nayster

I am abusing alcohol and need to stop. I'm just so tired.

I'm tired of the lies.

I'm tired of hiding my drinking and hiding my alcohol.

I'm tired of the hangovers.

I'm tired of wasting an entire day waiting for the headache and nausea to stop.

I'm tired of my excuses to drink. I'd drink b/c is was Monday. I'd drink b/c it was Friday. I'd drink b/c I was going grocery shopping. I'd drink b/c it'd make my hangover headache go away.

I'm tired of being a drunk mother.

I'm tired of making my two beautiful daughter suffer with a half-rate mother. We should be at the park, but instead they're stuck at home with me until I stop feeling like I'm going to puke.

I'm tired of spending so much $ on alcohol.

I'm tired of my extra weight which I'll never lose b/c of all the liquid calories I consume.

I'm tired of thinking a few drinks make the day better or conversation with others easier.

I'm tired of not being able to have just one drink like most normal people.

I'm tired of wondering what stupid thing I said or did while intoxicated.

I'm tired of worrying that my husband will find my hidden alcohol.

I'm tired of worrying that he knows I've been drinking so much and so frequently.

I'm tired of sitting at the dinner table in silence because I'm afraid my words will slur.

I'm just so tired of it all.

It's easy to want this to end when I sit here with a hangover. We're grilling steaks tonight....and what a great reason to drink! Just one more, right? But it won't be just one, that's the problem.

I read this quote here and it makes perfect sense - Nothing changes if nothing changes.

It has to change. I cannot continue through life like this. My beautiful daughters deserve so much more.

Arura

hi, you deserve peace you sound like a consiensious person,
but the change is for you no1 then you can be the mum
you know you are...children are affected by addictions too.
i had to live and learn n lose.
have faith in yourself and wacth things change...
Good Luck.......

Broccoli

I feel exactly the same and am going to take this ride, too. Do what you've always done and get what you've always got and I am so sick of it. Lets get something new and clean and beautiful. XXXXX

Anna

Welcome Nayster and Broccoli,

You've found a great place to come for support and information.

You've both made a great choice!

hector

[nayster] [broccoli]. Great big hugs.

I was tired too. Tired of trying to convince myself and others I didn't have a problem. Sick and tired of being sick and tired. Tired of trying to figure everything out by myself. Tired of a lot of the same things you're tired of.

I joined AA. I found out I'm not unique, others feel and behaved the same as me. I have friends, real friends, who know that if they don't stay sober, the old misery is waiting patiently to claim them again. Me too.

Get your butt to AA, your mind will eventually follow. And don't drink, no matter what.

I've been sober over 17 years. Remember, I'm pulling for you. We're all in this together.