nervous!!!!
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nervous!!!!
good morning to all!!!
i have made it almost 5 days!!!!!!yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! starting to feel a little better. did not sleep much last night, but i am okay, hanging in there. i am going to my home town today for christmas, just for the day, and i am very NERVOUS!!!!! i really don't want to go, but my son has got to see his grandmother for christmas. {my mom} {who is an addict}. we are really close too, like sisters. but she really wants to see me do good and she knows i havequit taking pills, so maybe it won't be right in my face.
i have prayed alot about this, i know how my addict brain thinks!!!!!! but with the hepl of my higher power, i think i will make it, wish me luck. i will check in this evening to let yall know what happens
merry christmas everyone
love
danielle
i have made it almost 5 days!!!!!!yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!! starting to feel a little better. did not sleep much last night, but i am okay, hanging in there. i am going to my home town today for christmas, just for the day, and i am very NERVOUS!!!!! i really don't want to go, but my son has got to see his grandmother for christmas. {my mom} {who is an addict}. we are really close too, like sisters. but she really wants to see me do good and she knows i havequit taking pills, so maybe it won't be right in my face.
i have prayed alot about this, i know how my addict brain thinks!!!!!! but with the hepl of my higher power, i think i will make it, wish me luck. i will check in this evening to let yall know what happens
merry christmas everyone
love
danielle
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My thoughts and prayers are with you, Danielle.
That you can overcome and indeed thrive during your holiday visit.
And that your mom will be inspired by your strength and join you on your path to freedom.
I am a bit worried myself. I'll be going to my family's houses this weekend for Chanukah celebrations. I quit smoking 26 days ago. Many of them smoke, so, I understand your fears.
But, we can do this! I have a plan to help me not smoke in the face of temptation. I'm going to keep busy helping out, to say my mantra, to go for a walk and to tell others not to give me one, even if I ask.
What's your plan if an urge hits or if it's "right in your face."
Be good to yourself; you deserve it!
Shalom!
That you can overcome and indeed thrive during your holiday visit.
And that your mom will be inspired by your strength and join you on your path to freedom.
I am a bit worried myself. I'll be going to my family's houses this weekend for Chanukah celebrations. I quit smoking 26 days ago. Many of them smoke, so, I understand your fears.
But, we can do this! I have a plan to help me not smoke in the face of temptation. I'm going to keep busy helping out, to say my mantra, to go for a walk and to tell others not to give me one, even if I ask.
What's your plan if an urge hits or if it's "right in your face."
Be good to yourself; you deserve it!
Shalom!
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WOW 5 days is huge, way to go. I think that you will be alright Danielle. I sure have been thinking about you and I will continue to send good thoughts your way. Remember this too that if the pressure does get over-whelming even though it is the holidays you can choose to go back home early. You are taking your own vehicle right? OK have a Merry Christmas to you too..
Love Vic
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no!!!
no, i do not have my own vehicle vic,
i am riding with my dad, i have not built my trust up enough to get a vehicle again, you know how that goes, but i have faith that i will be fine, thanks to everyone, i will let you know!!!!!!!!!!!
love
danielle
i am riding with my dad, i have not built my trust up enough to get a vehicle again, you know how that goes, but i have faith that i will be fine, thanks to everyone, i will let you know!!!!!!!!!!!
love
danielle
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wait, i also wanted to say......
oh yeah i wanted to add, it really sucks because i wish i could go home for good, i miss it there, but i just know what is best for me at this time.
that is rally my biggest downfall, is my home town and me always running back when i get frustrated or hurting to bad i usually just give up within a day or two, not this time though
love
danielle
that is rally my biggest downfall, is my home town and me always running back when i get frustrated or hurting to bad i usually just give up within a day or two, not this time though
love
danielle
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shame!!!!
well i di screw up, i guess i was to weak enough to go home that soo, don't wanna talk about it too much right now but in a few days when i start all over agin i will come back, and explain what happened, i know i don't have to, but i just want to. that is what sr is for to be open mined and get things off you chest, get support from others, which i have
i am sorry, but only to my self!!! i will beat this though, i just know it!!!
i pray ALOT, and i know and believe he will get me there, where i really want to be!!!
love
danielle
[FONT=Comic Sans MS]accept life an lifes term, always wanting it danielle's way never cuts it, with god's help i will learn to accept life on lifes term, GOD GRANT ME THE SURENETY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE,THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN, AND THE WISDOM TO NO THE DIFFERENCE AMEN[/FONT/]
i am sorry, but only to my self!!! i will beat this though, i just know it!!!
i pray ALOT, and i know and believe he will get me there, where i really want to be!!!
love
danielle
[FONT=Comic Sans MS]accept life an lifes term, always wanting it danielle's way never cuts it, with god's help i will learn to accept life on lifes term, GOD GRANT ME THE SURENETY TO ACCEPT THE THINGS I CANNOT CHANGE,THE COURAGE TO CHANGE THE THINGS I CAN, AND THE WISDOM TO NO THE DIFFERENCE AMEN[/FONT/]
JUST DO IT!!
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(((((((((((((((((((((Danielle))))))))))))))))))))
A relapse isn't a bad thing honey, it is just part of us we are addicts. Sometimes a relapse will help us get stronger into our program.. Please don't beat yourself up, I have faith in you and I know that we can beat this..I am sending good thoughts your way...
Love Vic
A relapse isn't a bad thing honey, it is just part of us we are addicts. Sometimes a relapse will help us get stronger into our program.. Please don't beat yourself up, I have faith in you and I know that we can beat this..I am sending good thoughts your way...
Love Vic
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Relapse happened to me many, many times ("relapsed" several times a week for 17 years), but hasn't happened for almost 11 months now (sober now, thank God). If I can do this you can too! Don't knock yourself too hard, just get back up and try again. I did over and over and it finally "stuck". I'm thinking more and more it has been due to a higher power. What else could have given me this relief?
Hang in there, consider a support group like NA, and come back here. AA helpded me, so there is a lot to be said for groups like that. SR has been incredible!
Jup.
Hang in there, consider a support group like NA, and come back here. AA helpded me, so there is a lot to be said for groups like that. SR has been incredible!
Jup.
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