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self harming to me is like screaming without words. i feel better afterwards, and then stupid after that. and the drug thing, i agree, its the whole process... and tattoos and piercings yes im in love with those too. having tattoos is good because the feeling goes on for longer. and piercings... infinate |
Originally Posted by infinate self harming to me is like screaming without words. infinate, Welcome again to SR! I'm so glad to see you posting around! Love and hugs, Eddie :fish: |
oops I used to cut back in the seventies. I was just starting to use drugs and alcohol but they were not my reason for doing it. I did not want to die. I felt worthless and unloved. Each slice felt better. I felt like I deserved it. I just wanted someone to love me or at least pity me. Then as I tried more drugs I stopped the cutting because I was able to escape those feelings as long as I was high enough. Then I quit drinking and drugging for 17 years. I made myself go to AA for the first two years but was deathly afraid to share (I felt my problem was much deeper than alcohol and drugs) I just white knucled it until last Thanksgiving I went back to drinking. At first I enjoyed it but then it got to the point it made me more miserable and I have decided to quit again. This time I am going through counselling and meds and reading all the acoa and inner child stuff I can find. Sorry I wandered in my post but I have just found this site and am excited. I have never been able to share this stuff anywhere before. Thankyou Dave |
Originally Posted by DavefromPa then as I did more drugs I stopped the cutting because I was able to escape those feelings as long as I was high enough. Now I am getting those thoughts about cutting back again. Welcome to SR, Dave!! Keep coming back!! Love and hugs, Eddie :grinattk: :ny9 :grinattk: |
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