coversation about rehab turned out discouraging
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Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: Punxsutawney/Pittsburgh
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Thirty years of using, Beth? I don't know how old you are, but at thirty-four years old, I had twenty-five years of heavy using under my poor, pathetic belt. I had screwed up everything I tried to do, I drove everyone I ever loved away from me, and I had wasted more potential than most people have to begin with.
All I knew was using. From the every-weekend drunks when I was nine years old to overcoming my fear and revulsion and smoking crack with a man who'd brutally raped me years before because "he had the stuff," my thought processes were so screwed up, there's no doubt in my mind that it's a miracle that I'm alive and clean today.
I had to relearn everything. I had to learn that true survival was not lying and cheating to get what I needed. I had to learn that self-pity would only drag me down further and was nothing but an excuse. We all have things to deal with, and I only had to deal with the hand I've been dealt. I had to learn that, although I needed to consider how my actions affected other people, I could not manipulate others with people-pleasing tactics to get my own way. I had to not only do the next right thing, but I had to do it for the right reasons. It took a long time to learn just a little bit about right things and right reasons. It's a process, and we aim for progress along the path. If we only settle for perfection, we're doomed to failure.
Statistics? It's been said....we've found a way that's 100% effective. It involves change, and for me, without that willingness, my chances were zero.
What are your chances, Beth?
Peace & Love,
Sugah
All I knew was using. From the every-weekend drunks when I was nine years old to overcoming my fear and revulsion and smoking crack with a man who'd brutally raped me years before because "he had the stuff," my thought processes were so screwed up, there's no doubt in my mind that it's a miracle that I'm alive and clean today.
I had to relearn everything. I had to learn that true survival was not lying and cheating to get what I needed. I had to learn that self-pity would only drag me down further and was nothing but an excuse. We all have things to deal with, and I only had to deal with the hand I've been dealt. I had to learn that, although I needed to consider how my actions affected other people, I could not manipulate others with people-pleasing tactics to get my own way. I had to not only do the next right thing, but I had to do it for the right reasons. It took a long time to learn just a little bit about right things and right reasons. It's a process, and we aim for progress along the path. If we only settle for perfection, we're doomed to failure.
Statistics? It's been said....we've found a way that's 100% effective. It involves change, and for me, without that willingness, my chances were zero.
What are your chances, Beth?
Peace & Love,
Sugah
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Join Date: Apr 2006
Location: Atlanta, GA
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bfree, this is perfect for you! Print this out and keep it with you at all times! You have so much potential but the drugs and alcohol are holding you back! Cut that rope & run for the hills! We will be there waiting for you!
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