I am a fraud.
This thread has brought tears to my eyes. This is the real meaning of recovery, the true spirit of one addict/alcoholic helping (or lifting up) another. The support we provide eachother is enormous. I remember waiting on this forum when I began moderating it for someone to show up and here we are all bonding together in our struggle for a better way of life.
None of us are really frauds. We're trying our best against a disease that wants the best of us. One time when I wrote a similar thread on this web-site, not about relapse but about something I had done that I wasn't proud of, I got so much support and validation that it started me on the road to believing in myself.
Thanks for starting this thread Tyler because you taught us how much support we can find here when we need it.
None of us are really frauds. We're trying our best against a disease that wants the best of us. One time when I wrote a similar thread on this web-site, not about relapse but about something I had done that I wasn't proud of, I got so much support and validation that it started me on the road to believing in myself.
Thanks for starting this thread Tyler because you taught us how much support we can find here when we need it.
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Tyler,
I am so glad you decided to stay here. Your post was one of the first I started reading last night in my search for help, and then, when I figured out how to post my own, asking for help. There you were! Thank you SO much, from what I have read in your 'thread', you have been very helpful for many people.
You made me think, about myself not being true to myself. Prehaps, I am in denial and the fraud? I had never thought of my 'problem' in that way. Thank you.
Quilter
I am so glad you decided to stay here. Your post was one of the first I started reading last night in my search for help, and then, when I figured out how to post my own, asking for help. There you were! Thank you SO much, from what I have read in your 'thread', you have been very helpful for many people.
You made me think, about myself not being true to myself. Prehaps, I am in denial and the fraud? I had never thought of my 'problem' in that way. Thank you.
Quilter
Not all better, getting better
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Join Date: Feb 2002
Location: The Beautiful Inner Banks of NC
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I can honestly say that when I started this thread the last thing on my mind was helping anyone!! I honestly expected to get a few responses from a a couple of people that I corapond with and that it would be burried soon. It is a bit embarrassing so I kinda wish it would get burried!! But if it has been a help to anyone other than me (and it has been an incredible boost for me!!) I think that is wonderful. Again, thanks so much for all the responses.
(((Tyler)))
I know exactly how you felt when you wrote that post. I've been down that same path. It took me awhile to start making sense of recovery and how it works. Today, I have a better understanding of the process and it's working for me. It can work for you as well. Never give up! Good luck...
I know exactly how you felt when you wrote that post. I've been down that same path. It took me awhile to start making sense of recovery and how it works. Today, I have a better understanding of the process and it's working for me. It can work for you as well. Never give up! Good luck...
(((Tyler)))
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Yipppppppppieeeeee is all I can say sooooooo happy you're back, we keep at this monster till we get it.....don't let it get the best of you, it sure loves doing that to us, doesn't it? I'll let you in a secret, I asked to be banned two times because I thought I was being so awful posting drunk messages, who the heck asks to get banned from a message board? not once but twice, lordy I tell you, alcoholic hormonal woman at times...hahaha...first time for everything I suppose, the gang knew it wasn't a good thing for me, and they were right, I'm happy I'm back, and with a different name, it was sorta hard for (((Chy))) my sis to get me back in, so I have a new name now....Justme! aka justme2. Anyways glad you're here with us.
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Join Date: Apr 2004
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Tyler, Great thread I am gald you are still with us, I think that 40$ is money well spent. Better to waste the booze then let the booze waste you. Good luck to you. A day at a time. It does take practice doesnt it?
by giving up your only giving in and taking control back.
JFT is the only way to do it, but you cant keep what you have by not trying to live the principles and let go of all the od ********. You got to be true to yourself man[QUOTE]
"Just for today My thoughts will be on my recovery, living and enjoying life without the use of drugs.
Just for today I will have faith in someone in NA who beleives in me and wants to help me in my recovery.
Just for today I will have a program. I will try to follow it to the best of my ability.
Just for today through NA I will try to get a better perspective on my life.
Just for Today I will be unafraid, my htoughts will be on my new associations, peoople who are nnot using and who have found a new way of life. So long as I follow that way, I have nothing to fear."
1)your thoughts are on your recovery cause you are here and not using.
2) we all have faith in you and beleive in you other wise we wouldnt be here.
3)it's a process that is learned over time, you'll have your good days and your bad if it was easy why you stop using and get clean you need days like today to help you learn how to make it through the rest of today and be better prepared for the next that why we have NA so we are "Never Alone"
4)"So long as you follow that way you have nothig to fear"
Dont give up man give in ..... to your HP and Recovery
JFT is the only way to do it, but you cant keep what you have by not trying to live the principles and let go of all the od ********. You got to be true to yourself man[QUOTE]
"Just for today My thoughts will be on my recovery, living and enjoying life without the use of drugs.
Just for today I will have faith in someone in NA who beleives in me and wants to help me in my recovery.
Just for today I will have a program. I will try to follow it to the best of my ability.
Just for today through NA I will try to get a better perspective on my life.
Just for Today I will be unafraid, my htoughts will be on my new associations, peoople who are nnot using and who have found a new way of life. So long as I follow that way, I have nothing to fear."
1)your thoughts are on your recovery cause you are here and not using.
2) we all have faith in you and beleive in you other wise we wouldnt be here.
3)it's a process that is learned over time, you'll have your good days and your bad if it was easy why you stop using and get clean you need days like today to help you learn how to make it through the rest of today and be better prepared for the next that why we have NA so we are "Never Alone"
4)"So long as you follow that way you have nothig to fear"
Dont give up man give in ..... to your HP and Recovery
Together we can and do move mountains. The insurrmountable becomes less scary. We learn not just to be sober but to think sober and think recovery and realise that a good life exists for us all. We share our experiences - our ups and our downs. We admit our failings - of which mine are many and thus I truely identify with the word fraud.
But as the posts so eloquently tell you ( & I) we are getting better and trying to.
Keep coming back.......to your new home here at SR
But as the posts so eloquently tell you ( & I) we are getting better and trying to.
Keep coming back.......to your new home here at SR
(((((((((((Tyler)))))))))))))(((((((((((((((((All SR's)))))))))))))))))))))))
Well, Mr. T, I saw your post wishing this thread would just go away. Sorry my friend. It appears it is not going today. I SOOOOOOO agree with the others that this is a perfect example of what recovery is all about. Glad you have decided to stick around, Tyler.
I have a feeling this thread might be around a while.............
Hugs--
Well, Mr. T, I saw your post wishing this thread would just go away. Sorry my friend. It appears it is not going today. I SOOOOOOO agree with the others that this is a perfect example of what recovery is all about. Glad you have decided to stick around, Tyler.
I have a feeling this thread might be around a while.............
Hugs--
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