Being happy how I was born
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Being happy how I was born
When I was in the drug world,
dipping into danger; doing things
a man shouldn't be doing for so
many years.
Buying just to keep my buzz going,
my legal scrip ran out in only 10
days.
I have learned so much in my walk
of recovery, I will no longer take
chances doing things I am not
suppose to do.
When I was popping my opiates
addiction so many people new
I was abusing my pills. At times
I would freely pass a couple out
here and there.
Feeding people flesh with pills and
alcohol . When I think back I was just
looking for attention.
I have learned if I am not happy with
my looks or my life I need to sit down
with a shrink and figure out a cure
why I am not happy being me. So many
years my shrink was numbing my feelings
just so I could handle living life. Every sense
they day I got on my knees and prayed
and said God I really know you are there.
I am so sorry for running scared for so
many years. Angry at you for how my looks
look, blaming you for allowing me to be born
with a ugly painful disease.Please forgive me
and take this addiction from me. At that moment
the desire to numb my mind totally left and
I have been free every sense then.
And I will still say being honest with myself
was a giant step of being a successful recovering
addict. I now accept how I was born I would rather
have it then someone else.
Taking chances, It isn't my cup of tea anymore to
please other flesh by doing things that are not
suppose to be done.
dipping into danger; doing things
a man shouldn't be doing for so
many years.
Buying just to keep my buzz going,
my legal scrip ran out in only 10
days.
I have learned so much in my walk
of recovery, I will no longer take
chances doing things I am not
suppose to do.
When I was popping my opiates
addiction so many people new
I was abusing my pills. At times
I would freely pass a couple out
here and there.
Feeding people flesh with pills and
alcohol . When I think back I was just
looking for attention.
I have learned if I am not happy with
my looks or my life I need to sit down
with a shrink and figure out a cure
why I am not happy being me. So many
years my shrink was numbing my feelings
just so I could handle living life. Every sense
they day I got on my knees and prayed
and said God I really know you are there.
I am so sorry for running scared for so
many years. Angry at you for how my looks
look, blaming you for allowing me to be born
with a ugly painful disease.Please forgive me
and take this addiction from me. At that moment
the desire to numb my mind totally left and
I have been free every sense then.
And I will still say being honest with myself
was a giant step of being a successful recovering
addict. I now accept how I was born I would rather
have it then someone else.
Taking chances, It isn't my cup of tea anymore to
please other flesh by doing things that are not
suppose to be done.
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