Question about someone in recovery
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Question about someone in recovery
Hello, hope this is allowed here. I am trying to get some insight into recovery and how to handle a situation as a loved one.
I recently reconnect with my ex partner after 3 years, who is now 11 months into sobriety. He came back wanting to reconcile and make amends. He is not in AA and only doing this with a private counsellor.
Where I am concerned is that its been 3 weeks since we reconnected, and he is trying to fill his downtime with things to do to avoid relapse. He's asking me about the holidays coming up already, where he is off work. Of course I want to see him but when he phrases it in a way of "i need to stay busy so i maintain my mental health and avoid drinking", it doesn't make me feel like he wants to see me for me.
How can I know if he's using me as a distraction? I don't want to enable him or be codependent again. I want to see him for the right reasons, but I do not want to be a distraction and I know some people in recovery use dating for that.
I recently reconnect with my ex partner after 3 years, who is now 11 months into sobriety. He came back wanting to reconcile and make amends. He is not in AA and only doing this with a private counsellor.
Where I am concerned is that its been 3 weeks since we reconnected, and he is trying to fill his downtime with things to do to avoid relapse. He's asking me about the holidays coming up already, where he is off work. Of course I want to see him but when he phrases it in a way of "i need to stay busy so i maintain my mental health and avoid drinking", it doesn't make me feel like he wants to see me for me.
How can I know if he's using me as a distraction? I don't want to enable him or be codependent again. I want to see him for the right reasons, but I do not want to be a distraction and I know some people in recovery use dating for that.
Keeping busy is one of the key bits of advice a newcomer will receive when first joining Sober Recovery with the intention of quitting drinking. Keeping busy, having plans...sometimes to the minute, just to keep one from drinking. But that's an early recovery tip. Your BF is saying he's 11 months sober. At some point you have to learn--through the recovery process--to be able to sit with yourself, no distractions, to accept boredom and all the other ups and downs of not just recovery, but of life.
Sounds like he's not there yet.
You've posted before I haven't gone back to look at your history and if it regards your prior relationship. Not sure I could advise you on much. But I will ask you something.
You know him as a drinker. Do you really want to go through that again with him?
I just had to relay that, although it has little to do with Batgirl's question.
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I don't know how to help you know if he's using you for a distraction. I'm not sure he knows. But I would like to speak about his "recovery" as you phrased it.
Keeping busy is one of the key bits of advice a newcomer will receive when first joining Sober Recovery with the intention of quitting drinking. Keeping busy, having plans...sometimes to the minute, just to keep one from drinking. But that's an early recovery tip. Your BF is saying he's 11 months sober. At some point you have to learn--through the recovery process--to be able to sit with yourself, no distractions, to accept boredom and all the other ups and downs of not just recovery, but of life.
Sounds like he's not there yet.
You've posted before I haven't gone back to look at your history and if it regards your prior relationship. Not sure I could advise you on much. But I will ask you something.
You know him as a drinker. Do you really want to go through that again with him?
Keeping busy is one of the key bits of advice a newcomer will receive when first joining Sober Recovery with the intention of quitting drinking. Keeping busy, having plans...sometimes to the minute, just to keep one from drinking. But that's an early recovery tip. Your BF is saying he's 11 months sober. At some point you have to learn--through the recovery process--to be able to sit with yourself, no distractions, to accept boredom and all the other ups and downs of not just recovery, but of life.
Sounds like he's not there yet.
You've posted before I haven't gone back to look at your history and if it regards your prior relationship. Not sure I could advise you on much. But I will ask you something.
You know him as a drinker. Do you really want to go through that again with him?
I do not want to go through his binging again which is why I'm trying to navigate this. I want to observe for now and see how his recovery goes before I make any decisions, and I am trying to maintain and put up boundaries. I am wondering if time spent together needs to be one of them.
If you don't want to go through his binges again I think you know the answer.
11 months in sobriety and drank recently.
Seems he may not be ready to stay sober.
I may be wrong of course but 4 beers means he left that door open and it found its way in.
Is it shut permanently now? Who knows?
Do You want to hang around hoping he gets it?
If so then by all means.
I wish you luck in whatever your choice but its noones job to fix Us but ourselves.
If you decide to not be his keep busy do not feel guilty. You have a life to live. Not your job to straighten anyone else out.
11 months in sobriety and drank recently.
Seems he may not be ready to stay sober.
I may be wrong of course but 4 beers means he left that door open and it found its way in.
Is it shut permanently now? Who knows?
Do You want to hang around hoping he gets it?
If so then by all means.
I wish you luck in whatever your choice but its noones job to fix Us but ourselves.
If you decide to not be his keep busy do not feel guilty. You have a life to live. Not your job to straighten anyone else out.
Hi Batgirl, just my two cents but addict or not, I wouldn’t want to be anybody’s keep busy. I’d want someone to be around me because they wanted to be around me, not as a distraction. Of course it’s up to you entirely what you do but I think it’s a situation where you very much should put your feelings and needs first.
^^^^ What fishkiller said is spot on I think.
How romantic!
Seriously though, he means exactly what he told you. Nothing more, nothing less. While he might enjoy your company (he wouldn't have chosen you if he didn't) he is looking for ways to fill his time and you got chosen for the xmas season! At least he was honest about that.
Doesn't mean he wants a relationship, or a good friend or anything else. He wants to hang out with you for his own reasons. You've been in a relationship with him. This type of set up could really hurt you.
Sounds like he has a long way to go in recovery. Which is fine, but whether you want to be his support (and it will cost you mentally), that's up to you.
"i need to stay busy so i maintain my mental health and avoid drinking", it doesn't make me feel like he wants to see me for me.
Seriously though, he means exactly what he told you. Nothing more, nothing less. While he might enjoy your company (he wouldn't have chosen you if he didn't) he is looking for ways to fill his time and you got chosen for the xmas season! At least he was honest about that.
Doesn't mean he wants a relationship, or a good friend or anything else. He wants to hang out with you for his own reasons. You've been in a relationship with him. This type of set up could really hurt you.
Sounds like he has a long way to go in recovery. Which is fine, but whether you want to be his support (and it will cost you mentally), that's up to you.
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^^^^ What fishkiller said is spot on I think.
How romantic!
Seriously though, he means exactly what he told you. Nothing more, nothing less. While he might enjoy your company (he wouldn't have chosen you if he didn't) he is looking for ways to fill his time and you got chosen for the xmas season!
Doesn't mean he wants a relationship, or a good friend or anything else. He wants to hang out with you for his own reasons.
Sounds like he has a long way to go in recovery. Which is fine, but whether you want to be his support (and it will cost you mentally), that's up to you.
How romantic!
Seriously though, he means exactly what he told you. Nothing more, nothing less. While he might enjoy your company (he wouldn't have chosen you if he didn't) he is looking for ways to fill his time and you got chosen for the xmas season!
Doesn't mean he wants a relationship, or a good friend or anything else. He wants to hang out with you for his own reasons.
Sounds like he has a long way to go in recovery. Which is fine, but whether you want to be his support (and it will cost you mentally), that's up to you.
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Hi Batgirl, just my two cents but addict or not, I wouldn’t want to be anybody’s keep busy. I’d want someone to be around me because they wanted to be around me, not as a distraction. Of course it’s up to you entirely what you do but I think it’s a situation where you very much should put your feelings and needs first.
Batgirl, I agree with DriGuy's comment. Let's face it, we can't be busy all the time. It's just not possible. Sitting with yourself and being able to feel peaceful is something I consider very important for recovery.
Over thinking is dangerous for me. So is under thinking. I try to get quiet and centered so that I can listen to my instincts/gut/soul whatever you call it. You will never know for sure what is going on inside of him, but your insides have the pertinent information that you need to help you read what is going with the relationship and whether it is working for you or not. In my experience when two people have simpatico goals for a relationship, neither person questions the relationship, they just both indiividually know. I have no questions about my relationship with my wife, I just know, the quiet voice tells me.
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Over thinking is dangerous for me. So is under thinking. I try to get quiet and centered so that I can listen to my instincts/gut/soul whatever you call it. You will never know for sure what is going on inside of him, but your insides have the pertinent information that you need to help you read what is going with the relationship and whether it is working for you or not. In my experience when two people have simpatico goals for a relationship, neither person questions the relationship, they just both indiividually know. I have no questions about my relationship with my wife, I just know, the quiet voice tells me.
I guess this is a therapy question because I need to find a way to let things go and just sit with myself so I can trust my gut, instead of always being in a state of anxiety. Seems I still have alot of work to do on myself too.
I have a very hard time doing this in any intimate relationship. But i need to. I have to trust my gut when i ignored it last time with him. I am a chronic overthinker and try to apply logic when there is none, or control a situation I can't.
I guess this is a therapy question because I need to find a way to let things go and just sit with myself so I can trust my gut, instead of always being in a state of anxiety. Seems I still have alot of work to do on myself too.
I guess this is a therapy question because I need to find a way to let things go and just sit with myself so I can trust my gut, instead of always being in a state of anxiety. Seems I still have alot of work to do on myself too.
In general now (and I am MOST certainly still a work in progress), I realize that if I'm polling family/friends/strangers about someone else's behaviors, its because I know that those behaviors are unacceptable to me, and I am trying to rationalize accepting them.
I have a very hard time doing this in any intimate relationship. But i need to. I have to trust my gut when i ignored it last time with him. I am a chronic overthinker and try to apply logic when there is none, or control a situation I can't.
I guess this is a therapy question because I need to find a way to let things go and just sit with myself so I can trust my gut, instead of always being in a state of anxiety. Seems I still have alot of work to do on myself too.
I guess this is a therapy question because I need to find a way to let things go and just sit with myself so I can trust my gut, instead of always being in a state of anxiety. Seems I still have alot of work to do on myself too.
But you're getting good advice.
Don't make his sobriety your responsibility. We all have our own water to carry- your ex is very focused on the me, me, me if that is how he poses a request to spend time with you. Hard pass. It's not up to you to fill his time- it's up to him. If spending time with him will entail even ONE second worrying that he will drink- steer clear. That's a babysitter role- not one for someone who has worked hard to get him out of your head, and your heart.
Don't put yourself in a place to be hurt, your ex seems to still have work to do, and you seem like a soft place to land if maybe things go sideways, which I hope they don't, but...
Don't put yourself in a place to be hurt, your ex seems to still have work to do, and you seem like a soft place to land if maybe things go sideways, which I hope they don't, but...
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Don't make his sobriety your responsibility. We all have our own water to carry- your ex is very focused on the me, me, me if that is how he poses a request to spend time with you. Hard pass. It's not up to you to fill his time- it's up to him. If spending time with him will entail even ONE second worrying that he will drink- steer clear. That's a babysitter role- not one for someone who has worked hard to get him out of your head, and your heart.
Don't put yourself in a place to be hurt, your ex seems to still have work to do, and you seem like a soft place to land if maybe things go sideways, which I hope they don't, but...
Don't put yourself in a place to be hurt, your ex seems to still have work to do, and you seem like a soft place to land if maybe things go sideways, which I hope they don't, but...
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I have come to conclude that I ultimately have only one solution to offer an alcoholic: the recovery program of Alcoholics Anonymous. Similarly, I believe I ultimately have only one solution to offer those who are in a relationship with an alcoholic: Al-Anon. If you have not checked out some Al-Anon meetings, I suggest you do so.
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