Off the Beaten track
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Join Date: Jan 2005
Location: London, United Kingdom
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Off the Beaten track
Somehow i fear i have fallen off the beaten track and somehow i have got to back on it again since a lot of people depend on me - my husband, my two children, my two stepchildren. It is not so much a drink thing as a perscription drug thing. Basically since having my youngest son (5 months old) i have been on anti depressants... well about two weeks ago i decided that i wasn't depressed anymore so i came off them.... anyway i know feel dreadful... i know it is a chemical imbalance but at the same time my parents have been doing alot of blaming and shaming me which "kills" my spirit and makes me sick with awe. Anyhow if they don't stop i shall cut them out of my life entirely, i just can't take any more of it.... in the meantime i have got to get back on the path. Did a gratuity list yesterday and i am just getting in my car ready to attend a 12 step al-anon meeting.
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Join Date: May 2004
Location: England
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(((Jo)))
Hope the meeting gave you what you needed for today.
Boundaries are a great thing to have when dealing with people who aren't good for your spirit. Maybe it's time to revisit the ones you have with your parents.
Keep posting - it always helps me reach some clarity.
Hope the meeting gave you what you needed for today.
Boundaries are a great thing to have when dealing with people who aren't good for your spirit. Maybe it's time to revisit the ones you have with your parents.
Keep posting - it always helps me reach some clarity.
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Join Date: Apr 2004
Location: western canada
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Hey Jo....
there is a better life out there for all of us...
all we have to do is do the work around identifying the behaviors and thought processes that allow us to be victimized by the addict in ourselves... and the people outside us that we allow to push our buttons...
that's the problem...
the track ain't beaten...
it's overgrown cause we haven't used the higher road in a while.. ;o)
just one right thing after another...
blessings on your efforts Jo.
there is a better life out there for all of us...
all we have to do is do the work around identifying the behaviors and thought processes that allow us to be victimized by the addict in ourselves... and the people outside us that we allow to push our buttons...
Somehow i fear i have fallen off the beaten track
the track ain't beaten...
it's overgrown cause we haven't used the higher road in a while.. ;o)
just one right thing after another...
blessings on your efforts Jo.
Stronger every day!
Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: PA
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Hang in there Jo, sounds like you are starting to take better care of yourself by going to meetings and such. I agree with the others, toxic people, even if they are family, are sometimes best left at arm's length in early recovery if they are only going to add to our already crappy feelings about ourselves. That was difficult for me but I was...am...worth it and so are you. Good luck and keep posting! 
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