Hi Sr
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Join Date: May 2004
Location: Atlanta
Posts: 325
Hi Sr
Hi,
I am still around, in the midst of a week long relapse but here non the less, and want to stay here clean. I dont know how I relapsed, I didnt plan on it, I didnt want to. I just get so frustrated that my husband still uses that I begin to think crazy things. like he will think I am boring now and wont spend time with me. I was 40 days cleanl, felt great, and decided to havea beer b/c i felt I never had a problem with that. So I opened it, my husband came home, and within 5 minuted I had my drug of choice in my hand, and then in my mouth. Now a week has gone by, a blur, back to my old ritualistic ways going to work, going home taking pills, drinking and sitting by myself. I hate this life. I love the life I had just over a week ago W/ NA. A great sponser, good friends, and mostly self respect. I am going back to NA on Sat but this time i am going to have to tell my husband thta I know it is not going to work out with him using. I have tried to sugar coat it every way thus far, we have been together 12 years I am 29, I have tried, just dont use in front of me, just dont let me find out, just dont do it in our house, but I think although breaks my heart it will now have to be if you are using get help, or get out. But I know for sure that wont work if he doesnt want it to. I dont know what to do. Please help.
Christine
I am still around, in the midst of a week long relapse but here non the less, and want to stay here clean. I dont know how I relapsed, I didnt plan on it, I didnt want to. I just get so frustrated that my husband still uses that I begin to think crazy things. like he will think I am boring now and wont spend time with me. I was 40 days cleanl, felt great, and decided to havea beer b/c i felt I never had a problem with that. So I opened it, my husband came home, and within 5 minuted I had my drug of choice in my hand, and then in my mouth. Now a week has gone by, a blur, back to my old ritualistic ways going to work, going home taking pills, drinking and sitting by myself. I hate this life. I love the life I had just over a week ago W/ NA. A great sponser, good friends, and mostly self respect. I am going back to NA on Sat but this time i am going to have to tell my husband thta I know it is not going to work out with him using. I have tried to sugar coat it every way thus far, we have been together 12 years I am 29, I have tried, just dont use in front of me, just dont let me find out, just dont do it in our house, but I think although breaks my heart it will now have to be if you are using get help, or get out. But I know for sure that wont work if he doesnt want it to. I dont know what to do. Please help.
Christine
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Join Date: Oct 2003
Location: Rhode Island
Posts: 9,293
(((Christine)))
I'm so glad you are going back to NA!!!
I've been told that if we fail to plan, we plan to fail. Did you have a plan the last time? It appears as if you do now. WHat will you do if he continues to come home with pills and uses in the home after you've set your boundary?
You have every right to live your life clean and sober. Be good to yourself; you deserve it!
Shalom!
I'm so glad you are going back to NA!!!
I've been told that if we fail to plan, we plan to fail. Did you have a plan the last time? It appears as if you do now. WHat will you do if he continues to come home with pills and uses in the home after you've set your boundary?
You have every right to live your life clean and sober. Be good to yourself; you deserve it!
Shalom!
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