Takeaction

I totally and completely blew it! I drank…and I drank A LOT. I’m extremely disappointed in myself. I hate the person I become. I become messy, fat, and irritated. Not to mention all the brain cells I’ve lost throughout the years.

Day one 🙏🏻

Dee74

Pick yourself up, dust yourself off, and start all over again takeaction
I don't know why you relapsed specifically but its a good idea to figure that out, and maybe change, or add to your recovery action plan?

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Farrier

Tomorrow is a new day without mistakes. We all might blow it tomorrow. The important part is that you're here, and you're still trying.

lmvalentine

I’ve blown it several times. Start over! The disease progresses and will suck the life out of us. I have a family member that set me off last Thursday and I wanted to drown the hurt in liquid poison. A phone call and an AA meeting saved my butt that day. Figure out what people places and things get to you and come up with a plan. I’m getting up and walking away next time and avoiding being around them right now.

Anna

It helped me in my battle, to take alcohol completely off the table. Alcohol was no longer an option, ever. My mindset began to shift and search for healthier ways to deal with life. Forgive yourself and move forward.

Alpine

Day one is great and you are back on the right path. I have had several day 1s and I had to do what Anna did, I had to take alcohol completely off the table. There is no moderation for me, no matter how hard I tried. I also come here often for the support. I wish you the very best.

Hevyn

Takeaction - Now you have further proof that you can't touch the stuff. The last time I experimented it led me to a very dark place. I knew then that I could never risk it again.
Happy you came back - congrats on Day 1.

advbike

^^^^ THIS ^^^^

Anna is so right, and it's the ONLY strategy that ever worked for me - Not an Option.

Anything else is fair game (within reason), but alcohol is off the table.

Mizz

You have right now to make a different decision. One moment, hour, day, and night at a time. Time to get back to it and move forward. We are all in this together.

Lily76

A new day a new start, yes you drank, but this is a new day pick yourself up dust yourself off, and don't drink just today don't think of tomorrow only this day , say to yourself Ok, Today I will not drink, or even this hour I will not drink, then the next hour one at a time, You Can do this, don't let the negative thoughts in your head tell you otherwise, do as many distractions as you can watch a film you love or even write in a journal write a gratitude list, read, listen to music or the radio play with a pet , do some housework, make your self some tea/ coffee, you can do this keep talking here , we are all here to support you

VikingGF

A million day ones is better than another day drinking.

Congrats on day 1- you can do it, Takeaction. .

Hevyn

How are you today, Takeaction?

AJ143143

How are you doing today ?

SouthernSober

Ditto Dee's comments and keep coming back.

Takeaction

I’m trying to forgive myself for what I’ve done to my body. Here is my Day 1 again….

I need to completely stop drinking. I can’t do this drunken battle anymore. Staying strong today 🤍

nez

This pretty much sums up my drinking. I can't begin to tell you how great it felt when I finally decided to no longer climb into the ring to "do battle" with an 800 lb. gorilla. There was never any glory nor rewards for climbing in the ring. The rewards started when I said no.

Anna

Yeah, alcoholism destroys us in many ways. I'm glad you're back and working on Day 1.

2muchpain

Setbacks are common. It's what you do after that that makes difference. Good luck. John

kes

Great advice from Dee, make sure you absorb it.

All the best and good luck

Takeaction

Thank you all for the kind words and support.

I just had a birthday within the last few days and sat on a pitty pot for a few days. I slapped myself out of it and we are on day 2.

I realized the weight gain, self awareness, confidence, and intelligence all STRUGGLES when I drink. I’m not proud of myself when I go down the alcoholic route. I turn into a mean shrew. I know all of this and continue to do so.

Day 2 strong!