I'm back
 

It's been a while.
Sober Recovery saved my life when I was 43.
I need saving again at 63.
Started taking my pain meds about 5 years ago.
My old Dr died and my new Dr didn't know anything about my addiction in 2003.
So I started taking them again. Well April 20, 2022 my baby sister died of a heart attack then April of this year my older sister died of covid. Well 2022 started me chasing my tail. I was getting 90 from Dr. And spending every penny on getting pills. I make good money plus get a social security check now and I couldn't even put gas in my car.

So on October 2nd I went to detox because I was tired of lying, running and always wanting.

It's not easy being a 63 year old drug addict.

No, but you've taken the reins now.

I'm sorry for the losses of your sisters. They would be very happy that you've decided to stop your drug use.

Welcome back.

Welcome back TB, sorry for your losses. That makes it harder.

I'm 66 and also too old to be a junkie/drunk. Glad you quit. Forward we go.

I’m sorry for the loss of your sisters but it’s good you made it back here TrueBlue :)
Welcome back :)

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Thanks for the welcome back. I am finally sleeping and the humming in my brain has slowed.

I am doing it!!
My husband is so relieved .

I am terribly sorry for the loss of your sisters. That must be extremely difficult. I am so glad that you made the decision to go to detox. I never did but my partner did in 2012 and I just ground it out. We have both been clean from opioids since then, so eleven years.

I know it is difficult when you have had so many years of sobriety and then feel like you got back on the hamster wheel, but you caught yourself and your life will be back to normal very soon. It just takes time. I absolutely hated that I took pills and never would have imagined that I would have done that. My partner had a very bad back and at that time they were handing them out like candy. I remember going on a trip to Europe in 2008 and we had 300 pills. It was ridiculous.

Please consider getting some grief counseling regarding your sisters. Grief has been a big thing in my life and I often regret never talking to anyone about it. I think it would have made a big difference in my happiness. I'm so very proud that you are back and that you detoxed. Best of luck to you and keep posting. I needed your post today!!

Today is day 20.
Thank you all for the support.
I needed it.

Oh, my goodness! I'm really glad to read this today.

Good job! Do not pick up, no matter what. You're on the path.

Never forget.

20 days is SO huge with Opioids. I know you have taken them long-term, but since you took them in the past, you know the death-grip is over from them. I hope you don't have PAWS, but if you do (I did not, but my partner did) you know they will pass. Extremely proud of you. 20 days is a BIG DEAL,

34 days today. Oh the temptation is there. I am bound and determined not to live the life I was living.
it feels good not chasing my pills.
​​​​​ Thanks for the support.

Congrats on 34 days :)
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Well done True Blue. I am on the second day of no OTC solpadine max, codeine and paracetamol. I really don't know if I'm physically addicted, most likely psychologically. All I know is I was taking far too many, 15-20 at once to achieve relaxation etc. Its been a habit since giving up alcohol over 10 years ago.

Today am restless but will not go to chemist.

Welcome to SR True Blue :)