Journey of Hope
 

Hi Hopester! Always happy to join you on the jormey!
Bless, Triah

I'm glad that you are sharing my journey with me Trish!
You are awesome!! :)

[Hope]. Great big hug.

Some people will make fun of you. Something like "I have gone to look for myself. If I should return before I get back, please keep me here til I arrive."

Or "Want to find yourself? Put your hand straight out from your shoulder, palm inward. Now bring your palm swiftly to your cheek. (slap) There you are! $100 please!"

Laugh out loud. Those are pretty good.

I've come to realize just in the past couple of months that there are no answers to life's big questions: Who am I? Why am I here? What do I want? Everything changes so fast. By the time I figure that out, I'm somewhere else. Also, what I want now may not be what I want tonight, let alone tomorrow. The only thing I can hang my hat on as permanent is love. I'm here to love others as myself.

I hope that's helpful. As you've said, recovery is a journey, not a destination. Good luck on your trip!

Thank you Hector! That was helpful!

Welcome to my journey! I feel so much stronger!

I was just thinking about how great God's love is and how He is always there no matter what and through everything. I wrote this to thank Jesus for His great love.

There are times when Jesus just carries us through anything we are going through. Sometimes the pain is so great, Jesus knows and he holds us close. Sometimes, the people who we thought cared about us, turn away and hurt us, but Jesus sees this. He wipes the tears from our eyes. He sees when we lose someone we love and He takes our hand and guides us gently with His precious love. He knows every unspoken need, every joy, every hurt, and he knows our deepest fears and worries.

He wants to take the burden off of us and He wants us to lift our worries and hurts up to Him in prayer. He wants to carry this for us , all we have to do is ask Him and it is done. Nothing we ever do will separate us from God's love and grace. We are forgiven and new in Christ. Old things are gone and all is new.

When it hurts so much to hang on, let it go up to God in prayer. God loves us and wants a relationship with Him. Let's open up the lines of communication with the One who gave us life.

God,
Thank you for loving us so much that you sent your precious Son, as a sacrifice to take away our guilt and we are bought and paid in full.
Thank you for your grace and love and thanks for loving us, even at the times when we found it hard to love ourselves.

Thank you Jesus for saving my life many times. I want to take my life and give it back to you. My life is all yours Jesus. It's all about you Jesus.

I want to find myself again. Addiction stole my soul and destroyed my life. I am sorting through the pain, shame, guilt and rebuilding a solid foundation for a new life.

I know one thing for sure, I don't want to fall back to addiction. I have the willingness and an open-mind to do everything that I'm told. I want a better life.
It gets difficult to see that it does get better so I have to hold on to hopek based on the experience of others who shine the light with their experience, strength, and hope. I am following the path of recovery and I hope that one day I, too, can have a success story of my own.

I am an alcoholic and a drug addict and I have to build the mental defense against the first one. If the first one goes into my body, all control is just lost.

I'm grateful today for a desire to recover.

Feeling lonely tonight. :frown:
I think it just might be a part of the emotional rollercoaster.
I'm holding on tight to the bus and I'm strapped in really good.

Hope4life,
I like your new beginning user name and your beautiful new avatar. I really like what it all represents. I understand the feeling of needing a fresh new start. You can do this, you know. Your very life depends upon it. It is that important and desireable. My son has been clean and sober now since the 1st of December and he said that he would never go back to that lifestyle because life is complicated enough without adding all of that extra complications to it. He says that he would rather deal with life with a clear head than the other way because it is so much simpler. Please try to come back to SR alot more often. Do you go to face-to-face meetings and have a sponsor. I feel that these things are very important to your recovery because of all of the support that you get from others who understand what you're dealing with and because through these resources, you never have to be alone with these demons. It's so easy to just lay down and say I just can't do this, but it's really a lie to think that because it is so much harder after you do that. Keep coming back here. We are here with you and we care about you. (((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))

(((Nina Kay))) Thank you so much for your message. That really warmed my heart tonight and gave me more hope. I really needed to hear those words and you helped me more than you know. I've been getting involved with AA and I am looking for a sponsor at the moment. I have been beaten down so much that I am at the point of being willing to do anything that will keep the demons from winning. I don't want anymore pain. I'm putting everything into my recovery because I choose to live.

I'm so glad that you posted!

Thank you. :hug:

Hugs,
Hope

Sending hugs from Mikey. :)

Hi Hope,

Good to see you are so positive about your recovery. I just gave my fourth step to my sponsor tonight myself. Supposed to do my 5th this coming Saturday if all goes well.

Here's to being active in recovery!

Jup.

Thanks for the hugs Mike. Here are big hugs heading your way. :)
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Jup, congrats on getting the 4th step completed! I know you must feel a bit relieved. :) You are doing great!

((((Hope))))

:Valearth:

Hugs coming your way from around the world.

Etimee

Just starting my 4th step, Hope.....glad you are still here to share the journey with. It's been a rough time for a lot of us, I'm glad we have each other. Despite what some may say about AA/NA, you'll never know until you give it a chance whether it'll work for you or not. I'm happy to see you at least giving it a real chance this time....and yourself as well.

Welcome home....:)
Love, Genie

PS-Something my group uses as one of our slogans: "I don't know who I am yet, but I like who I'm becoming!"

Happy Valentine's Day to my dear friends!

I love you all and I'm glad that I am a part of such a great group!

Rough Night!!!!!!!!
 

I'm having a hard time. My uncle just got out of rehab today and it hasn't helped him at all. He is after me tonight to give him a ride to get something and I have been telling him NO and he just won't leave me alone!!! The battle is raging hard in my head now and this sucks. My meeting is at 8 and I have to get through until then.

My addiction is screaming and it is making me irritable because my grandma just keeps telling me about my bills and I told her that I would get my bills paid but right at this moment, I have to focus on saving my life. She doesn't understand how hard this is. I am right on the verge of falling off tonight and I feel so weak. I'm going to a meeting and enlisting help in this battle.