My son died this morning
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Join Date: Feb 2014
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i am devastated for you. i'm glad you were blessed with those happy, healthy two years - the pain of addiction makes the good stuff huge. you have experienced what so many of us fear..... our tears join yours...
this is the reality of the disease and i struggle with how to convey this fear and pain to my son. the closest he came to feeling the soul clutching fear i lived with daily was when i asked him what i should tell his daughter if he died from his choices. he chose recovery 2 years ago - struggled in and out for a year but has been drug free for a year and is building a good life. yet i still fear.....
your sharing of Chris's story has helped me as much as it has pained me. you and the children and all of his friends and family will be on my heart and in my prayers. love and comfort and prayers are soaring your way from all over the globe.
this is the reality of the disease and i struggle with how to convey this fear and pain to my son. the closest he came to feeling the soul clutching fear i lived with daily was when i asked him what i should tell his daughter if he died from his choices. he chose recovery 2 years ago - struggled in and out for a year but has been drug free for a year and is building a good life. yet i still fear.....
your sharing of Chris's story has helped me as much as it has pained me. you and the children and all of his friends and family will be on my heart and in my prayers. love and comfort and prayers are soaring your way from all over the globe.
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Join Date: Mar 2006
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KariSue, I'm so, so sorry that you lost Chris. I know how much of a shock it is, especially since he was doing well. My daughter had an accidental overdose in a similar manner and it seemed unreal for a very long time. My heart aches for you.
Please feel free to process all you need to here during this very difficult time. I found it helped me to just pour out my thoughts sometimes, while other times I needed to not think about it. If in time you want some in person grief support, there is an organization called Compassionate Friends, for those who have suffered the loss of a child of any age, that many find very helpful. But we each process our grief in our own way and in our own time, so please know whatever helps you is right for you.
You and your family are in my thoughts.
Please feel free to process all you need to here during this very difficult time. I found it helped me to just pour out my thoughts sometimes, while other times I needed to not think about it. If in time you want some in person grief support, there is an organization called Compassionate Friends, for those who have suffered the loss of a child of any age, that many find very helpful. But we each process our grief in our own way and in our own time, so please know whatever helps you is right for you.
You and your family are in my thoughts.
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Join Date: Dec 2007
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Thank you all so much. I am too tired to respond to each post but each one meant so much. My granddaughter was so close to her dad and I saw her today and then I got mad at my son. How dare he make his special little girl feel this way? But then I try to remember that he was also sick. I knew he didn't want to do this to her or his son.
We have a good support group in each other so at least that is something. It is a lot actually.
Thank you for each heartfelt post.
We have a good support group in each other so at least that is something. It is a lot actually.
Thank you for each heartfelt post.
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Join Date: Jul 2010
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Oh, my , Kari, I am so so sorry. I can relate. My grown son lives with me, and we are close too. I know you must be totally broken, and my heart goes out to you and your dear son's children, and all of you.
May your precious Chris be resting sweetly, in perfect peace, waiting on the other side, until you meet again.
My prayers are with you.
May your precious Chris be resting sweetly, in perfect peace, waiting on the other side, until you meet again.
My prayers are with you.
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Join Date: Mar 2016
Location: NC
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I am so sorry for your loss, unfortunately it happens all too common especially when people have been sober and they don't realize how low to nonexsistent their tolerance has fallen.
I will be praying for you and his family, it breaks my heart to hear of stories like this.
I will be praying for you and his family, it breaks my heart to hear of stories like this.
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Join Date: Sep 2012
Location: Grand Rapids MI
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I am so sorry for your loss. Losing a child is so very very hard. There are a couple of groups on face book for child loss and they have been helpful to me. When you are ready check out "heart ache and hope: life after losing a child" and "losing a child" They are both closed groups so you have to join
Prayers going out to Chris and all that loved him
Prayers going out to Chris and all that loved him
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