's not in the dictionary I probably don't know the word.

lunarise

Kittyflowers....they are a smiley that you can use chat.. not sure if it works here. There is a little kitty head with purple petals around his head. very cute. Used for all occasions. lol

californiapoppy

Thanks Viv, You should be in bed by now. I'm sure it's past 10:30pm. (Yes, I'm playing mother)

Eroica

I went to bed at 8:30 PM, got up at 2:30 AM, and have been awake since. Maybe I'll take a nap at 6?? lol

Ananda

crap day, but i like the new smileys



my favorite of all time

jamdls

I'm having a bad day. My doctor called in a prescription for me yesterday for Prednisone (steroids) because I have bad aches in my ankles and knees (likely arthritis) so I didn't get the pills until 5:30pm yesterday and I took 2 with dinner then 2 more when I went to bed. and I was WIDE awake! They sped up my adrenaline so terrible and I felt like it was 90 degrees in my house. So I finally fell asleep around 2 am and was supposed to be at work at 8:30 am but I was too tired and my stomach felt lousy from the Prednisone so I didn't get to work until 10:00 a.m. and I had to take 2 pills with breakfast and 1 with lunch and I am still too wired and I am generally a very calm person but today I just am too hyped up.

Judy

lunarise

:ghug jam, sorry you had a rough night!

Phal~ all I can say is JEALOUS! Where is my sun huh huh huh uh huh?

TOday is better for me...still feelin a bit unstable emotionally...back forth...back...forth but...I think it may be calming down now. YEAH!

gneiss

Thanks for the PMs and such. I am back here at SR/SC and doing better. Just had a crappy few days. Rough few days. A day when I even drove right past my meth dealer's house... right there, so close. But I didn't do it. God I wanted to. I had cash in hand. But I chickened out, basically. Thank Whoever I'm a chicken.

Today I went to the lake and walked 2.5 miles down a 7.5 mile trail then turned and came back because it was getting dark. So a 5-mile walk. It felt really good and I'm in a much better mood for it.

Thanks again for all your thoughts, I appreciate them. :ghug

lunarise

YEAH Gneiss! So glad to see ya...

HUGE props to you for staying strong!

Walking has made me feel better lately too..although you beat me by a few miles there! I usually walk 2 or so.... lol

psst dont mind the 9.9 guy, he doesn't know what hes talking about, I think I will fire him!

shockozulu

Proud of you for walking past the dealers house, no matter what the reason. You didn't go and that's what is important to me. Now you will have less cravings (every time you beat one, they get easier or so SMART tells me). So pat yourself on the back and know that you have made life easier on yourself.

californiapoppy

Good going Gneiss ! Glad to have you back too !

Hey Vivid ! Shouldn't you be in bed?

Ananda

i'm starting to believe the voice in my head...how do you tell the right from from the wrong one anyways....you know maybe sometimes the negative voice is right...right...I mean we aren't all perfect are we????