As the festive season looms - Weekenders 09 - 12 December 2022
bona fido dog-lover
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PJ, if you attached mops to Roxy's feet, she could clean your floors for you. 
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I get how you feel tho. When I get really depressed I don't eat or clean or take care of myself, but if I make myself do some chores, I feel better afterward.. Sending you (((hugs))) from California. 
When I get really depressed sometimes it helps to snuggle with Billie in bed until I feel better..
Robbie, congrats on 100 days sober!
I've got the Hollies' song Bus Stop playing in my head!!
. I like that song very much but it won't leave my head!!
.I get how you feel tho. When I get really depressed I don't eat or clean or take care of myself, but if I make myself do some chores, I feel better afterward.
. Sending you (((hugs))) from California. When I get really depressed sometimes it helps to snuggle with Billie in bed until I feel better.
.Robbie, congrats on 100 days sober!
I've got the Hollies' song Bus Stop playing in my head!!
. I like that song very much but it won't leave my head!! 
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Join Date: Nov 2012
Location: German Village, Columbus with my love ♥
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Originally Posted by PhoenixJ 
Congrats Robbie.
Depression....ugh, meh, ugh..I know how it works. Added to chronic fatigue syn. everything is exhausting ..even taking out the garbage, Then the c-PTSD sympoms kick in..something like..too tired to do stuff, but feel shame and guilt..which is justifiable punishment , along witt the fried hand bloating up, and of course comes the pain and nausea. Not a pity party, just observation. Logically I know these thoughts and feelings are crap..perception isn't truth.
So anyways, I have felt the guilts over cleaning the floors, doing dishes etc.
So I did those tasks. Now really sorer, but feel better now the tasks are done.
Depression....ugh, meh, ugh..I know how it works. Added to chronic fatigue syn. everything is exhausting ..even taking out the garbage, Then the c-PTSD sympoms kick in..something like..too tired to do stuff, but feel shame and guilt..which is justifiable punishment , along witt the fried hand bloating up, and of course comes the pain and nausea. Not a pity party, just observation. Logically I know these thoughts and feelings are crap..perception isn't truth.
So anyways, I have felt the guilts over cleaning the floors, doing dishes etc.
So I did those tasks. Now really sorer, but feel better now the tasks are done.
I do the dishes because, as you said, the tasks get done and I feel better. But I am NOT mopping any floors—not a chance. The dirt will just have to wait until I feel better.
I hear you; you think you deserve to suffer. You observe the swollen hand, exhaustion, migraines, and depression and say that you "feel shame and guilt..which is justifiable punishment".
This is not true, my friend. You have more than paid for anything and everything you feel that you are responsible for.
You have honoured your recovery, and done your very best to be the man you knew you could be, wanted to be.
You have made a new life that has beauty and value and love, and you have so much to offer the world.
I could sell your artwork for you in a nanosecond—it is that good. Of course, I won't but just saying.
And we love you. Big time. ❤️
bona fido dog-lover
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I've never seen starlings do that in real life but have watched lots of videos of it and it's amazing.
Billie has been fed and pottied and now is just wandering around the apt. I just cooked three beyond breakfast sausage patties and gave Billie a few small bites and the crumbs and she wolfs it down.. She thinks it's real meat. 
Billie has been fed and pottied and now is just wandering around the apt. I just cooked three beyond breakfast sausage patties and gave Billie a few small bites and the crumbs and she wolfs it down.
. She thinks it's real meat.
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I do not follow sports at all so I did not even know it was going on, plus I do not own a TV so I would not even see highlights regarding it.
itsmaria, that used to happen to me a lot, and for me like Suze said, it was association. I had to break myself out of that mental and physical habit.
No real decorating this year, at least with our things, as they are all boxed away from the big move a year ago.
itsmaria, that used to happen to me a lot, and for me like Suze said, it was association. I had to break myself out of that mental and physical habit.
No real decorating this year, at least with our things, as they are all boxed away from the big move a year ago.
bona fido dog-lover
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Maria, can you get a nice new string of lights? They have them in lots of colors and patterns and things. I really like my one little string of red and green and white lights draped around my window. . I know what might make a nice Christmas present for yourself. . It would be a nice present for someone else too.
I can't sleep tonight cause the neuropathy pain in my feet was terrible after I laid down.
. I laid in bed with my feet aching for at least an hour. I got out of bed and sat in my chair and the pain isn't as bad as when I'm lying down. I don't know why that is but the pain is always worse at night.
I've had TV show theme songs running thru my head all day.
I really like my one little string of red and green and white lights draped around my window. . I know what might make a nice Christmas present for yourself. . It would be a nice present for someone else too. I can't sleep tonight cause the neuropathy pain in my feet was terrible after I laid down.
. I laid in bed with my feet aching for at least an hour. I got out of bed and sat in my chair and the pain isn't as bad as when I'm lying down. I don't know why that is but the pain is always worse at night. I've had TV show theme songs running thru my head all day.
I’m in for the sober weekend too Dear Mags xxx
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Originally Posted by Robbie64
I am. It's been a good tournament so far with some unexpected results.
It's England v France tonight (it's just turned midnight and it's now Saturday here in the UK). Hopefully it will be a good game but it's going to be nail bitingly tense too... I'll be happy if England win.
It's England v France tonight (it's just turned midnight and it's now Saturday here in the UK). Hopefully it will be a good game but it's going to be nail bitingly tense too... I'll be happy if England win.
Disappointing for Portugal also.
Guess I'll be keeping an eye on Croatia now.
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Originally Posted by Caramel
Commiserations, Robbie.
Disappointing for Portugal also.
Guess I'll be keeping an eye on Croatia now.
Disappointing for Portugal also.
Guess I'll be keeping an eye on Croatia now.
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Location: London, England
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Congratulations on your 100 days Robbie, triple figures. I can still remember posting when I got to that milestone and feeling so pleased and proud. I felt I was finally really doing it after many attempts.
Mags, I have never seen a murmuration in real life, I would love to. I see plenty of starlings pinching all the food from my feeders though.
So cold here, -4 and foggy today. A pic from our wintry walk the other day.
Mags, I have never seen a murmuration in real life, I would love to. I see plenty of starlings pinching all the food from my feeders though.
So cold here, -4 and foggy today. A pic from our wintry walk the other day.
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