findinganewme

HARSH WORDS

I ran into a stranger as he passed by,
"Oh excuse me please" was my reply.
He said, "Please excuse me too;
I wasn't watching for you."
We were very polite, this stranger and I.
We went on our way saying good-bye.
But at home a difference is told,
how we treat our loved ones, young and old.
Later that day, cooking the evening meal,
My son stood beside me very still.
As I turned, I nearly knocked him down.
"Move out of the way," I said with a frown.
He walked away, his little heart broken.
I didn't realize how harshly I'd spoken.
While I lay awake in bed,
God's still small voice came to me and said,
"While dealing with a stranger, common courtesy you use,
But the children you love, you seem to abuse.
Go and look on the kitchen floor,
You'll find some flowers there by the door.
Those are the flowers he brought for you.
He picked them himself: pink, yellow and blue.
He stood very quietly not to spoil the surprise,
and you never saw the tears that filled his little eyes."
By this time, I felt very small,
and now my tears began to fall.
I quietly went and knelt by his bed;
"Wake up, little one, wake up," I said. "
Are these the flowers you picked for me?"
He smiled, "I found 'em, out by the tree.
I picked 'em because they're pretty like you.
I knew you'd like 'em, especially the blue."
I said, "Son, I'm very sorry for the way I acted today;
I shouldn't have yelled at you that way."
He said, "Oh, Mom, that's okay. I love you anyway."
I said, "Son, I love you too,
and I do like the flowers, especially the blue."

Gooch

Nice thought Maria..

I know that way too many times in teh past, I haven't taken the time to think about the "marks" I was leaving on people. it's easy when we are hurting, or going through something, or even when we are just in a hurrry or distracted by soemthing else to miss an opportunity to leave someone feeling kicked instead of hugged.

oops .. see should have read hugged rather than kicked.. ( grateful for the edit button.)

Being more aware of my own failings has made it easier to cut someone else a break, who might be in a hurry or distracted by something, or just trying to do their job.

Dan

We're all here. 'cause we're all sick.
I think Gooch said that once or twice
As long as we keep in mind that we're all real people, on top of whatever broken parts that may have brought us here, we stand a good chance of riding out the waves.
Together.

Ann

Maria

Thank you for your PM and just want you to know it's not a problem. Today is a new day, let's both enjoy the day and get back to sharing some recovery. It's what we do best here.

Hugs
Ann

findinganewme

Yes, Ann, I agree!

I can't explain why I did or said what I said. I'm sure you know that while trying to recover from these poisonous substances makes us more emotional ..... and heck, I was already an EMOTIONAL mess ..... and instead of thinking with our hearts, we sometimes just don't THINK ..... we react.

It's something I have to keep intact these days ..... my emotions.

Sometimes I cry ..... even if there's no reason to cry ..... just because I want my life to be RIGHT again.

If you only knew how UNLIKE me it is to do what I did!!!! It's as if we go through life with blinders on as we try hard to ease our guilt and obsessions over our addictions.

Anyway, I'm doing what I do best ..... RAMBLE!

Thank you and God Bless!

Maria

hopealwayz

No one is perfect and we all make mistakes. Overcoming these substances makes us more emotional at times . We are learning to live life without the aid of alcohol and drugs and it can be a little tricky at times.

wingsfreed

Phewy letting out a huge sigh of relief.....

Marie you got that right on the EMOTIONS...it's awful.....I usally take it out on myself, pull deeper inside.....NOT ANY MORE....see my new name..smiling.

I want life to be right again also...whatever right is, I've forgotten, but want to relearn...it's almost being born again isn't it? and it can be very painful.

I ramble on too, sometimes that drives me nuts, I think after why the heck did my fingers type all of that, and lots of times it pure nonsense, oh boys.

Happy you've slowed your thinking down...you're calmer now.

Take care of yourself Marie...let this wonderful gang guide you through all your bumps and bruises on the journey to sobriety (sanity again). Don't take things so much to heart ok.....that makes me think, I've said this before and I think it's so weird, I can take an insult better then a compliment, isn't that the darndest thing, LOL.

Anyway be gentle with yourself.

Denise