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Old 02-16-2006, 08:36 AM
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First 2 numbers are the hour. Second 2 numbers are the minutes.
Midnight 0000
1AM 0100
2AM 0200
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Noon 1200
1PM 1300

Add the hour to 12 and you get 1300 (1 PM)

Subtract 12 from the miltary and you get the PM

1730 -12 = 5:30 PM
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Old 02-16-2006, 08:39 AM
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Hope your past it but for future reference, the Serenity Prayer is what got me through those horrible thoughts, without fail, everytime!
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Old 02-16-2006, 08:55 AM
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5:30... I have an appt. at 6 but one I believe my assistant could handle as long as I called my client and let it be known I was being 'pulled away from the office'.

*Deep breath* This is the kind of meeting

Discussion/Participation, It Works Study, Step, Tradition

Sounds like a good one to start with. I'll have my 10 bucks in my pocket for the book.

God, I thought this amounted to not taking a pill. It is soooo much more than that. I have to learn how to be clean. Learning to be an addict was easy enough. Learning to reverse the damage will probably take twice as long as my addiction so Im looking at at least a 20 yr plan.

I am going to plan my work and work my plan. Do the best I can with what I've got. Ignore the PAWS that is such a trigger for me (cuz of the chills).

And well, just be damned proud I didnt use yesterday, hadnt used today and wont, with Gods help, use tomorrow. Looking at it from a lifetime stand point is just too much right now. Besides, I could get hit by a bus next week. God forbid, but at least I'd leave this earth clean and sober to stand before my Lord.
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Old 02-16-2006, 09:01 AM
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Don't get ahead of yourself.

Stay in the now.

Focus on today.

1_day@_a_time.......

Sometimes 10 minutes at a time.

Make up your mind.

Make it to the meeting. No matter what.

You will be proud of yourself.

Keep it simple.
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Old 02-16-2006, 09:29 AM
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*repeats an old saying granny use to use K. I. S. S.: Keep It Simple Stupid' lol

That ol' lady was a trip, God I miss her.

I will let ya'll know how it goes.
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Old 02-16-2006, 09:44 AM
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Do you deserve to quiet your mind and have some inner peace?
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Old 02-16-2006, 10:35 AM
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Yes I do, I believe all do except those that have hurt children. For them, they deserve to live in hell, with no sense of well-being. That is worse than prison. It is, in a very big way, a type of prison in itself.

Quiet my mind, lord I cannot even grasp that concept. If NA/AA will/could do that for an individual, I'll be not at one meeting a day but several.

Hell, I have an addictive personality, being addicted to not being addicted could be a good thing.
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Old 02-16-2006, 11:23 AM
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Will you then, commit to yourself, you will go to an AA* or NA meeting today, no matter what?

* Might be more your style......

NO MATTER WHAT!
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Old 02-16-2006, 04:15 PM
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Thumbs down

When I clicked on the link to find a meeting, I didnt realize after putting in my zip that the calandar started on Mondays. When I got to the meeting place, noone was there. I couldnt figure out what the problem was. Did I have the address right?

I came back online while in the parking lot and there I realized I was looking at Monday meetings. I have no idea how I missed that, very detail oriented.

I went, I just didnt accomplish a goal... today. But I have the calandar and understand how it works now.

Im ok, depression could sink in if I let it but I am on top of that so far. I have to stay super busy though and get out of the house as everyone else does or somedays I end up just staying home and not even bothering to go in for my messages. A day on the couch is NOT what someone with only a month under their belt needs.

I need to get to a meeting though. I dont need help in not using as much as I need a warm body that has walked in my shoes, knows better where I am than I do, and cant lift some of this confusion.

Sorry I didnt read the day and time right, it was given to me and a child could figure it out... I didnt realize I was looking at Monday until I got back online and then plain as day, I knew instantly what I had done... I didnt go to the next page to see TODAY.

I was pumped and ready. Almost looking forward to it. Almost. I was eagar to be able to share my experience with all of you, newbies especially.

Im not scared to stand and say My name is and Im an addict. In fact, I look forward to the opportunity. Have no clue why or what that will do for me but I want/need to do that.
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Old 02-16-2006, 04:48 PM
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Hi BB,

Sorry you didn't get to a meeting. Can you phone the local AA Office and find out the time of the next meeting you can get to and maybe arrange to go with someone else (another member from your area).

I have been sober for nearly 9 months and I go with others (escorted lovingly) to meetings.

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Old 02-16-2006, 04:55 PM
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There are meetings all day, everyday. Probably even a candlelight one tonite!

You're on the right track, keep suiting up and showing up!
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Old 02-16-2006, 05:11 PM
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Keep cheering me on... ya'll all I got right now.

I need accountability, even if virtual until I can get to a meeting.

I commit to tomorrow. If I dont get to one, its because Im making excuses. Call me on it.

I have made the decision to go with AA initially. With my bi-polar, NA may be too much stimuli right now. Concentration takes all my might sometimes.
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Old 02-17-2006, 10:41 AM
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"Call me on it........."

STOP analyzing so damn much.

GO to a meeting.

Start the process.
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Old 02-17-2006, 04:18 PM
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I've been clean and sober for 21 years through NA and AA. The meeting have saved my life. They have given me a life. It could work for you too. Give it a try.
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Old 02-17-2006, 05:45 PM
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"Call me on it........."

STOP analyzing so damn much.

GO to a meeting.

Start the process.
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Old 02-18-2006, 02:19 AM
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SATURDAY TIMES

Saturday Night Recovery Meeting for AA/NA Members
Topic Meeting... 12-Step Format
6:30 PM Pacific/7:30 PM Mtn./8:30 PM Central/9:30 PM Eastern
Chair: Luckyv2

Although still virtual, it is a meeting and I commit. I was dealing with the loss of a pet with my 5 yr old yesterday. Poor punkin just dont understand. I told him to be happy, his puppy was an angel in heaven now, waaay happier. He just wipes his tears away and says 'I know, but when will she be back!'

Anyone else going to be able to make it?
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Old 02-18-2006, 09:38 AM
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Beachbabe - GO to a meeting. Trust me on this. If at first you don't succeed try try again. Some of the best true friends I've ever had came from the rooms of NA......they are still with me through thick and thin, good and bad and everything in between.

Hang in there girl!! I'm pulling for you.
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Old 02-18-2006, 10:42 AM
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Sorry to hear of your loss. Pets really are a part of family.
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Old 02-18-2006, 01:31 PM
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He is taking it so hard. So sad to see him hurt. He understands but is manipulating himself into pretending he doesnt. Almost as if he accepts an understanding then it has came into fruition. If not, it isnt so.
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Old 02-18-2006, 01:46 PM
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Learn to be comfortable...being a bit uncomfortable...who said that? It is exactly what I needed to hear today. It really helps me continue to "sit with stuff" and fet oer the mania that creeps up. It's a cold Saturday afternonn and I have a long eve ahead with my daughter, I am lookig forward to being present with her, doing something silly without a glass of wine at my side. It has been one month since I had a glass of wine!!! Yay!!!! "Feels so much like saying"bless me father ....it has been one month since my last confession..in a way I am confessing, no longer Catholic....Wow! I can do this1 Thanks everyone/
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