Done with Day 4...On to Day 5
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Done with Day 4...On to Day 5
I got a migraine today... due to hormonal issues... they are here whether I have been drinking in my life or not. I am making an appt tomorrow to finally see a neurologist.....In that moment I felt like drinking. I think I may have a bit of hypochondriac in me.... I have realized health concerns give me the most stress in terms of making me want to drink. I didn't drink though. I just got through it... However tomorrow is day 5 and in the last 5 days I have...
1. worked out 4 times
2. passed a really hard midterm test
3. learned a lot about myself
4. Washed my bedding
5. Ate decent ( not great but I am not getting hard on myself) ... I tend to eat well in general ...no soda or fast food ect.... I just am trying not to obsess on my weight
6. Worked on my company ( not as much as I would like....but it will come )
7. Started to set boundaries with people
8. Got off a dating site because I have decided I don't want to date right now
9. Joined a support group for women who have been in relationships with abusive men
10. Went to the dentist ( only to find out I needed a root canal) but I made that appt and it is coming up
11. Ordered vitamins that are specialist just for me...which is super neat
I have gotten a lot more done both in life and emotionally than I would have had I had my usual wine every night.... I feel much more clear headed... puffiness in my face is almost 100% gone.... falling asleep is still troublesome but that was before I ever even touched alcohol as well... I think that I have identfied some underlying issues....
1. Hypochondria ( low end ) but it effects my self worth because it is distracting and causes anxiety
2. Obession about weight.... I don't feel worthy if I feel chubby
3. Allowing others to walk on top of me. Lacking boundaries
*** I guess all in all feeling like I have to hustle for my worthiness... when I feel the hustle gets to daunting I drink.... Well not anymore... I am determined to flex my sober muscles and figure out what is under the hood of all these things and own my story.
Night every...This really is the best group ever
1. worked out 4 times
2. passed a really hard midterm test
3. learned a lot about myself
4. Washed my bedding
5. Ate decent ( not great but I am not getting hard on myself) ... I tend to eat well in general ...no soda or fast food ect.... I just am trying not to obsess on my weight
6. Worked on my company ( not as much as I would like....but it will come )
7. Started to set boundaries with people
8. Got off a dating site because I have decided I don't want to date right now
9. Joined a support group for women who have been in relationships with abusive men
10. Went to the dentist ( only to find out I needed a root canal) but I made that appt and it is coming up
11. Ordered vitamins that are specialist just for me...which is super neat
I have gotten a lot more done both in life and emotionally than I would have had I had my usual wine every night.... I feel much more clear headed... puffiness in my face is almost 100% gone.... falling asleep is still troublesome but that was before I ever even touched alcohol as well... I think that I have identfied some underlying issues....
1. Hypochondria ( low end ) but it effects my self worth because it is distracting and causes anxiety
2. Obession about weight.... I don't feel worthy if I feel chubby
3. Allowing others to walk on top of me. Lacking boundaries
*** I guess all in all feeling like I have to hustle for my worthiness... when I feel the hustle gets to daunting I drink.... Well not anymore... I am determined to flex my sober muscles and figure out what is under the hood of all these things and own my story.
Night every...This really is the best group ever
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That sucks, AJ143143. Just your subconscious mind wrestling out some problems, but it feels so yuck.
I rarely have more than one night of nightmares in a row, so hopefully you'll be all set for good restorative sleep tonight.
I rarely have more than one night of nightmares in a row, so hopefully you'll be all set for good restorative sleep tonight.
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AJ, I hope the migraine is gone.
We all, at least most I think, obsess about weight.
Congrats on the midterm.
I continue to learn about myself and others. The learning process is a goal unto itself these days.
To me, setting boundaries with people requires a tremendous amount of effort. I was not programmed with a mechanism for doing that easily.
They are good with those dental procedures now. I hope it goes well.
We all, at least most I think, obsess about weight.
Congrats on the midterm.
I continue to learn about myself and others. The learning process is a goal unto itself these days.
To me, setting boundaries with people requires a tremendous amount of effort. I was not programmed with a mechanism for doing that easily.
They are good with those dental procedures now. I hope it goes well.
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Thank you all. Migraine has passed but I get them often. I just finished a 2 hour workout. Yay. I have a big to do list today. I feel determined today … no desire to drink today. I really appreciate you all. It is so amazing to have people who care so much. Especially about these tough topics. So thank you everyone
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Oh and yes the back to back nightmares were tough. Especially cause I live alone. I am really hoping tonight’s sleep is better. Even if there is insomnia I will be ok. I hate the feeling of waking up from nightmares
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As day 5 comes to an end I am thankful.... I stretched my sober muscles today sooooo much ...... Very anxious today.... I think it was my fault for over doing it on the coffee this morning.... I decided to just walk it off and ended my day with 9 miles walked... Note to self: too much coffee can trigger me.... Happy to say it was a successful day and productive and I didn't drink even though I was anxious....
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