Is it possible?
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Join Date: Nov 2004
Location: Dubh Linn - Ireland
Posts: 455
Wolverine,
Keep posting and reading and you will see just how possible it really is and how you can live a great and rewarding life if you let go......
Just stay away from the first drink - it is that simple.........
I am pulling for you too!!!!
Keep posting and reading and you will see just how possible it really is and how you can live a great and rewarding life if you let go......
Just stay away from the first drink - it is that simple.........
I am pulling for you too!!!!
Not all better, getting better
Join Date: Feb 2002
Location: The Beautiful Inner Banks of NC
Posts: 1,702
Keep comming back Wollverine!! It is a process, it doesn't happen overnite. At least you continue to reach out for help. All I can do for you right now is send you a dancing bananna!!! 
There's three, they do a little line dance!! I know it is tough, but don't give up hope!
There's three, they do a little line dance!! I know it is tough, but don't give up hope!
Learning as I go
Join Date: Dec 2004
Location: Oklahoma
Posts: 730
It's a hard battle, which I have lost several times since trying to get clean. I'm not giving up the fight yet and you can't either. Keep going to the meetings. Yesterday when I went I talked about all I want right now is to be high, it drives me crazy. Someone said just keep coming back, your body is here and eventually your mind will follow.
Stay with us, we need you here.
Stay with us, we need you here.
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Join Date: Apr 2005
Location: west sussex, uk
Posts: 60
I know how u feel Wolverine. Ive been on this site 2 weeks, and fell of wagon 4 times since and feel like a bit of a fraud for being here, seems like everyone else is doing so well.
I wish u could buy willpower in the shops!
Mo x
I wish u could buy willpower in the shops!
Mo x
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Join Date: Mar 2005
Location: NYC, NY
Posts: 193
Hey W and LBP...
Don't be discouraged or compare yourselves to other's stories of staying clean....maybe they just didn't (like myself!) let everyone know about their early attempts AND failures!! I know that I fell and got up many many times in the privacy of my addiction...I think you are doing the right thing being open about it, and it may help you get through the testing period more easily. The numbers of people who were successful the first time, second, third, etc must be very low.
Best Wishes for today.
Don't be discouraged or compare yourselves to other's stories of staying clean....maybe they just didn't (like myself!) let everyone know about their early attempts AND failures!! I know that I fell and got up many many times in the privacy of my addiction...I think you are doing the right thing being open about it, and it may help you get through the testing period more easily. The numbers of people who were successful the first time, second, third, etc must be very low.
Best Wishes for today.
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Join Date: Dec 2004
Location: Norway
Posts: 35
Originally Posted by splendra
tell us something about yourself other than something about dope...what was your best subject in school?
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Join Date: Dec 2004
Location: Norway
Posts: 35
Originally Posted by littlebopeep
I know how u feel Wolverine. Ive been on this site 2 weeks, and fell of wagon 4 times since and feel like a bit of a fraud for being here, seems like everyone else is doing so well.
I wish u could buy willpower in the shops!
Mo x
I wish u could buy willpower in the shops!
Mo x
still moment by moment
Join Date: Feb 2005
Location: on my way back to me
Posts: 83
I never did heroin, although I ate pain pills like M&Ms... so I don't know how much different it is.... but about a year ago I looked my husband straight in the eye on night after we had put the kids to bed and I said...
"If Heroin is so great and fun, why can't we just do it? If drugs make people feel so good, what is so bad about feeling good? Who says doing drugs is so bad?"
He looked back at me like I was insane, and then just blew the question off because he thought I was goofing around. (He did not know that I was sporting a 20/day vicodin habit by then).
But I actually felt like that. I was actually trying to rationalize drug use. Sometimes today I think - why can't I just keep this habit? I really enjoy it. It wasn't really hurting anyone, etc.
I started serious sobriety on January 31st but I have feel off the wagon a few times. (Although I have spent many days sober since then and I feel very good about that). Sometimes I wonder, why work this hard? I was doing fine on those drugs. Really, if I hadn't gotten caught would I be trying this sober thing out?
But then, I come out to this website and write those words down and I realize how stupid those words sound.
So I have no real point except that I understand this part of your life. And lots of people do. Seeing people come out on the other end and having them tell us how great sobriety is.... that is very very helpful.
I have met some people in AA, (and here) that have a better handle on happiness and serenity as a recovering addict than most of the general population without addiction problems does. I find that absolutely fascinating.
I'm going to keep hanging around until - HOPEFULLY - it rubs off on me enough for me to not only stop falling off the wagon but to actually want to drive the wagon.
Erin
"If Heroin is so great and fun, why can't we just do it? If drugs make people feel so good, what is so bad about feeling good? Who says doing drugs is so bad?"
He looked back at me like I was insane, and then just blew the question off because he thought I was goofing around. (He did not know that I was sporting a 20/day vicodin habit by then).
But I actually felt like that. I was actually trying to rationalize drug use. Sometimes today I think - why can't I just keep this habit? I really enjoy it. It wasn't really hurting anyone, etc.
I started serious sobriety on January 31st but I have feel off the wagon a few times. (Although I have spent many days sober since then and I feel very good about that). Sometimes I wonder, why work this hard? I was doing fine on those drugs. Really, if I hadn't gotten caught would I be trying this sober thing out?
But then, I come out to this website and write those words down and I realize how stupid those words sound.
So I have no real point except that I understand this part of your life. And lots of people do. Seeing people come out on the other end and having them tell us how great sobriety is.... that is very very helpful.
I have met some people in AA, (and here) that have a better handle on happiness and serenity as a recovering addict than most of the general population without addiction problems does. I find that absolutely fascinating.
I'm going to keep hanging around until - HOPEFULLY - it rubs off on me enough for me to not only stop falling off the wagon but to actually want to drive the wagon.
Erin
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