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If I can make it thru the next two days, that will be great. So much to do and I'm doing the stuff I can do to make it thru these days without much stress. A lot will be determined for me so I'm praying that everything will go alright. I need the strength to get thru, but I know I can find it right inside of my soul.
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Thanks to those who offered their congratulations. That really gave me a big push forward.
Today is one of those days where you just feel sad at everything and the tears seem to flow so freely. One thing I haven't had to worry about in the past few weeks is dry eyes. It is as if all of my emotions are heightened right now. One day, the tears will subside to more smiles.
I'm pretty sure of it.
Today is one of those days where you just feel sad at everything and the tears seem to flow so freely. One thing I haven't had to worry about in the past few weeks is dry eyes. It is as if all of my emotions are heightened right now. One day, the tears will subside to more smiles.
I'm pretty sure of it.
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Day 15
You guys and gals: I made it to DAY 15...that is half of 30. Whoohoo, I keep on going and I'll hit the big 30! I'm feeling slight improvements but it could be better. It is still better than it was so I'm happy! Feeling kinda tired today and maybe just a little lazy, but grrrr...stress.
How long does it take for the emotional rollercoaster to slow down? I'm feeling kinda wind blown from the ride.
Got any advice to offer this wind-blown newbie?
How long does it take for the emotional rollercoaster to slow down? I'm feeling kinda wind blown from the ride.
Got any advice to offer this wind-blown newbie?
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Angel....i'm not sure if anyone told you....but 30 days gets you a sundae of your choice....and the calories don't count!! (Sine you stopped drinking, you lost 1000's of empty calories...so even with a sundae you are really far ahead)
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Thanks for stopping by! It is good to have people hang out here with me on this thread.
I'll be feeling much better when I reach my sundae. ::licks lips::
Can't wait! Or can I? hehe.........
I'll be feeling much better when I reach my sundae. ::licks lips::
Can't wait! Or can I? hehe.........
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Just earlier I was thinking about how my mind tries to rationalize using. The voice of the addiction screams "fun" but my recovery mind says, "pain and heartache." It is good that I have better things to look forward to.
I got a copy of the Big Book.
I got a copy of the Big Book.
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I ran 3 miles tonight. I feel pretty good. I have to get up very early in the morning. As in 4 AM early. Gee, what am I going to do? hehe...just wake up and get myself kicked into gear.
I guess I should get to bed early tonight. Tomorrow is my big test.
Please send prayers my way for me to do well on the test. God is in control. The outcome is in His hands.
I guess I should get to bed early tonight. Tomorrow is my big test.
Please send prayers my way for me to do well on the test. God is in control. The outcome is in His hands.
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Day 16
Thanks for the support my friends. I'm glad that the test is over with. I don't think I did as well as I hoped, but I don't want to guess as to how the results will turn out. All I need now is more inner turmoil, yeah right.
I was disappointed today. I just cried and I knew that I have made life a lot harder on myself. I wasted so much time and sacrifices my dreams and have nothing to show for it. I was so full of my own stuff today and it was crowding my mind.
I guess things will all work out when they are supposed to and when the time is right. All I can do now is work on me and try to fit the pieces of the puzzle into the right spots. And I can always choose not to go back to where I used to be.
Today, I have a choice and I choose a better life for myself.
I was disappointed today. I just cried and I knew that I have made life a lot harder on myself. I wasted so much time and sacrifices my dreams and have nothing to show for it. I was so full of my own stuff today and it was crowding my mind.
I guess things will all work out when they are supposed to and when the time is right. All I can do now is work on me and try to fit the pieces of the puzzle into the right spots. And I can always choose not to go back to where I used to be.
Today, I have a choice and I choose a better life for myself.
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