It's just beginning........
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Day 12
(((Lulu))) (((Denise)))
The good news is that I'm starting to feel a little less tired. At one point, I was just falling asleep all over the place. Now I am but doing that, but I'm able to get up and do a little more during the day. Still not able to get lots done, but I feel like I'm on my way.
Half measures availed me nothing so I'm giving this thing all I've got. So much to look forward to!
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I'm heading somewhere wonderful!
The good news is that I'm starting to feel a little less tired. At one point, I was just falling asleep all over the place. Now I am but doing that, but I'm able to get up and do a little more during the day. Still not able to get lots done, but I feel like I'm on my way.
Half measures availed me nothing so I'm giving this thing all I've got. So much to look forward to!
:boat I'm heading somewhere wonderful!
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Today was just a bad day for me. I was so moody and angry at the world today. I'm just glad that it didn't trigger any urges. Fortunately, I realized that using would not solve my problems.
Here I am having to search for both a job and a place to live. It is just so hard. Meanwhile, the guy I care about just left for the summer and I'm struggling with my summer classes.
Can't anything just go right for me for once? I'm just feeling like an angry bunch of nerves tonight. Sorry for the vent, ahhh, at least my head will hit the pillow tonight sober. If being sober is all I did today, then today was a successful day.
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C
Here I am having to search for both a job and a place to live. It is just so hard. Meanwhile, the guy I care about just left for the summer and I'm struggling with my summer classes.
Can't anything just go right for me for once? I'm just feeling like an angry bunch of nerves tonight. Sorry for the vent, ahhh, at least my head will hit the pillow tonight sober. If being sober is all I did today, then today was a successful day.
Hugs,
C
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Day 13
Good morning everyone!
Hugs and wishes for a sober 24 to you all today! You are all in my prayers and I believe that we all have it in us to stay sober.
We can do it together!
Hugs and wishes for a sober 24 to you all today! You are all in my prayers and I believe that we all have it in us to stay sober.
We can do it together!
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scared
You know how you have those days that you just have to break down bit by bit instead of the whole 24 hours?
Well, right now I just can't seem to focus on staying sober for 24 hours because it is too overwhelming. I don't know why it hit me that hard when the thought crossed my mind.
Truthfully, I am scared but tomorrow I will have 2 weeks and I don't want to throw that away because I have worked so hard for it.
My strategy: focus on staying sober for an hour at a time. I just might claw my way thru this day.
It seems kind of quiet on the board this morning..........
Well, right now I just can't seem to focus on staying sober for 24 hours because it is too overwhelming. I don't know why it hit me that hard when the thought crossed my mind.
Truthfully, I am scared but tomorrow I will have 2 weeks and I don't want to throw that away because I have worked so hard for it.
My strategy: focus on staying sober for an hour at a time. I just might claw my way thru this day.
It seems kind of quiet on the board this morning..........
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Hang on Angel!! Just keep telling youself that you are a different person now. You are a person who does not use, so it is not even an option for someone like you!! Just keep drilling that into your head and eventually it will become automatic. Take it an hour at a time, or a minute a time if necessary!! Take care.
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Thanks Tyler!!
I'm hanging in there...won't use today (a mantra I keep saying to myself).
There is nothing good in drinking/drugging so why subject myself back into that torture.
But, our minds are pretty good at forgetting the pain and remembering the good. That is why I try to remember how much my last binge hurt me and damaged my soul. I'm still standing..........doing pretty good for 13 days clean and sober.
I'm hungry,, need some pancakes.....lol
I'm hanging in there...won't use today (a mantra I keep saying to myself).
There is nothing good in drinking/drugging so why subject myself back into that torture.
But, our minds are pretty good at forgetting the pain and remembering the good. That is why I try to remember how much my last binge hurt me and damaged my soul. I'm still standing..........doing pretty good for 13 days clean and sober.
I'm hungry,, need some pancakes.....lol
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pumpkin cinnamon pancakes
Serves 2
Pecan Syrup:
1 cup maple flavored pancake syrup, Log Cabin Original Syrup®
5 tablespoons pecans, toasted and chopped, Diamond®
Pancakes:
1 cup buttermilk pancake mix, Aunt Jemima®
2/3 cup cold water
1/3 cup canned pumpkin, Libby’s®
1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon, McCormick®
1/8 teaspoon ground ginger, McCormick®
Nonstick vegetable cooking spray, PAM®
Butter, room temperature, Land O’Lakes®
PREPARATION:
Prep time: 5 minutes
Cooking time: 6 minutes
Pecan Syrup Preparation:
Combine maple syrup and pecans in small microwave-safe bowl.
Heat in microwave on high until hot, about 25 seconds.
Set pecan syrup aside and keep warm.
Pancake Preparation:
In a medium bowl, whisk pancake mix, water, pumpkin, cinnamon, and ginger until just blended (do not overmix; mixture should be lumpy).
Spray a heavy griddle with nonstick spray and heat griddle over medium heat.
Spoon 2 tablespoons of batter onto griddle to form each pancake.
Cook for 2 minutes or until bubbles appear, then turn pancakes over and cook for 2 minutes longer.
Transfer pancakes to plates.
Top with butter and serve with warm pecan syrup.
Serves 2
Pecan Syrup:
1 cup maple flavored pancake syrup, Log Cabin Original Syrup®
5 tablespoons pecans, toasted and chopped, Diamond®
Pancakes:
1 cup buttermilk pancake mix, Aunt Jemima®
2/3 cup cold water
1/3 cup canned pumpkin, Libby’s®
1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon, McCormick®
1/8 teaspoon ground ginger, McCormick®
Nonstick vegetable cooking spray, PAM®
Butter, room temperature, Land O’Lakes®
PREPARATION:
Prep time: 5 minutes
Cooking time: 6 minutes
Pecan Syrup Preparation:
Combine maple syrup and pecans in small microwave-safe bowl.
Heat in microwave on high until hot, about 25 seconds.
Set pecan syrup aside and keep warm.
Pancake Preparation:
In a medium bowl, whisk pancake mix, water, pumpkin, cinnamon, and ginger until just blended (do not overmix; mixture should be lumpy).
Spray a heavy griddle with nonstick spray and heat griddle over medium heat.
Spoon 2 tablespoons of batter onto griddle to form each pancake.
Cook for 2 minutes or until bubbles appear, then turn pancakes over and cook for 2 minutes longer.
Transfer pancakes to plates.
Top with butter and serve with warm pecan syrup.
Pecan Syrup:
1 cup maple flavored pancake syrup, Log Cabin Original Syrup®
5 tablespoons pecans, toasted and chopped, Diamond®
Pancakes:
1 cup buttermilk pancake mix, Aunt Jemima®
2/3 cup cold water
1/3 cup canned pumpkin, Libby’s®
1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon, McCormick®
1/8 teaspoon ground ginger, McCormick®
Nonstick vegetable cooking spray, PAM®
Butter, room temperature, Land O’Lakes®
PREPARATION:
Prep time: 5 minutes
Cooking time: 6 minutes
Pecan Syrup Preparation:
Combine maple syrup and pecans in small microwave-safe bowl.
Heat in microwave on high until hot, about 25 seconds.
Set pecan syrup aside and keep warm.
Pancake Preparation:
In a medium bowl, whisk pancake mix, water, pumpkin, cinnamon, and ginger until just blended (do not overmix; mixture should be lumpy).
Spray a heavy griddle with nonstick spray and heat griddle over medium heat.
Spoon 2 tablespoons of batter onto griddle to form each pancake.
Cook for 2 minutes or until bubbles appear, then turn pancakes over and cook for 2 minutes longer.
Transfer pancakes to plates.
Top with butter and serve with warm pecan syrup.
Serves 2
Pecan Syrup:
1 cup maple flavored pancake syrup, Log Cabin Original Syrup®
5 tablespoons pecans, toasted and chopped, Diamond®
Pancakes:
1 cup buttermilk pancake mix, Aunt Jemima®
2/3 cup cold water
1/3 cup canned pumpkin, Libby’s®
1/2 teaspoon ground cinnamon, McCormick®
1/8 teaspoon ground ginger, McCormick®
Nonstick vegetable cooking spray, PAM®
Butter, room temperature, Land O’Lakes®
PREPARATION:
Prep time: 5 minutes
Cooking time: 6 minutes
Pecan Syrup Preparation:
Combine maple syrup and pecans in small microwave-safe bowl.
Heat in microwave on high until hot, about 25 seconds.
Set pecan syrup aside and keep warm.
Pancake Preparation:
In a medium bowl, whisk pancake mix, water, pumpkin, cinnamon, and ginger until just blended (do not overmix; mixture should be lumpy).
Spray a heavy griddle with nonstick spray and heat griddle over medium heat.
Spoon 2 tablespoons of batter onto griddle to form each pancake.
Cook for 2 minutes or until bubbles appear, then turn pancakes over and cook for 2 minutes longer.
Transfer pancakes to plates.
Top with butter and serve with warm pecan syrup.
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MMMMM!!! Sounds good!!
You never have to feel that pain again because you are not that person anymore. You are now a person who doesn't use and deserves the best in life. Remember that!!
You never have to feel that pain again because you are not that person anymore. You are now a person who doesn't use and deserves the best in life. Remember that!!
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1. Read a book
2. Take a walk
3. Play a musical instrument
4. Knit
5. Clean your closets
6. Research your genealogy
7. Cook a gourmet dinner
8. Write an article for your local newspaper
9. Go take some pictures
10. Clean the mildew in your bathroom
11. Start writing that book you've been planning
12. Plan a garden
13. Plant a garden
14. Play with a pet
15. Read to a child
16. Visit someone in an old folks' home
17. Watch a news special on TV
18. Set up a family budget
19. Make a web site
20. Take up archery
21. Exercise
22. Go to an online recovery meeting--SMART Recovery, AA, Sober Recovery
23. Surf the internet
24. Call your mom
25. Learn a foreign language
26. Write a poem
27. Play golf
28. Take a bubble bath
29. Draw
30. Teach a parakeet to whistle
31. Take a nap
32. Listen to music
33. Paint
34. Clean your desk
35. Start a stamp collection
36. Go window shopping
37. Browse in a book store
38. Go to an art gallery
39. Go for a drive
40. Paint a room
41. Watch the clouds go by
42. Play darts
43. Do target shooting
44. Do home repairs
45. Clean your garage
46. Sort your photographs
47. Make a scrapbook
48. Climb a tree
49. Plant a tree
50. Make marmalade
51. Make a list of things to do
52. Write a letter to the editor
53. Volunteer somewhere
54. Take a hike
55. Take a college class
56. Try yoga
57. Meditate
58. Get a massage
59. Make fruit smoothies
60. Bake cookies
61. Do a crossword puzzle
62. Go to the gym
63. Plant a color bowl
64. Sharpen your pruning tools
65. Change your engine oil
66. Sew
67. Groom your dog
68. Go see a play
69. Write a sonnet
70. Sort your recipes
71. Play solitaire
72. Go bird watching
73. Write a letter to a friend
74. Read poetry
75. Repot your house plants
76. Go to a movie
77. Mow your lawn
78. Take down your Christmas lights
79. Make pickles
80. Go jogging
81. Watch sitcoms
82. Plan menus for a diet
83. Do a jigsaw puzzle
84. Play chess
85. Write a country-western song
86. Watch a video
87. Go for a bike ride
88. Plant an herb garden
89. Start an online journal
90. Dye your hair
91. Go to a restaurant
92. Lift weights
93. Bake some bread
94. Learn a martial art
95. Polish the furniture
96. Make a flower arrangement
97. Read the newspaper
98. Start some seeds
99. Sort your magazines
100. Go to bed.
2. Take a walk
3. Play a musical instrument
4. Knit
5. Clean your closets
6. Research your genealogy
7. Cook a gourmet dinner
8. Write an article for your local newspaper
9. Go take some pictures
10. Clean the mildew in your bathroom
11. Start writing that book you've been planning
12. Plan a garden
13. Plant a garden
14. Play with a pet
15. Read to a child
16. Visit someone in an old folks' home
17. Watch a news special on TV
18. Set up a family budget
19. Make a web site
20. Take up archery
21. Exercise
22. Go to an online recovery meeting--SMART Recovery, AA, Sober Recovery
23. Surf the internet
24. Call your mom
25. Learn a foreign language
26. Write a poem
27. Play golf
28. Take a bubble bath
29. Draw
30. Teach a parakeet to whistle
31. Take a nap
32. Listen to music
33. Paint
34. Clean your desk
35. Start a stamp collection
36. Go window shopping
37. Browse in a book store
38. Go to an art gallery
39. Go for a drive
40. Paint a room
41. Watch the clouds go by
42. Play darts
43. Do target shooting
44. Do home repairs
45. Clean your garage
46. Sort your photographs
47. Make a scrapbook
48. Climb a tree
49. Plant a tree
50. Make marmalade
51. Make a list of things to do
52. Write a letter to the editor
53. Volunteer somewhere
54. Take a hike
55. Take a college class
56. Try yoga
57. Meditate
58. Get a massage
59. Make fruit smoothies
60. Bake cookies
61. Do a crossword puzzle
62. Go to the gym
63. Plant a color bowl
64. Sharpen your pruning tools
65. Change your engine oil
66. Sew
67. Groom your dog
68. Go see a play
69. Write a sonnet
70. Sort your recipes
71. Play solitaire
72. Go bird watching
73. Write a letter to a friend
74. Read poetry
75. Repot your house plants
76. Go to a movie
77. Mow your lawn
78. Take down your Christmas lights
79. Make pickles
80. Go jogging
81. Watch sitcoms
82. Plan menus for a diet
83. Do a jigsaw puzzle
84. Play chess
85. Write a country-western song
86. Watch a video
87. Go for a bike ride
88. Plant an herb garden
89. Start an online journal
90. Dye your hair
91. Go to a restaurant
92. Lift weights
93. Bake some bread
94. Learn a martial art
95. Polish the furniture
96. Make a flower arrangement
97. Read the newspaper
98. Start some seeds
99. Sort your magazines
100. Go to bed.
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Originally Posted by AngelHugs
No, it won't be easy, but I'm worth it so I'm going to work it!
So,keep up the good work.The payoff will be awesome. 
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I really miss my friend today. He won't be back for a few months. I am glad that we got things right between us before he left. They say absence makes the heart grow fonder.Only time will tell.
He will be back in a few months, but why is it so hard still?
He will be back in a few months, but why is it so hard still?
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I just feel like giving up.
I know this is probably self-pity, but I am like "why do I have to go thru this struggle
for the rest of my life." Why can't I just be like the "normal" people who do not have
to fight this battle and struggle with this monkey on their backs. They don't have to
worry about being triggers to go use. Is this self-pity or resentment or both?
I know this is probably self-pity, but I am like "why do I have to go thru this struggle
for the rest of my life." Why can't I just be like the "normal" people who do not have
to fight this battle and struggle with this monkey on their backs. They don't have to
worry about being triggers to go use. Is this self-pity or resentment or both?
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It does get better, it will not be like this for the rest of your life. Remember, this too shall pass. Feelings come and go and you are feeling bad right now. You will feel bad again, and you will feel good too, that is living life. Take care, have hope.
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