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Old 08-16-2008, 05:56 PM
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Oh man.. having a really rough time. Lot's of drama going on at the Jerry Springer trailer park we're living in. HUGE anxiety.. can't think staight... thoughts of oblivion hard to quill. Strong urge to act out in some way... Aaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!!!!!!
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Old 08-16-2008, 08:54 PM
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Sorry I wasn't hear doornob!

I like what a sufi master said to someone who asked him what do you do about all those wirling dervishes......he responded "let em wirl"

sounds like your karma is killing you...:ghug3

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Old 08-18-2008, 09:36 AM
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Old 08-18-2008, 11:32 AM
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Well... I'm alive. Thanks for askin'!
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Old 08-20-2008, 01:13 PM
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Well... Today is another Day 1. Why the [email protected]$* I keep repeating this I don't friggin' know.. but I'm not giving up.

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Old 08-20-2008, 01:20 PM
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Doorknob, crazy ain't it?

I was wondering if you have read much about the addictive voice? Why it is we battle with our brain? I know it helped me alot to understand what was happening and why I felt incapable of changing.

This is a battle, you can win it...takes some painful times...days that seem endless...nights worse than that...but in the end it will be your freedom that you win. Takes time and patience...hell you still have time, patience you must learn...just takes practice. You can do this!
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I've read about AVRT, but it's been a while. I keep sayin 'sod it' the moment I get upset about something. But I know dang well that it doesn't provide relief anymore. There's no buzz or euphoria and I start feeling sick as soon as I start drinking. Then I'm drinking to not feel sick from the beer that's making me feel sick! No that's sick! Plus, the sh*t stinks.
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Old 08-20-2008, 01:41 PM
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Re read it if you can. There is a site that has a great explanation, really down to earth and no nonsense...I'll pm it to you if you want. I said f*ck it for many years, till I knew those 2 words were going to be the death of me. You know the detox is only a few days...it is what you do after that makes the quit stick. How can you get stronger than the voice? It is possible, after all you have to act for the voice...it has no hands nor a mouth kwim?
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Hang in there DK. My regards to Bubba and Poonie over at the trailer park. Don't you go groundhoggin !
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Bugs is right - the only way I got through stuff was by finally determining the voice I was hearing wasn't mine, the thoughts I was having weren't really mine....but the body it used and abused was. I cut off access

I never seen anyone who doesn't given up not make it yet DK

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Old 08-20-2008, 04:11 PM
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Originally Posted by windysan View Post
Hang in there DK. My regards to Bubba and Poonie over at the trailer park. Don't you go groundhoggin !
Dude, livin in this town is like living in a fishbowl, and this trailer park is like a fishbowl inside a fishbowl. Everybody is constantly backstabbin everybody, the landlord approached me the other day telling me about something someone overheard me talking about on the phone. It's freakin ridiculous...
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Old 08-20-2008, 04:12 PM
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:ghug

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we can!!!!!!
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Old 08-20-2008, 04:22 PM
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Re read it if you can. There is a site that has a great explanation, really down to earth and no nonsense...I'll pm it to you if you want.
Send away. What's a Kwim?
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Old 08-20-2008, 04:26 PM
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LOL It means....Know What I Mean.... KWIM.
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Old 08-22-2008, 07:28 AM
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Wut up homies? I'm kickin' off day 3. Gettin' ready to take my dog Shady into Airway Heights to get him fixed. I feel kinda guilty, but I don't want to have to worry about him runnin' off looking for a little sumpin sumpin... Thanks for all the support and encouragement. Sho do appreciate it! Peace, DK
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Hey DK....I got my dog fixed after I got sober....seems like it was the responsible thing to do for her sake. And I'm getting fixed in 4 weeks....looking forward to it myself...so don't feel guilty, it is a loving gift to your dog!
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Old 08-22-2008, 07:24 PM
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Well, the deeds done and he doesn't seem to know the difference. But I still feel bad leaving the poor guy with nothing but an empty sack.
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Old 08-22-2008, 07:34 PM
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Must be a man thing....
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Old 08-22-2008, 07:49 PM
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Imagine breasts with no nipples...
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