I quit
 

Hi everyone, im Ben and i have a drug adiction. I live in new zealand and im 19. Its my first day.

Hey Ben:

Welcome to the first day of the rest of your life. I hope you stick to this board. Man, it got and kept me clean, no ****.

19 huh. Your mother has no idea how lucky she is you came here. How lucky she is you are considering getting clean.

What is your drug of choice and how long did you use. We need to assess where you are to better help you.

Ive been using "p" for almost 2years and constantly smoke weed. Ive tried to quit many times but it never lasts.

p? You can say it here hun. P? I just woke up.

This board is cool and not judgmental. We can say our drug names.

Pot is all I could think of and I know you didnt mean that.

its pure methamphetamine otherwise crystal meth

Ahhhh well now, you went ahead on and started at the top huh!

Ok, cool. Nothing we cant handle.

Do you plan to work a program or go it alone?

What prompted you to WANT to be clean?

Well i have already confesed everything to my girlfriend and parents 2 nights ago. I hate not having money. I hate feeling like crap everyday. I used today and im still up it past midnight and i cant sleep.

So you are simpy sick of being an addict, good... kick ass. Great place to be. Thats where I started.

You came clean. GREAT step. One on one face to face owning your addiction. I have alot of respect for you.

Ok, so you are still using (appreciate the honesty, you only need a desire to be here).

Is this the first attempt at becoming clean? If so, take advantage of this as I did. All here taught me it is harder each time. So commit and do it.

Do you feel you can do it among your family or do you feel you need to be in a locked down, rountined environment until you get a clearer mind and more in control of yourself?

Im a very young mom (way too young) to a 17 yr old lil man. I feel so sorry for your mama. This would break my heart. Please hug her and promise her you love her and yourself enough to get clean.

i think i can do it with family support. i have tried before to quit but the longest i go without it is a week.

im to young for this shat

Yeah, maybe your parents can get you into rehab. I know your girl would stick by you if she is still with you now.

30 days sounds like a lot at your age but hun, its nothing. I bet you have alot of friends... they use? Gotta stay away from those guys or its only a matter of time. Right?

she is still with me. she just woke up wanting to know y i am still up. i hate this drug

You sound about ready. Let us know when you commit or just let us know your thoughts for the day.

Im here for you as is all of SR. This really is an awesome place and I dont throw around empty compliments.

ok thanks im going cold turkey as of right now. I dont know what lies ahead but im ready to give up drugs.

Hey Ben... Welcome to SR, a great place to be. As young as you are, rehab may be the place for you right now. If you are serious about getting clean, entering a treatment center and/or program will not only provide you support in recovery, but also great tools that you can use in an effort to stay sober. If I were still 19, I know it would be more difficult to get sober on my own. With friends and peer pressure, I am almost certain it would be next to impossible to stay sober. You have already taken that first step in admitting your addiction and confiding in your loved ones. I wish you the best of luck. I am so pulling for you.

Thanks alot. It wont be easy but im going to make the best effort to give up. Im gunna get pro help tomorrow first thing. Thanks

Welcome to SR Ben! It's great that you see your addiction to meth as something you definately don't want. It is about as scary as you can get.

Google Montana Meth Project and check it out. Scary stuff. Real scary.

Your future is so bright at 19. Please don't give up on you. Let go of the meth now - not later.

**{hugs}} I'm so glad you are here. Keep posting and we're all here to cheer you on.

Suga

Welcome, Ben!

I am glad that you are here reaching out.

Hello My Friend
 

I truly feel for you. Your so young and already in the grasp of addiction and with such a nasty drug. My personal rec would be to find some program and get on lock down as it was said in an earlier post. This drug is nothing to mess around with when your trying to kick its a$$. Please, please, please get into a monitored, locked down clinic. I have an alcohol addiction and it is hard enough to stay away from a beer. I don't want to sound dark and I certainly have no place to speak, it is JMHO though. Your brain chemistry has been altered in a major way and you need professional help and guidance. I just watched a PBS (U.S. Public Broadcasting) program on this drug and it scared even me and I've tried just about everything in past years, even meth but I hated the fact that I could not fall asleep when I wanted to so I never tried it again. Please do it for yourself, your family, your girlfriend and the life that will be in front of you. Get professional help! Peace.

Well said brtprob

Just the fax!
 

thanks beachbabe. I saw before and after pics of folks on this drug spanned over a few years and I thought I was looking at a special effects catalog for a horror movie. Crack has nothing on this drug. It is the perfect drug for self destruction. Not only your life but your physicality as a human. Very scary stuff. I hate being dark about this but it is a fact and all of us have to be truthful here. Right?

thanks guys im slowly but surly getting through this mess

Hang in there, Ben.

Sobriety has its ups and downs but the good stuff that comes out of being clean is worth every effort being put into it.

Drugs lead to a dead end.

I am also struggling to overcome a drug addiction so I know where you are coming from.

It does get better. Keep the faith!

Hey there!~~

Yes, they say that crystal is the worst and hardest drug to get off of. I don't know because nothing ever sucked me in like crystal did. I've tried a lot and I could take or leave it all, but not this drug. I too did it PURE....... Ughh, this stuff sucks.

It will be so hard the first week, you'll have ups and downs. I tried to quit many times also. But SR and many of the people here have been a blessing.
I did it on my own, no detox, nothing. It was sooo hard, if I could have i would have went in patient, but that wasn't an option at the time.
I will have 6 months on Saturday and I still am amazed that I am almost there.

I won't lie to you it's still hard, the meth monster is begging me this week to not hit that 6 month mark. It makes this recovery thing all to real.
But gawd, life is better off that drug. So many better things out there, so much more to do!!~~~

Life is too precious to waste on meth.

PM me anytime!

Glad your here, Keep posting!

Hey ben try montana meth project .com

Hi Ben
 

Ben
You are so lucky to have a supporting family and girlfriend. Please be clean with them, tell them if you have used....they can help you prevent from making the same mistake again. Dont be afraid because they are there for you - u know that... dont be ashamed.
The people who love you are the people who you will probably get angry at first when you go through withdrawls but please understand that they want nothing but the best for you - mood swings are part of it.
After it is all over, and you know you have beaten it, you will feel so awesome, so alive and so in love with life.
THROW yourself into loving life ben, it will help you. "Just Do It".


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Oh and remember, tash Loves you incredibly, you are so special to her you will never know. She will always be by your side as long as you communicate with her...you could even write her a letter everyday-like a confession/progression letter, a diary. Tell her if youve used, tell her if youve done something to make you feel like you have reached your next goal or step to getting over this addiction. You dont have to say it, but if you write it you can get it all down and you know you wont miss a thing. She wont judge, the worst thing she will do is help! It will be painful for the next few steps but after that it will be pure (legal) ecstacy!
Love Conquers all Baby.

well having the support of my loving girlfriend and family does help so much. this website is great, so many warm people to talk to. Exactly what i need to overcome such a horrible drug. thanks everyone i truly am thankfull.