bobbielee

I was making a list of all the reasons I would get loaded to handle situations that came up, it surprised me!! family reunions were a biggie for me going without being loaded was out of the question. The longer the list got though, the more it was clear I got loaded to handle Everything in my life! Just a small list:

wait let me get loaded because I

have to go to that funeral
have to go to work early
have to go in on my day off
have to go to work period, and how am I suppose to be a good bartender if I'm not happy?
my mom's coming over (YIKES)
my brother's coming over
my cousin is in town
I have to get some sleep now
I just got up
I have to go to that funeral
the phone is ringing
I'm almost out so I might as well just do the rest

Roxann

Oh do I know that reasoning!! I used the old well, it's Tuesday or I'm awake, I might as well every day!!! We should list all the reasons to stay clean now.


Congrats on your sober time bobbie. (I think I saw in your other post you have 5 months?)

na4today

looks like a small sample of my list!

hopealwayz

Good thing for better days now, eh?

Hope

lost puppy

Geez, I don't think I want to put my list on paper, maybe a list of reasons to stay sober.
I would be even more ashamed(not that humility isn't prevelent)and once I start to feel low and hopeless thats when my demon comes out and says "why try, you should fail, no one cares".
I realize now more than ever what closet that monster sleeps in.
John

bobbielee

I can't think of ANY!! (Just Kidding)
well for me, here are a few reasons I like being clean:

I won't wake up in the morning with a stranger sleeping on my couch.

I won't humiliate myself today but if I do, I will remember doing it.

I won't hurt anyone today.

I will remember every single person I have loved and lost that were addict's

I am not in jail, prison, or dead and I am not screaming "JUST KILL ME!!" when my drug deal falls through.

these are a few off the top of my head, and being as I got fired from being a bartender I will think of more soon.

thanks you guy's and Stay Clean!

bobbie

greenmeadow

Luv these lists....

I made one of all the problems that drive me to drink.
Then I made one with all the problems I am adding because I drink.

I don't need a longer list of problems.

Thank you.
greenmeadow

krati

I have to pee
I have to poop
I have to walk the dog
I have to eat
I have to not eat
I have to sleep
I have to not sleep
I love the one about i only have a few left so might as well do it all
I can only be a good worker and people will only like me if I'm full of energy and smiles such as when I'm high
Same goes with family reunions/meetings/bro and sis coming over /intown
I have to clean house
I have to do laundry
I'm on vacation
I'm not on vacation
BLAHHHHHHHHHHHHh
Devil pills!Q!!!!!!

Day 5 can't be over soon enough

timzup

That's too funny! Yup, sure can relate to that. If I could have figured out a way of drinking in my sleep, I'd have gone for it.

Dig this, was once on a trans-atlantic flight armed with 4 sprite bottles refilled with white wine. Any reason goes, huh?

Toomutch

I did drink in my sleep, because I was always in a blackout, sleeping while drinking and acting a fool.

SlvrMag

Reasons I would get loaded:

*I woke up
*I have to work
*I don't have to work
*I feel bad
*I feel good
*I'm bored
*I'm having fun
*The sun is shining
*It's raining


Reasons to not get loaded today:


*I woke up
*I have to work
*I don't have to work
*I feel bad
*I feel good
*I'm bored
*I'm having fun
*The sun is shining
*It's raining

mxchaos

my emotions are out of control I must drink them away

least

Looking back, all my excuses to drink were stupid and selfish. Glad I don't think that way anymore!

Britt

I like how you pointed out the reasons why you get loaded... Its always hard to admitt that stuff... Many of my top reasons why i got loaded was because i didn't want to deal with reality.. It really sucked.. i was in and out of Juvi for 4 years of my young teenage years and the thought of going back made me want to get loaded... so that my friend was my excuse.. Good job on your sobriety!

Stubborn1

I drank because I had three children from an alcoholic and he gets the easy way out so why couldn't I? So I went out and binged drank.
Then I had an epiphany after so many close calls and realized "how could I say I loved them and then almost kill their mother" so I stopped. No bars meant no drinks, meant no drinking and driving or doing some other stupid things.

I just wanted to find freedom because I felt trapped in a way. Sick way of looking at it now. God, I love being sober!

nickishine

Let me count the reasons.... Can't count that high!

Thank God I'm choosing life today and not looking at the numerous reasons to drink and keep my life in a "no where" zone!!! The feelings are hard to feel and the ups and downs seem lifelong at the moment.... but the severity is dwindling a little.

I'm just trying to find life right now and stay sober so I can give myself a chance to experience the "other side" -- whatever that is -- Oh yeah, REALITY!

Thanks for your post!

lostbutterfly

My only had 7 reasons for getting loaded:

1. It's Monday and everyone needs help to get through a Monday
2. It's Tuesday, which is even worse than Monday
3. It's Wednesday, need to celebrate the fact I'm half way through my working week.
4. It's Thursday, practically the weekend, no point cleaning up now, just make myself sick.
5. It's FRIDAY - lets get wasted tonight!!!
6. It's SATURDAY - let's get wasted all day!
7. It's Sunday, that means tomorrows Monday, which is kinda depressing.

IO Storm

I didn't like what others did to me, so I numbed out.

Then I did bad things to others, and couldn't face that..so I numbed out.

I started to crave in the mornings..then all day, all night.

So I numbed out.

Then I craved oblivion.

Then cames jails and institutions..i never got the ultimate oblivion.

Thanks to God and AA.

Fiona630

I drank out of habit. Where I live EVERYTHING revolves around drinking. Even my sons little league games...tho I didnt drink at those but I watched others that did.
I could make an excuse out of anything to drink..bad hair day, I past an exam, the lawn was mowed, my life sucks, my life is good, etc..u name it, I would drink to it.