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Old 11-24-2018, 11:43 PM   #1 (permalink)
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I started smoking dirty cigarettes again.


It started as one here or there and slowly crept back up to half a pack a day. Been going on for a few months and I already hate it again.... so now I need to quit... again....

It started at work, where we are going through a work disruption and strikes right now, so there's been a lot of stress and uncertainty. I haven't been handling it well - but smoking dirty cigarettes isn't helping and it's not going to help.

As I get ready to write out my BP for cigarettes, I can "hear" my AV sending me anxiety about Monday and how I won't be able to abstain once I get to work, but screw you tobacco AV, Yes I will! You aren't the boss of me!

IT's also telling me to wait until all this work stress is over, wait till NY's, wait till tomorrow, or next week, but not today, not right now, this very minute. But I say yes, right now, I will never pick up another dirty cigarette and light it up and inhale it into my lungs again. And I will never change my mind. No matter what.

My lungs are already thanking me.

Let the withdrawal begin!
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You got this. Few months and your lungs will be back to normal.
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4 days in and the worst is behind me.

It was stupid of me to start again. All it took was a few weeks and I was already breaking my own smoking rules as fast as I could make them, and smoking more and more each day. Every time I bought another pack I promised myself it would be the last.... Terrible habit. Just goes to show that with any old addiction, all it takes is the one to get the whole sh*t show started back up again.

I use a little mantra to help. I tell myself NOPE, Not One Puff Ever. Or the AVRT method, I never smoke. Both are effective.

Strike ended yesterday with legislation forcing us back to work. Not the outcome my union was hoping for, but at least it's over. I don't ever want to go thru another, it was highly stressful, and in the end all for nothing. The greedy corporations always win in the end, it's just the world we live in. Sometimes I really feel like I'm working for The Man every night and day! And The Man always finds a way to stick to ya! It's hard not to lose heart sometimes.
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4 days in and the worst is behind me.

It was stupid of me to start again. All it took was a few weeks and I was already breaking my own smoking rules as fast as I could make them, and smoking more and more each day. Every time I bought another pack I promised myself it would be the last.... Terrible habit. Just goes to show that with any old addiction, all it takes is the one to get the whole sh*t show started back up again.

I use a little mantra to help. I tell myself NOPE, Not One Puff Ever. Or the AVRT method, I never smoke. Both are effective.

Strike ended yesterday with legislation forcing us back to work. Not the outcome my union was hoping for, but at least it's over. I don't ever want to go thru another, it was highly stressful, and in the end all for nothing. The greedy corporations always win in the end, it's just the world we live in. Sometimes I really feel like I'm working for The Man every night and day! And The Man always finds a way to stick to ya! It's hard not to lose heart sometimes.

As a result of our stresses we injure ourselves with drugs and other types of negative behaviour. Awareness of our use or abuse is at least a starter in any battle. N.O.P.E.---Yay!
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Old 11-28-2018, 11:51 AM   #7 (permalink)
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Old 11-30-2018, 08:23 PM   #8 (permalink)
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I knew if you said you would do it, it would be done. 'No Matter What'!

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