splendra

(((Mr Party Starter))))

That is not the worst story I ever heard...or saw... but you know what the worst ones are still out there getting worse...at least you do want to get better.

Give yourself a break and also forgive us if we have poured salt on your wound. Come on there's a seat for you here...Welcome!!

Mr.PartyStarter

You've attempted to climb atop a doberman for merely sexual intent?

CAPTAINZING2000

As I said before, this type of questions should be in private with a sponsor.

You have a question with regards to trying to stop drinking , go ahead and ask.

Mr.PartyStarter

Well. As of late, my drinking has increased two fold. I use to drink to start the party. Now, Sadly.. i drink to forget. Forget the savage beating i incurred on Monroe Drive at the hands of people i thought were my friends. People who i had smoked the kindest of dope with out of my homemade gravity bong. People who i slaved alongside over a flickering flame to make Calzones and Vegan pizzas for trust fund loft living brats. They rewarded my friendship with a furry of fist and insult. Okay. I tried to insert my phallus (I was accordingly fully erect) into my co-workers trusted hound. Jesus, let bygones be bygones.

I fear i may very well take my life. The shame is too great.

splendra

Franklin...

Hey dude hang on it is alright....read some of the recovery follies and get a laugh..believe me worse has happened...

Mr.PartyStarter

Only dogs get mad eh? Lord knows i'm aware.

Cindi R

Sadly to say, this is not the first time that I've heard this particular sort of confession...
While it may be extremely humiliating for you, it can be your motivating factor to give sobriety a chance.
What is your line of work?
If you are surrounded all day with people who humilate you it may be time to look for a new job and a fresh start...
But many of us have felt suicidal as well...
It may seem as if there is no way out...but there is

Anna

Mr. PartyStarter,

Welcome and I'm glad you found us.

Please read this if you are feeling suicidal:

http://www.soberrecovery.com/forums/...dal-44510.html

CAPTAINZING2000

The shame is going thru the rest of your life high and drunk.

If, this bothers you a lot, you might reloacte to another city.

Let me tell you, there wasn't one bet I'd turn down etc. while drinking and drugging my friend. You think that's the worst story I've heard, you're wrong

Sheryl85

You might have something there.

Anna

We are here to offer support to Newcomers, so please refrain from judgemental remarks. It doesn't help anyone.

Sheryl85

You are right. I apologize.

raerob

You titled this thread "God Help Me", and He surely will; but, it's up to you to do the footwork...that involves going to AA meetings, taking the cotton out of your ears and putting it in your mouth (in other words, LISTEN). Buy some literature at the meetings...the Big Book would be an excellent start...but, don't just add it to your home library...READ IT!

Sorry, if we didn't live up to your expectations...but, we can only offer suggestions of how it worked for us in getting/staying sober. Hopefully, you'll be able to see some of the wisdom here and use it to your advantage.