Wreckage of My Past- My Eye Opener
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Wreckage of My Past- My Eye Opener
I had a letter that really symbolized the truth that had somehow been eluding me all along. I was losing things quicker than I realized. At first, major consequences did not appear but when they did, it all hit at once. I will definitely keep that letter to look at when I am faced with temptation. To me, that symbolizes something very important to me that I stand to lose, if I continue to drink/drug. I have heard that your bottom occurs when the last thing you lost or the next thing you are about to lose is more important to you than the booze/drugs. Then, you realize that you need to throw that shovel down and stop digging. That is where I am at right now.
I definitely know that I am powerless over drugs and alcohol and that my life is unmanageable. I am unable to manage my own life and no human power can relieve me of my addiction but God can. I have to turn it over to my HP because my strength to win this battle is insufficient so I have to rely on my higher power. It is amazing to know that I am not alone in fighting this battle!
I definitely know that I am powerless over drugs and alcohol and that my life is unmanageable. I am unable to manage my own life and no human power can relieve me of my addiction but God can. I have to turn it over to my HP because my strength to win this battle is insufficient so I have to rely on my higher power. It is amazing to know that I am not alone in fighting this battle!
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Well sir your on the right track and I really believe your going to make it. I quit drinking in 1994 and it was hard. But, let me tell you this that after the 1st year I had absolutely no desire for it. And I cannot see myself drinking now!
Keep your chin up and let your HP take the wheel for a change and I know you will make it!
Your friend,
John
Keep your chin up and let your HP take the wheel for a change and I know you will make it!
Your friend,
John
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I'm glad you have seen the consequences of your drinking and it's had a profound effect on you. It can give you strength to get a firm grip on sobriety.
It's still amazing to me how my 'addict mind' controlled my thinking. I came close to losing my husband and children, the things I value the very most in life. My addict mind would convince me to keep drinking - because after all they didn't really care and had all but given up on me and if I lost them, there would be nothing left and I might as well drink anyways. Oh, the insanity!
It's still amazing to me how my 'addict mind' controlled my thinking. I came close to losing my husband and children, the things I value the very most in life. My addict mind would convince me to keep drinking - because after all they didn't really care and had all but given up on me and if I lost them, there would be nothing left and I might as well drink anyways. Oh, the insanity!
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