Sober since April, Just now starting the recovery...
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Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: Lawrenceville, Georgia
Posts: 10
Sober since April, Just now starting the recovery...
I sobered up off meth in April, and I thought I could do it alone. I refused rehab, and NA meetings...but now I'm starting to realize how much I need the extra help. My only saving grace right now is the fact that I'm pregnant. I still crave it, smell it, taste it, and dream about doing it. I still want to do it every day. I'm really scared of what's going to happen after I have this baby. I mean, there was even a point in time where I was dumb enough to think "Just one line won't hurt the baby, right?" Luckily I wised up before I let it happen. I got sober on my own accord. But I'm not sure where to go now to actually start to recover. My mom suggested that I start going to meetings in my area. I'm not sure how I feel about that. Somebody please help me. I refuse to let this stuff take hold of my life again. And I refuse to let it ruin my future child's life. I know someone can give me the advice i need. Thank you all.
Don't get undies in a bunch
Join Date: Apr 2004
Location: South Shore MA
Posts: 7,120
It is great that we can do so much on our own.
Getting clean and sober isn't about what we can do on our own though.
It is what it is... getting clean and sober.
If I can lift 200 lbs by myself, why should I if help is available?
If I can find 3 people to help me, the job gets done and it gets done easier.
Meetings would be just that... getting others to give a hand, even though I might be able to do it by myself.
Work smart...not hard.
Support is available, may as well use it.
Getting clean and sober isn't about what we can do on our own though.
It is what it is... getting clean and sober.
If I can lift 200 lbs by myself, why should I if help is available?
If I can find 3 people to help me, the job gets done and it gets done easier.
Meetings would be just that... getting others to give a hand, even though I might be able to do it by myself.
Work smart...not hard.
Support is available, may as well use it.
Reach Out and Touch Faith
Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: On a Sailboat
Posts: 3,871
Welcome!
I recommend you start meetings, it is great support and you get tools you can use to help you stay clean and recover. Start now, so that you will have some tools before the baby is born.
And good luck.
I recommend you start meetings, it is great support and you get tools you can use to help you stay clean and recover. Start now, so that you will have some tools before the baby is born.
And good luck.
Member
Join Date: Aug 2004
Location: somewhere
Posts: 3,384
I'm an addict and I used to feel the same way. I was so scared to go to meetings and actually get help for my addiction. I struggled for a year and a half alone. I was able to stay clean for several months when I gave into temptation one day. I wasn't going to meetings at that time. I did not have people to call or anyone to listen...until I started meetings and found SR.
But...you have the chance. You have us here to listen and support you. Also, NA is a great place to find people who understand and you will meet so many new friends.
I was so scared at first about checking out the meeting, but after I went, I discovered that it was the best thing that I had done for myself.... In a way I gave myself a huge gift. This is the best thing you can do for yourself.
We are here for you!!! Stick around SR!
Hugs,
Cheryl
But...you have the chance. You have us here to listen and support you. Also, NA is a great place to find people who understand and you will meet so many new friends.
I was so scared at first about checking out the meeting, but after I went, I discovered that it was the best thing that I had done for myself.... In a way I gave myself a huge gift. This is the best thing you can do for yourself.
We are here for you!!! Stick around SR!
Hugs,
Cheryl
Don't get undies in a bunch
Join Date: Apr 2004
Location: South Shore MA
Posts: 7,120
The good things is... You have been going.
Great job on your days collected.
Meetings and support they can give just make it easier.
With the right tools in hand, the idea of what you worry about after the baby comes, you will find that the tools we can use for recovery will help you there as well.
Great job on your days collected.
Meetings and support they can give just make it easier.
With the right tools in hand, the idea of what you worry about after the baby comes, you will find that the tools we can use for recovery will help you there as well.
Member
Join Date: Aug 2004
Location: somewhere
Posts: 3,384
The steps and recovery
When you get time, this is a pretty cool website.
http://nickscape.net/recoveryzone/how.htm
http://nickscape.net/recoveryzone/how.htm
Reach Out and Touch Faith
Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: On a Sailboat
Posts: 3,871
First, don't let them scare you. We take it one small step at a time.
From the Little White Book
(tons go great NA literature here = http://www.na.org/ips/eng/index.htm )
How it works
If you want what we have to offer, and are willing to make the effort to get it, then you are
ready to take certain steps. These are the principles that made our recovery possible.
1. We admitted that we were powerless over our addiction, that our lives had
become unmanageable.
2. We came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
3. We made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God
as we understood Him.
4. We made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
5. We admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature
of our wrongs.
6. We were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
7. We humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
8. We made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends
to them all.
9. We made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would
injure them or others.
10. We continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.
11. We sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God
as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power
to carry that out.
12. Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to
addicts, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
From the Little White Book
(tons go great NA literature here = http://www.na.org/ips/eng/index.htm )
How it works
If you want what we have to offer, and are willing to make the effort to get it, then you are
ready to take certain steps. These are the principles that made our recovery possible.
1. We admitted that we were powerless over our addiction, that our lives had
become unmanageable.
2. We came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity.
3. We made a decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God
as we understood Him.
4. We made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.
5. We admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature
of our wrongs.
6. We were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character.
7. We humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings.
8. We made a list of all persons we had harmed, and became willing to make amends
to them all.
9. We made direct amends to such people wherever possible, except when to do so would
injure them or others.
10. We continued to take personal inventory and when we were wrong promptly admitted it.
11. We sought through prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God
as we understood Him, praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power
to carry that out.
12. Having had a spiritual awakening as a result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to
addicts, and to practice these principles in all our affairs.
Reach Out and Touch Faith
Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: On a Sailboat
Posts: 3,871
Thanks for the link AngelHugs, I'm over there now going over step 1 to get more out of my meeting 
Thought of you Jessichelle when I read this quote from that link:
Thought of you Jessichelle when I read this quote from that link:
For the newcomer working the 1<sup>st</sup> Step: Keep it simple, surrender, admit defeat, abandon all destructive forces, form new beliefs, heighten your strength of mind, be honest and open-minded, willing, faithful, and hopeful. By living in the moment, we receive the ability to be strong, firm, steadfast, and dedicated to the renewal of our mind. I hope that my personal experiences and beliefs regarding the 1<sup>st</sup> Step of Narcotics Anonymous has brought you enlightenment, and knowledge of this first step that begins our journey of recovery.
Don't get undies in a bunch
Join Date: Apr 2004
Location: South Shore MA
Posts: 7,120
Step one... addmitting we have a problem and seeking help.
You have started your step one already.
At meetings, they will go over each step and give you understanding of what each step is.
The steps are tools, that when used correctly, they give us understanding and strength to over come our addictions.
You have started your step one already.
At meetings, they will go over each step and give you understanding of what each step is.
The steps are tools, that when used correctly, they give us understanding and strength to over come our addictions.
Reach Out and Touch Faith
Join Date: Jul 2005
Location: On a Sailboat
Posts: 3,871
Originally Posted by best
Step one... addmitting we have a problem and seeking help.
The steps are tools, that when used correctly, they give us understanding and strength to over come our addictions.
The steps are tools, that when used correctly, they give us understanding and strength to over come our addictions.
ADDICT
Thread Starter
Join Date: Aug 2005
Location: Lawrenceville, Georgia
Posts: 10
I just calculated that as of Saturday, I have been clean for 128 days! There are 2 things that I try to tell myself everyday:
1. That everyday i stay clean makes me a better person
2. "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..." -from Finding Nemo...I'm still a kid!
1. That everyday i stay clean makes me a better person
2. "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming..." -from Finding Nemo...I'm still a kid!
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