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Old 02-14-2005, 12:26 AM
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Here we go again.....

Hi guys,

Was going really well there for over 50 days and bang! hit the bottle again...I know I stopped my self care and was working to hard and not watching myself.

I was really sick this time getting over it...this morning has been the first to feel anything other than zombie like...and trying not to get too depressed over it...and the inevitable fall out at work, relations etc.

It really is like being possessed - and I hate the things I do or say while drinking. And the sickness after and lack of sleep....and I don't need to tell you about the nightmares...

This time though I am finding it hard to find a reason to motivate me - other than not having to work....but I suppose that's better than nothing for starters.

So - here goes again!!

Thanks.
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Old 02-14-2005, 05:29 AM
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Hi Wildsaffron, Congratulations on making it for over 50 days without a relapse. That's awesome! It sounds like you're already getting back on track with your recovery process. We all make mistakes and nobody's perfect...right?
Hang in there. This too shall pass and you can hang out here until the dust settles. Stay strong!
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Old 02-14-2005, 06:05 AM
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your post

Reading your post first thing in the morning made me a little scared because it made me realize that it can happen to ANYONE anytime and I should never feel TO confident.
I am sorry that you took a small step backwards, just jump right back onboard.

Good Luck
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Old 02-14-2005, 06:30 AM
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hey wild,
Don't be too hard on yourself, you are only human and prone to make mistakes.
But its what you learn and do about your mistakes that counts the most.
So chin up and in another 50 days you will feel so much more in control having learned the pitfall that started you over.
Find some trinket that will remind you and keep it on you for those week times.
hope and pr's,
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Old 02-14-2005, 07:12 AM
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WELCOME BACK!!!!! the cons of not staying on top of things.....we must remember our sobriety must come first. Don't forget where jsut one drink takes us, today, you're sober, just work on today!
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Old 02-14-2005, 09:19 AM
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Hi wildsaffron,

50 days is a lot. You can do it again! Thanks for coming back.
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Old 02-14-2005, 10:22 AM
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I agree with everyone...50 days is TOTALLY AWESOME! YAY! And your post has helped me tremendously--it's something that I needed to hear. I just started a new job and I've become so self-invovled in it, that I'm letting my recovery slip. I haven't gone to a meeting it feels like in years, and I know I need to get my act together.
Yes...it IS like being possesed and if you're not careful, that demon takes over your soul in a blink of an eye. You made it back, so don't be so hard on yourself. Right now you need to be gentle and kind because I'm sure you're feeling pretty bruised and battered enough as it is.
Congrats again on your sober time and welcome back!!!

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Old 02-14-2005, 12:21 PM
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Wow 50 days that was good i fell off after 3 and a half months awhile ago and now im on day 45 of not drinking again.What i,m trying to say is dont give up try again tell you get it right.Thanks for the eye opener sometimes we forget how lousy thing were when we drank .THANK YOU..
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Old 02-14-2005, 12:39 PM
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Read your post again and tell me there is nothing there to motivate you.
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Old 02-14-2005, 03:58 PM
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welcome back 50 days is great, don't get discouraged because we are human and we will fall. Just get up and dust yourself off. One day at a time.
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Old 02-14-2005, 04:19 PM
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(((saffron))). Lotsa hugs.

You had fifty...50....FIFTY!!! SHOUT IT OUT!!! FIFTY days of sobriety!

For all those days (WEEKS!) you did without your essential lubricant you use to grease the wheels of life. I want you to congratulate yourself on that marvellous victory.

Now then...you slipped. You did what alcoholics do - you drank.

And then you got sober and posted here.

Very few people sober up, find AA, and stay sober the rest of their lives. You're not alone. When (not if) you go to a meeting and share what happened, you'll find lots of support and similar sharings. Little or no condemnation.

Go to a meeting. If a doctor told you your kidneys had failed and you needed dialysis twice a week, guess where you'd be twice a week! I'm suggesting your own best thinking failed and you need meetings. Whatcha gonna do?

Grab on to the slogans. Repeat them often: one day at a time; live and let live; first things first; think, think, think; but for the grace of God...

"If I think, I won't drink. If I drink, I can't think."

There's only two results of untreated alcoholism: insanity or death.

I've been sober in AA over sixteen years. Remember, I'm pulling for you. We're all in this together.
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Old 02-14-2005, 05:10 PM
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Sure it is

hard to stay sober. I was once a relapse queen

I quit after readind a vook avout alcoholism and sticking with my AA group.

Amazon carries "Under The Influence" plus "Beyond The Influence"
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Old 02-14-2005, 05:21 PM
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((((((((((WildSaffron)))))))))



Glad your alive & made it back!

Sadly, many don't.


Re-double the efforts and enjoy it one day at a time!

You can do it!

:v6 Keep that heart a beating.
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Old 02-14-2005, 05:47 PM
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Thanks Guys,

Reading your posts really cheered me up - and boy was I feeling low this evening - reminds me why it is important to keep in contact.

Thanks!!

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Welcome back wildsaffron.
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