rich5b

Hi,My name is Rich.I am a long time viewer of this board and decided its time to join.I am a long time opiate head.started with pills and ended with dope.I just began suboxone maintenance.feel like i made a mistake.just another opiate to kick.I began a little over a week ago and started abusing the pills right away.although there was no added effect from increased use...there is an undesired effect from not maintaining the amounts I did use.In other words I kept eating the pills like candy 2 mg pills throughout the day...now am trying to maintain at 32 mgs a day...which i know is super high...ohhhh.what did I do I am so screwed

Chy

Hi and welcome!
Glad you joined us. Any chance you can check into a rehab? If you already are abusing the method to help kick the opiates, maybe it would help to be in a structured environment with medical help, supervison, and couselors to help you sort it all out. Salvation Army has a great program and is free. In the meantime, stick around, you'll get a lot of support here.

sherbear5104

Hi Rich and welcome,

This is a great place for support. I have to agree with Chy. Maybe rehab is a good choice for you. It has helped many to gain a foundation full of tools on how to stay sober. I look forward to reading more posts from you.

Sherry

rich5b

wow,thanks for such a quick response,I am considering detox and rehab.the problem I have is that suboxone has 2mg of naloxon,an opiate antagonist. so I dont think methadone will work.I want to find out how they will detox me first.Ideally I would like to comfortably stablize on this med and try to ween down to a much smaller dose. I never have done very good at tapering but I am terrified of intense withdrawl.I have expierienced this withdrawl a bit yesterday and it seems like its alot more intense than H.I'm just really confused. My doctor and support group think its a good idea I stay on this med for maintenance,and maybe it is if i can find a comfortable dose.I'm gonna give it one more week and take the meds as prescribed.my head is just spinning now.does this even make much sense LOL.

sherbear5104

I think going into a detox is a very good idea. They will be able to take care of you medically. Call and ask them what they do. It can't hurt. Have you gone to any meetings? I have found a lot of support in the meetings, and would suggest that you start there. I really do think detox and rehab are the way to go, though. Good luck.

Sherry

CAPTAINZING2000

Rich,

glad you're here. keep coming back


chris

quercusalba

We are right there with you, Rich. I'm Anne, an alcoholic, so I don't have any experience with your drug of choice... but it seems to me that Sherry and Chy have the right idea - detox/rehab under supervision in a structured environment sounds like a very good idea to me. Also, I wanted to answer your post just to let you know you are not alone. The people here are so giving and supportive - they have held my head above water on more than one occasion. This is a great place to come.

I wish you the best - keep working hard on kicking this habit, and try to take good care of yourself.

--anne