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Old 08-22-2008, 08:01 PM
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Imagine breasts with no nipples...



Not even gonna go there with you DK!!!!!!!
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Old 08-22-2008, 08:07 PM
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Bugs is right - the only way I got through stuff was by finally determining the voice I was hearing wasn't mine, the thoughts I was having weren't really mine....but the body it used and abused was. I cut off access

I never seen anyone who doesn't given up not make it yet DK

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I have learned to challenge the AV. When my AV starts to talking I first label it as my addiction talking. That helps me to recognize crappy thinking is starting. Sometimes it enough to just recognize whats happening to make it go away. Then I dispel all the crap my AV is telling me. A common AV for me is: F-it I deserve a little drinkie. Ive got his recovery deal down. One night of party wont hurt, I'll sober up again, I've done it so many times before.

Sure, I've sobered up plenty of times but is this honoring my Buddhist path and my aim to become healthy? No. Drugging and drinking, even for one night is harmful to my body, mind and spirit. There too is no assurance it will be for one night only. I could kick start the cravings again. Then there is my self-esteem. I will feel crappy about my commitment to seek a sober life. I know there is no shame in relapsing but, I don't want to relive the disappointment I feel when I do.

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Anywho, Its all about practicing sobriety more than not and with practice comes accomplishment 'one day at a time'.
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Old 08-22-2008, 08:22 PM
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On a more serious note.. tomorrow is day 4 again (third times a charm). And day 1 thu 3 this time have been far less enjoyable, because this time I'm coming off of a what constitutes a binge for me, instead of just having a few beers. I taxed myself pretty good last time around, and it shows in my face and how I feel. I'm looking forward to feeling and looking better again.
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Old 08-22-2008, 08:49 PM
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After a heavy amount of drinking it takes a while to get to feeling better. Hang in there DK....I had to really watch out for that thinking that this being sober sucks....I might as well drink I won't feel any worse....That one got me alot of times.

It helps me alot if I can remember that if I drink, my body really doesn't seem to process alchol well...and if I drink Day 3 or 4 sober might not happen for years! Last night it helped me to read about philosophies that I enjoy viewing my life through. Some people don't like to think too much, but thinking about that kinda stuff sorta gets my mind off drinking and my other pain and into something that I find "entertaining".

Get some sleep DK! Yeah Zencat...I want to be awake to my life today!

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Old 08-25-2008, 07:07 PM
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Just wanted to say that I've almost completed 6 days of no dank and no drank & I can almost thaink straight!
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Thanks for the reminder that it takes time after a binge to feel like your normal self
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It's grand you didn't give up and got back on SR...

...MORE POWER TO YA!
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Old 08-26-2008, 11:41 AM
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Just wanted to say that I've almost completed 6 days of no dank and no drank & I can almost thaink straight!
Now that you can think straight, I recommend you might want to take a look at this link. Its from a PBS series on Ethics and it really is interesting. They are roundtable discussions with many famous people.

This was a website I used to treat myself when I came clean. I needed a clean brain to enjoy the show. It really makes you think about all sorts of issues that those of us working in secular recovery discover in our recovery. For example, right now I'm watching a man talk about how a child has an extreme goal and cheats on his SATs. In this case, it is a student with a goal which is extreme (getting to Harvard). A lot of what the panel discusses are actually similar issues that help me see some of the things I need to fix in my own life.

Resource: Ethics in America
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Old 08-26-2008, 03:24 PM
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Just wanted to say that I've almost completed 6 days of no dank and no drank & I can almost thaink straight!
Keep going DK.
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Old 08-26-2008, 07:21 PM
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Good job, doe knob. Now let's work on that punctuation. LOL

Jess kiddin, mang, but you should really check the stove and the door locks. he he

Congratulations on the 6 days.
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Old 08-26-2008, 07:36 PM
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That'll be enuff outa you, Windbag! Nah, thanx fo tha props! I don't think I told any of you guys that I rap a lil' bit.
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I have a job interview tomorrow at Family Foods! I'm pretty sure that I have the job and that this interview is to discuss hours and wages and fill out paperwork. They've already completed a backround check which I don't believe they would have done if they didn't intend on hiring me. And tonight is our karaoke night so I'm in a better mood than I've been in a while. And almost 7 days sober!
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:bounce Way to go DK!!!
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Old 08-27-2008, 04:40 PM
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DK, that's awesome!
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Good stuff, dk.
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Old 08-27-2008, 05:34 PM
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Good stuff dk.


Hey, I accidently double-posted. How do I delete?
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No erase button! You will be forever remembered as the one who double posted
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Old 08-28-2008, 06:41 AM
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Hey, I accidently double-posted.
I can remember a time when that would have been a good enough excuse to grap a cold one... like a week ago!
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Well, we went to karaoke last night and had a good time. No cravings to drink! You might get a kick out of my first song. It usually gives the audience a good laugh, especially if they've never heard it before. Here it is:

Drunker Than Me

-Trent Tomlinson

Well, lately I been noticin' a gradual escalation,
In your inability to handle your libation.
Go zero to sixty,
When you get on the whiskey.

Well, used to be a glass of wine an' you'd be fine all evenin'.
Now I'm the one who says: "We're done," an' tells us when we're leavin'.
Well, I miss the way that it was,
Can't even catch a good buzz.

'Cause I keep worryin' about who's drivin' home,
Who's got the keys, who's got the 'phone.
Who'll pay the bill, call a cab.
I don't mean to make you mad,
But I don't want that responsibility,
An' I can't be with a woman, baby, who gets drunker than me.

Well, I never thought it'd come to this when I said: "Have another."
'Cause, baby, you turned into me, an' I became my mother.
Well, here's what I'm thinkin':
You're interferin' with my drinkin'.

I think I have an answer to our present situation,
'Cause you an' me out on the town's got built in limitations.
So let me make this clear:
Hey I'm the one who's drinkin' here.

'Cause I ain't worryin' about who's drivin' home,
Who's got the keys, who's got the 'phone.
Who'll pay the bill, call a cab.
I don't mean to make you mad,
But I don't want that responsibility,
An' I can't be with a woman, baby, who gets drunker than me.

I ain't tryin' to ruin your good time.
But I damn sure ain't lettin' yours ruin mine.
You ain't gonna ruin my good time, baby.

I keep worryin' about who's drivin' home,
Who's got the keys, who's got the 'phone.
Who'll pay the bill, call a cab.
I don't mean to make you mad,
But I don't want that responsibility,
An' I can't be with a woman, baby, who gets drunker than me.
No, I can't be with a woman, baby, who gets drunker than me, yeah.
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