Fantabulous Secular Connections Check-in Part III
I have class tomorrow- the one I'm retaking- and I'm a big ball of anxiety. Always, always afraid of screwing the pooch for good this time, even though I've done everything I'm supposed to for tomorrow.
Maybe it's for the best the board is quiet. I need to sleep. Hope everyone is doing ok... gneiss, I'm sorry to hear what's happening with you and the BF.
gneiss and SS
I just opened the fridge to get the rest of my pizza, and there's three beers on the top shelf. Nice. Super crispy fishsticks!...my parents can use the fridge in the basement for that sh!t!
I guess I don't expect them to understand...but this is really tough. I'm okay for now, but when I'm having a really sh!tty day and I see that sitting there I know I'm gonna cave. It's simply amazing that I've made it this long...I can't believe I haven't given in yet...especially when one of those weeks was absolutely frightening...I was bad...really bad....scary bad....scared of myself and what I might do bad. Fortunately I don't feel that way right now....so that's good.
I know this isn't my house...and I know that if I was still living by myself in that crappy town, I'd most likely be dead now.
I know...I'm complaining AGAIN. What's new?
I just opened the fridge to get the rest of my pizza, and there's three beers on the top shelf. Nice. Super crispy fishsticks!...my parents can use the fridge in the basement for that sh!t!
I guess I don't expect them to understand...but this is really tough. I'm okay for now, but when I'm having a really sh!tty day and I see that sitting there I know I'm gonna cave. It's simply amazing that I've made it this long...I can't believe I haven't given in yet...especially when one of those weeks was absolutely frightening...I was bad...really bad....scary bad....scared of myself and what I might do bad. Fortunately I don't feel that way right now....so that's good.
I know this isn't my house...and I know that if I was still living by myself in that crappy town, I'd most likely be dead now.
I know...I'm complaining AGAIN. What's new?
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Sorry guys...i'll be back ASAP....internet at home will be up on Wednesday nite, but i can't do this at work as i am already in deep sht there....but i'm ok, more later....i miss you all...can't even stop to read...just wanted to let you know i'll be back soon (hug)
hey there peeps, checkin in...sorry Bam and SS, seems like you were having a rough time there. HUGS Maybe something is going around, I told my huzzy yesterday that I am thinking about divorce. Im not sure I should have said that. I am thinking about it but I was trying to give it some time, time when we are both sober. So I was mess yesterday. Couldnt figure out which way was up. Im not sure what the next step is, I feel like I need to see results. I am oh so patient these days. At least I am accomplishing one of my goals from therapy...switch to dark chocolate!
Hugs for everyone! :ghug
Just a quick check-in. I'm *supposed* to be studying right now, since I was *supposed* to turn some homework in during class but I didn't get it done. I've learned something about grad school this week: your profs who were strict about deadlines in undergrad really don't care that much in grad school. They assume you were doing something fantastically important, rather than goofing around in a casino and completely ignoring the fact that your homework is due the next day. Still though, I won twenty dollars which puts my lifetime casino winnings at $15. Clearly I'll be signing up for Gambler's Anon next week.
Hope you're all doing well. Things are looking up for me, which is nice after the last few days. Have a good one!
Just a quick check-in. I'm *supposed* to be studying right now, since I was *supposed* to turn some homework in during class but I didn't get it done. I've learned something about grad school this week: your profs who were strict about deadlines in undergrad really don't care that much in grad school. They assume you were doing something fantastically important, rather than goofing around in a casino and completely ignoring the fact that your homework is due the next day. Still though, I won twenty dollars which puts my lifetime casino winnings at $15. Clearly I'll be signing up for Gambler's Anon next week.
Hope you're all doing well. Things are looking up for me, which is nice after the last few days. Have a good one!
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