Worried14

Thanks for your reply MrPL good to hear from someone doing well. And yes, sobriety is easy until it isn't and I don't really know when I'm tackling things directly or indirectly 🙃🤯

Worried14

Lol this is getting to be a habit

Worried14

Just time for one post today so I'll do it here.
feeling lots of gratitude today, mainly for simply being alive and having opportunity.
spent the morning doing something important and very necessary.... catching up on sleep. So cup of tea now, waking up slowly but starting to feel refreshed which is good as in 20mins have to get going and continue with the rest of the day. Quite a few things to do. See how it goes.
Thankyou all for being here. We have so much in common and at the same time we're quite a diverse lot ! I love us all 😊

Worried14

its so good to see people come here year after year staying sober. Strength and vigilance, thats what I need

aasharon90

This awesome place that is here in SR, has become
a lifeline in life and recovery for many a folks, Worried.

There are a many a lifelines out there in the world for
us to grab a hold of that is full of support to help each
of us get thru daily trails and tribulations.

I'm glad to see you suiting up and showing up here as
you continue to learn and apply helpful recovery tools
to your everyday life to achieve a healthier, happier way
of life.

Oh, the reason for the oops double post is because, it
takes me a while to write my first post and send it. By the
time I do that, loading it up must take time so I hit my send
button again which becomes a double post.

Worried14

Thanks so much Sharon. Lovely to see you here again. Well I am trying, thanks for appreciating that. I've a long way to go but its an on going thing anyway.
Oh, I make lots of posting mistakes myself so its funny to see someone else doing it aswell 🙂

zoobadger

I try not to get too excited or proud of my anniversaries for that reason. My four year anniversary is in July. But I can't help thinking that at age 61 I spent 30 years dragging around the ball and chain of alcoholism and have only been free of it for 4. In a weird way, I have to try not to go down the rabbit hole of regret on my anniversaries as much as I have to not go overboard feeling celebratory.

Worried14

Hi zoobadger, thanks for replying and well done on coming up to 4 years.
I don't think I was particularly excited at my years sobriety and probably more surprised at how quickly it came round than I was proud. I think it was the circumstances of the time and it became an excuse for a relapse.
I've never felt the need for regret either. The way I see it, I drank as self medication because I wasn't coping with life. I don't know what would have happened it I hadn't drank. Maybe it would have been better maybe worse I don't know. I might have learnt to drive sooner and ended up brain damaged in a car accident caused by another careless driver, who knows, anything might have happened.
But what has come to be, I'm very grateful for. I have the opportunity to live again today and I have a lot of blessings.