2dayzmuse

Welcome and good luck.

I'm off of the BP meds since I've quit drinking. It's a good feeling to know I am no longer destroying my body.

rookknight65

Hi Scotty,
Congrats on taking that first step. There's a lot of help and a lot of great people in here. My girlfriend has yet to say those words that i've been waitting for for over a year. No, not "I Do", but "I'm an alcoholic". It takes alot of courage and I wish you serenity, courage and wisdom. This is a great site. I get a lot of comfort here daily from these guys. Keep coming back.

P.S. Do we play chess together on another website?

earlybird

First of all,....from your post, you sound like a very intelligent, responsible person. Alot of people make the mistake of labeling all alcoholics as irresponsible losers. Most of us are very caring, responsible people. We just have this problem. Thats ok. Congratulations on being a strong person in admitting this. That is the biggest step really. I dont know what AA or other forms of help groups Japan has to offer, but meetings sure helped me. I was POSITIVE I was a hopeless case. I drank a gallon or so of whiskey a day and chased it with a couple of 40 oz beers. DAILY. I did that for about 6 years. I lost almost everything. The biggest things I lost along the way, though, were my dignity, confidence and self-respect. My heart stopped in the ER for almost a full minute. I was in the hospital 7 times for delirium tremens episodes. I knew I had to stop, but, I absolutely could NOT see a life without drinking. I wanted to, but I just couldnt. I went into a treatment center for 30 days, and then AA three times a week after that and still attend to this day. I have everything I lost back now AND MORE !!! All you need is support. AA did that for me,...but there are other forms too. Good luck to you. All you have to do is really want this. Congrats, again !!!!! Ill be praying for you.

BeamMeUpScotty

Thanks everyone for the words of hope and encouragement. I truly do appreciate them.

I didn't drink last night, which I felt good about this morning. The first part of the night was a bit restless, but then I settled down and actually had some dreams which I can still remember today.

Unfortunately, I'm spending the day in more than a bit of trepidation. When I left the clinic last night, they told me to come in again on Monday. But this morning they wanted me to come in this afternoon after work. I'm not 100% positive, but I'm pretty sure she said the results were not all that good. I'm not feeling good about the moving up of the schedule, but what can I do?

Man, I hope I don't need surgery or something along those lines.

Again, thanks for all of your help.

ASH

Good for you, you are taking action to get your life on track!
A friend used to have a saying "Bad news is good news." The seemingly twisted logic was that if you know about something you can take care of it, sooooo that made it good, at least better than not knowing.
You are in the driver seat and can take care of your health when you are sober but no chance when your not.
I hope all goes well for you this afternoon, keep posting, it gets better every day.
Take Care

miss communicat

Scotty,

I'm glad you wrote tonight. Honesty is always the best policy. It allows the best in others to support the best in you. So does sobriety.Congratulations on your choice!

MC

earlybird

Look,..if it doesnt work out with this job,..its not the end of the world. Just stay sober and you will always have the self-confidence that employers find employable.

BeamMeUpScotty

Hello all,

Thanks again for the words of encouragement. I got through my second night without drinking. The only cravings really came after I came back from the clinic, which happened to coincide with the time I usually start to drink. I told my two best friends I have here and they have been very supportive and helpful. After I spoke with them for a while after the clinic we watched some South Park and I came home and watched some videos. I slept better than last night, which is good.

As for the clinic, the doctor said the data indicates liver disfunction, probably hepatitis (sp?) or psoriasis. Not much I can do until I go to a specialist on Monday except start educating myself on both and starting to figure out a proper diet/excercise routine. Any hints?

He did say I was relatively young (36) and that there's hope. Man, I hope so. I am scared right now.

CarolD

the doctor said chirrosis ...which I spelled wrong most likely!

Google liver disease+ alcohol to check it out.

I really think you should not jump into any form of self medicating with
Vitamins or Herbs or Diet until you see your doctors plan.

BTW...livers do heal.

You can ovrcome this...

GoinSmilin

Scotty - I like to conciously recognize one small victory at a time.. many little ones each day. Victories always feel good to me and make me want to achieve more of them. I guess its a competition in my mind and I am whipping the heck out my opponent. Give that thought process a try. Go WIN!!

jpeace2

Scotty, first congrats on getting through two tough nights without drinking, that's great! Now...about that health....you made a VERY good point earlier when you said tenure wouldn't matter if you're worm food. Whether or not you believe in a Higher Power of any sort, perhaps this is part of a journey you needed to take in order to come to terms with your alcoholism once and for all. The job may only be a means to that end, if that makes any sense.....but that's up to you to decide. In the meantime, take it one day at a time and keep posting, we'll be here for you, no matter what the outcome.

BeamMeUpScotty

DOH!! And I teach English!!