Tears tonight but have bagged a month
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Thanks for all your replies. Really good support.
I'm feeling good about the coronation weekend coming up, I'm not putting myself in any position where I will feel vulnerable.
As Hodd and I have both said, people will see it as an excuse for a knees up but Royal stuff isn't my thing anyway, I'll only value it for the historical part.
Supermarkets rammed with people stacking their trolleys high with BBQ food and booze.
I feel stronger today, and look forward to my weekend run.
I'm feeling good about the coronation weekend coming up, I'm not putting myself in any position where I will feel vulnerable.
As Hodd and I have both said, people will see it as an excuse for a knees up but Royal stuff isn't my thing anyway, I'll only value it for the historical part.
Supermarkets rammed with people stacking their trolleys high with BBQ food and booze.
I feel stronger today, and look forward to my weekend run.
Hang in; a roller coaster of emotions in early sobriety is quite common.
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Originally Posted by Dee74 
How are things eggcup?
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Thank you.Keeping busy as I can. Lots of herbal teas. Picking up more exercise.
It's very hard still and I know it will be for a long time yet but I have my sweets at hand when I need them, keeping distracted and trying to take care of myself in general like getting a haircut, taking my make up off. I like waking up not feeling awful, and of course looking awful.
I'm being sensible and know how fast things can be ruined so I'm literally taking things hour by hour...any more and I become overwhelmed.
My appearance has become a little less red too which is a big encouragement. I'm not vain in the slightest, just mortified how I let things get to how they did. Everyone must know! So embarrassed.
Anyway, onwards...
Hope everyone is doing OK 👍
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One thing I feel is a relief at the moment, that I don't have to sneak about, fib to my family.
The countless times recently when in the morning I'd question the day's plans and was told 'we discussed this last night'. I don't remember any of it, and then had to pretend I knew. Encouraging the family to go out, then I'd go out 10 mins later to get a stash in, down a bottle, quickly get the chores done, get in the garden and quickly blitz everything. Then binge eat once it'd kicked in, settle on the sofa, fall asleep, wake up, down another bottle then get back in the garden to look like I'd been there most of the day. I hadn't spent time with my family, I engineered every single day around drinking which I know you all know too well.
I don't miss 'stopping for bread' and rotating the shops. I don't miss hiding all the empties, that's exhausting and anxiety inducing.
Just so much already that I don't miss. OK, this is just the very start but baby steps for now.
I read on here all the time, whenever I get 5 mins. I'm not a huge poster but it doesn't mean I'm not on here. Everyone's words and advice could help to save me from his horrible situation I have got myself into. I won't get out of it alone, so I need SR, but I know I have to put the hard work in myself too.
The countless times recently when in the morning I'd question the day's plans and was told 'we discussed this last night'. I don't remember any of it, and then had to pretend I knew. Encouraging the family to go out, then I'd go out 10 mins later to get a stash in, down a bottle, quickly get the chores done, get in the garden and quickly blitz everything. Then binge eat once it'd kicked in, settle on the sofa, fall asleep, wake up, down another bottle then get back in the garden to look like I'd been there most of the day. I hadn't spent time with my family, I engineered every single day around drinking which I know you all know too well.
I don't miss 'stopping for bread' and rotating the shops. I don't miss hiding all the empties, that's exhausting and anxiety inducing.
Just so much already that I don't miss. OK, this is just the very start but baby steps for now.
I read on here all the time, whenever I get 5 mins. I'm not a huge poster but it doesn't mean I'm not on here. Everyone's words and advice could help to save me from his horrible situation I have got myself into. I won't get out of it alone, so I need SR, but I know I have to put the hard work in myself too.
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