Made it to about 4 months then succumbed
It was similar to your concern about not caring anymore, but for me it was more that I didn't have to worry anymore. My bases were covered. I hope you can use something there. If not, you should address this not caring thing some other way, because it sounds like a killer to me.
There's a reason that the SIX months that follow withdrawal from alcohol are frequently referred to as "The Wall". The brain is still healing and feelings and emotions are often exaggerated. In my case the slightest things would upset me and cause aggravation, my preferred solution for that being a drink. I have had so many relapses in that 3-6 month period. The key in my experience was to get through that first SIX months, then two things happen: 1) the emotional aggravation diminishes, and 2) the reflex of reaching for alcohol did too.
I say this so you know you were almost there, and can do it. Get right back on the horse. The temptation will not always be so strong.
I say this so you know you were almost there, and can do it. Get right back on the horse. The temptation will not always be so strong.
scale that wall to freedom Worried.
Thanks silentrun and farrier. I've been reading up on that today too. Think I've read something about it before but didn't realise it was called the wall. The name helps to identify it.
This is why I stress the importance of behavior change, almost to the extent that I fear being a bore, and this shouldn't be big news, as there are many recovery programs, one of the best being Rational Recovery, that revolve around behavior therapy, rather than the more common humanistic approaches where you talk about your feelings. Behavior therapy is well adapted to treating addictions, because with addictions, behavior change plays a bigger role than self understanding. Think about it. You have to change that behavior to find your way out of addiction. Doesn't that qualify as the "Well, Duh??" insight of the year?
Even in everyday life situations, behavior change becomes a short cut to years of psycho dynamic talk therapy. Short cut, doesn't mean it's easier, just more direct, but both approaches in therapy eventually lead to self understanding as one of the end results. Personally, I gained a lot more understanding about my alcoholism after I got sober than before when I was trying to think my way out of my problem.
In summary, focus on your behavior, that's where the problem is, especially with addiction. Putting your life back together comes later, for me anyway. Others disagree, but we all get to decide our own path to better emotional health.
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This is why I stress the importance of behavior change
To stop drinking after years or decades requires changing a load of other stuff too. Let’s say those who flop out in front of the TV with a six pack of beer after work; they need to cut out/down the TV time too. TV’s boring anyway. Stopping drinking is a big lifestyle change. You’re going to have to put plenty of friends straight and start telling people you no longer drink. The only reaction is likely to be jealousy.
Keep posting, Worried
Stopping drinking is a big lifestyle change. You’re going to have to put plenty of friends straight and start telling people you no longer drink.
Never a truer word said Hodd. A complete life change. You will lose some people but gain more who actually have something real in common with you. Its so much better or you in the long run.
Never a truer word said Hodd. A complete life change. You will lose some people but gain more who actually have something real in common with you. Its so much better or you in the long run.
Thanks TC, good to see you doing well, and thanks for posting
"You’re going to have to put plenty of friends straight and start telling people you no longer drink." Lol, no problem there Hodd, I don't have plenty of friends. It used to be a bit of a joke if I was out shopping etc and had one of my sons with me and I'd pass someone and say hello or stop for a chat and my son would say "who's that?... no, don't tell me... AA". They were the only people I knew. I still see one or two very occasionally. The only people I have anything to do with are my husband, my sons and my grandchildren and the adults know my problem full well and there's no way they'd offer me drink. It's quite enough for me too, the grandkids take up alot of time and energy and I like to spend the rest of my time alone. Though of course I talk to and pass time with the grownups as well.
Hi AL48, yes, "a complete life change" plenty of other changes I need to make too.
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Hi Worried
In addiction emotions drive behavior. You get an urge (emotion) that drive the cortex's {your addiction hijacked brain) to change your behavior to drug seeking into drug taking, With recovery you push yourself hard and harder through all the tough, hard, difficult emotional states that cause you to stagnate in place and not recover. Then the good emotions follow and not precede an action first. Move the body and the better mood will catch up. Repetition of recovery actions will help the mood come along with getting to know some recovery tool's very well .Recovery is an action game despite having a despicable mood or hardcore resistance. Drag your low mood into action. No other way out of me thinks,
Originally Posted by DryGuy
Think about it. You have to change that behavior to find your way out of addiction. Doesn't that qualify as the "Well, Duh??" insight of the year?
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