Tricky

dear b,

i remember the night we met, it was dave or john or steve that introduced us,
you looked so good you were so pitite and packaged so well, everyone else in the room didnt matter i just wanted you to myself and to spend some time with you, you came into my life when things werent going so well, you made things better, with you i was able to hold my head up, i was able to laugh and even smile, i felt incredible with you.

it wasnt until a while had passed before i saw your dark side, i stopped going out, i seemed never to have any money, when you werent with me i felt sick and alone, you took my soul, my self respect, my self esteem, you even messed with my health, its been nearly two years since we met up again and i just cant take it no more, il have to let you go for my own sanity, youve been the one ive turned to when things have got bad and when ive had others that love me ive pushed them away just to be with you.

i cant do this any more, i want you, i feel i need you, but the truth is that i need my life back, ive met others that tell me your no good for me and i have to listern to them after all theyve all gone with you at some time or another so they know you best. . . this is it, its over . . . . find another fool. . . .

Roxann

:bravo Didn't that feel good Rich?

You are doing great, keep on keeping on.

hopealwayz

That was a good idea to write your feelings out. I can be relieving.

Keep hanging in there.

HPierce

wow i'm impressed!!

na4today

good words, thanks for the share

squirrelly77

I definitely know that feeling. One of the easiest steps to take...yet soooo hard to do it just the same. I've found that eveything I need in life is provided for me--something I've had to find out on my own. And no one or no thing will be able to fill any god-shaped hole that I might have in my soul.
Good for you!
Danielle

april*rain

wow i never heard anything that sounds so much like me. he makes me feel like i need him and i i feel so sick when he's not around. everytime i hear he's cheated on me again i feel like i want to die but everytime he says he loves me i believe it and i try one more time to make it work out. i want it to be how it used to be before we got so messed up in stupid **** but i know he's not going to stop using because everytime he says he is i find out it's a lie. i need to stop on my own and i need to be on my own.

Tricky

thankyou,
for you kind and considerate words, i cant believe i spent all this time with this and i never even got a blow job out of it . . . . !! ha, [ hows that for sick ] ?.

hopealwayz

You have a lot of courage.

nutz

WoW..that reminds me of me ex- battle AXE.
It was the most expensive experience...blew mind too.

wantneeda

yup!!!!! when i was in treatment i wrote a good bye letter to my addiction and read it aloud, then burned it, sometimes wish i would have photocopied it..I'll never forget the feeling and emotion that came out when reading it aloud..tears,,violent shakes..it was very big for me.

Chy

Keep up the good work!

CAPTAINZING2000

Nice Post

hopealwayz

I think it is amazing that you can get those feelings and emotions out and be so honest with the flow. I wish I could let it all out like that. Something holds me back from freeing my emotions on the thing that nearly took me out forever.

I admire you for writing this.