A new life
A new life
Day 2 for me. No more pot. It was the last thing for me to let go of, and the hardest. I found the desire again. I had the desire before, it just wasn't stronger than the desire to get high. It's been a struggle. This disease really took a beating on my self esteem. I went back to feeling like a no good loser real quick. It was hard for me to come to my senses. I was embarassed and didn't want to face the people in the rooms. What a dummy I was. They asked me where I had been, then they hugged me and welcomed me home. I have been one of those chronic relapsers. Trying to rewrite the program to fit my lifestyle. Half measures.......avail us nothing. It's true. I have to learn things the hard way, though. Time to dig myself out of this hole.
Wishing everyone a blessed day.
Sherry
Wishing everyone a blessed day.
Sherry
Greetings Sherry;
My comments below are exactly that, comments. I am not a doctor, therapist, or counselor. I have no medical, or psychological training whatsoever. I am a former addict with a desire to help others, nothing more.
For me, pot was a habit that took me thirty seven years to overcome.
I am so glad that I did.
I have had issues with just about any kind of drug you can name. I could quit any of the "hard drugs" and just smoke my pot. I have had more difficulty laying down the pot then any other drug.
But just smoking pot was no big deal right? I had smoked pot for 37 years, daily for over 30 years. I suspect if I had never smoked pot I would have never touched the other drugs.
Search far and wide to find the support you need to quit.
Being able to cope with daily problems, and being comfortable in you own skin is important. Some people have great success with AA, NA, or other self-help programs for this very reason.
Myself, I relied on a strong will, support of my wife, and SoberRecovery. This is a decision only you can make.
I do realize that my choice to do it on my own, is probably not the best way to overcome an addiction.
I am just being honest with myself and others, nothing more.
My comments below are exactly that, comments. I am not a doctor, therapist, or counselor. I have no medical, or psychological training whatsoever. I am a former addict with a desire to help others, nothing more.
For me, pot was a habit that took me thirty seven years to overcome.
I am so glad that I did.
I have had issues with just about any kind of drug you can name. I could quit any of the "hard drugs" and just smoke my pot. I have had more difficulty laying down the pot then any other drug.
But just smoking pot was no big deal right? I had smoked pot for 37 years, daily for over 30 years. I suspect if I had never smoked pot I would have never touched the other drugs.
Search far and wide to find the support you need to quit.
Being able to cope with daily problems, and being comfortable in you own skin is important. Some people have great success with AA, NA, or other self-help programs for this very reason.
Myself, I relied on a strong will, support of my wife, and SoberRecovery. This is a decision only you can make.
I do realize that my choice to do it on my own, is probably not the best way to overcome an addiction.
I am just being honest with myself and others, nothing more.
Thanks Plano. I am giong to meetings and spending time here at SR. I am just taking it one day at a time. I know that I cannot use any substance. Even my beloved pot. Time to say goodbye. Time for a new way.
Sherry
Sherry
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It does take awhile for it to leave but just hang on and it won't be so strong. They told me that it takes sometimes up to 3 months for pot to get out of your system LOL it took almost 5 for me I smoked it from up till bed. That is if I even went to bed. I am sending some special good thoughts your way.
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Love Vic
It does take awhile for it to leave but just hang on and it won't be so strong. They told me that it takes sometimes up to 3 months for pot to get out of your system LOL it took almost 5 for me I smoked it from up till bed. That is if I even went to bed. I am sending some special good thoughts your way.
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Love Vic
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Sherry,
I will keep you in my prayers! Remember that you do not have to do this alone and you have a lot of support. We are reaching our hands out for you to hold on to. You can do this and I truly admire your honesty. You have so much strength inside of you and this is what is going to help move you forward in your recovery.
I'm glad that you are here Sherry!!
Love,
Cheryl
I will keep you in my prayers! Remember that you do not have to do this alone and you have a lot of support. We are reaching our hands out for you to hold on to. You can do this and I truly admire your honesty. You have so much strength inside of you and this is what is going to help move you forward in your recovery.
I'm glad that you are here Sherry!!
Love,
Cheryl
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Originally Posted by sherbear5104
Day 2 for me. This disease really took a beating on my self esteem.
Sherry
Sherry
Thanks for posting that, I needed to read it. Self easteem goes out the window when I start hiding out and drinking. Even if nothing happens, drinking happens, and thats enough to make me feel like a zero.
Every day sober these feeling get less for me and they will for you too. Digging out is possible when I am sober.
You just keep going sounds like you are ON THE RIGHT TRACK!
Big hugs to my family here. Thank you all for your kind words and support. I can do this. We can all do this. One day at a time. I had a great night at work tonight. I just started at the theaters 3 weeks ago, part time, and they had me working by myself tonight. I did good, too. Out a half hour before I thought I would be. Never closed by myself. That helped my self esteem a tad bit. Every bit counts. I am off to bed. Talk to everyone tomorrow.
Sherry
Sherry
Sherry, pot was the hardest for me to give up too. Truth be told, I still get the occasional craving for it, even more so than the alcohol. But I know I had to give it up forever and as they say....this too shall pass. It always does. Keep comin' back, girl....neither of the buses are the same without you on them!
Love Genie
Love Genie
Keep busy busy to help keep your mind off the bad things. It really helped my wife and I to stay away from the evil weed for good.
Week-ends were the time when it would try to sneak up on us. Keeping busy kept that from happening. Meeting are great but, its the time before and after your meetings when you must be vigilant as well.
Week-ends were the time when it would try to sneak up on us. Keeping busy kept that from happening. Meeting are great but, its the time before and after your meetings when you must be vigilant as well.
Good point. Keeping busy. I have to work tomorrow morning and then Sunday night. Maybe Sunday morning, too. I am on call. I've been going to the show with my son a lot. I get in for free, perk of my second job. When I am home, I am on here most of the time. I know that if I get bored, my disease gets strong. No time for that. I have a life to live. We all do!
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