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Reach Out and Touch Faith
Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: On a Sailboat
Posts: 3,871
Afternoon all. The harddrive on my new laptop (less than six months old) is going up to the computer god in the sky. It should be replaced by the end of the week latest. Until then I am stuck on a family members computer. And since they don't know I post here..."clear cache" and "delete cookies" time.
That quote of ananda's that Zen posted is so true for me right now. I need to be careful not to do exactly that. Thanks for the warnings!
That quote of ananda's that Zen posted is so true for me right now. I need to be careful not to do exactly that. Thanks for the warnings!
Reach Out and Touch Faith
Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: On a Sailboat
Posts: 3,871
Well, the computer repair folks are giving me the run around. They took the shortcut and as a consquence its taking twice as long to fix the real problem.
How is everyone else doing?
How is everyone else doing?
Member
Join Date: Nov 2007
Posts: 26,425
Im doing ok...mom is here...always a challenge. Surgery is on Monday...a little uptight about that.
My friends have all been super supportive.
DK, SS, ZC, ZD and the rest of you....please check in. just knowing your hear is so helpful to me and it is all about me right
My friends have all been super supportive.
DK, SS, ZC, ZD and the rest of you....please check in. just knowing your hear is so helpful to me and it is all about me right
I got nothin'
Join Date: Jun 2008
Location: My house.
Posts: 4,890
Hey ananda! I'm here! Having a bad night emotionally (nothing disasterous happened...I just cannot control the thoughts in my mind now) and just finished smoking a cigarrette. I feel a little better. One more day at work and then I have another day off. Hopefully I can get my apathetic butt to do some much needed housework. Try to take it easy everyone.
I hope things get better for you soon......
I got nothin'
Join Date: Jun 2008
Location: My house.
Posts: 4,890
Well, put my two weeks notice in at work today. I hope I can work out the two weeks.
This makes two days in a row I almost walked out. I can do the job physically, but not mentally, anymore. It's an easy job....that's not the problem. It's that I'm such a loser and a failure, etc.........I'm so out of place and my brain is completely overwhelmed.... I need professional help but I can't afford it.......Sorry, this is not a coherent post.
I'm really afraid I'm close to relapsing. I'm not sure what to do. Although I’ve abused alcohol aplenty, that’s really not the problem. I used alcohol to self-medicate. I needed it everyday. I need something now. I’ve never felt right, especially before alcohol came along…Is there such a thing as normal? Probably not. I’d settle for stable.
This makes two days in a row I almost walked out. I can do the job physically, but not mentally, anymore. It's an easy job....that's not the problem. It's that I'm such a loser and a failure, etc.........I'm so out of place and my brain is completely overwhelmed.... I need professional help but I can't afford it.......Sorry, this is not a coherent post.
I'm really afraid I'm close to relapsing. I'm not sure what to do. Although I’ve abused alcohol aplenty, that’s really not the problem. I used alcohol to self-medicate. I needed it everyday. I need something now. I’ve never felt right, especially before alcohol came along…Is there such a thing as normal? Probably not. I’d settle for stable.
Knucklehead
Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: Davenport, WA
Posts: 4,005
Hi, Bam. I can sure relate to that. I've been notorious for keeping jobs until I can't stand them one more minute and consequently walking out in frustration. I need professional help too. Life is difficult and not very enjoyable when you're always hanging on to sanity by a thread. And it's hard to find good help even when you have the money, being poor makes it nearly impossible.
I got nothin'
Join Date: Jun 2008
Location: My house.
Posts: 4,890
Yeah, DK....I don't know if I should keep on keeping my fingers crossed and hope that I get better....
...I'm just tired of feeling this way most of the time. Sure, I can fool myself sometimes...but it sure takes a lot of my energy. I also get really antsy when I'm stuck with groups of people...they really get on my nerves and all I want to do is just go away and be alone. I just can't shake the feeling that this is not how life is supposed to be, at least in terms of how my brain is supposed to be. It bothers me that I only know my experience and no one else's. I have no way to judge how bad off (or how good off) I really am. Is everyone out there just keeping up appearances?
...I'm just tired of feeling this way most of the time. Sure, I can fool myself sometimes...but it sure takes a lot of my energy. I also get really antsy when I'm stuck with groups of people...they really get on my nerves and all I want to do is just go away and be alone. I just can't shake the feeling that this is not how life is supposed to be, at least in terms of how my brain is supposed to be. It bothers me that I only know my experience and no one else's. I have no way to judge how bad off (or how good off) I really am. Is everyone out there just keeping up appearances?
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