Double Digits. It's been a while.
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Double Digits. It's been a while.
I've been really struggling to get more than a few days lately but today is day 10. So yay.
Terribly depressed though. I rang my case nurse but then was too anxious to meet him. Also too anxious to get my anti psychotic shot, which is going to end badly. Hopefully I can get it Tuesday (Bank hol Monday).
I do this to myself. I got The Upward Spiral audio book recently, so I'm very aware from a neuroscience perspective all the ways I'm contributing to my downward spiral.
I'm in court on Wednesday. Probably get my first conviction but drunk in public is about the most harmless crime I could have committed, so probably not life ruining. Nothing worth drinking over.
Aside from being too anxious to leave the house and get beer, watching the Rain in my Beart doc has really helped me stay sober. Not so much how drinking affected each subjects' health, but how it affected one particular subject's family. Made me feel very guilty.
Terribly depressed though. I rang my case nurse but then was too anxious to meet him. Also too anxious to get my anti psychotic shot, which is going to end badly. Hopefully I can get it Tuesday (Bank hol Monday).
I do this to myself. I got The Upward Spiral audio book recently, so I'm very aware from a neuroscience perspective all the ways I'm contributing to my downward spiral.
I'm in court on Wednesday. Probably get my first conviction but drunk in public is about the most harmless crime I could have committed, so probably not life ruining. Nothing worth drinking over.
Aside from being too anxious to leave the house and get beer, watching the Rain in my Beart doc has really helped me stay sober. Not so much how drinking affected each subjects' health, but how it affected one particular subject's family. Made me feel very guilty.
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Morning FF,
Congrats on your double digits! That's really good going and you're safely past the acute withdrawal phase. Now the hard work of recovery really begins.
Don't worry too much about letting the anti-psychotic shot slip by a day or two with your doctor's consent. The stuff is intentionally designed to wear out gradually over a period of months. Having said that, keeping to a strict routine in this and everything else is going to be necessary to make it through the next phase of getting better.
The depression is, I'm afraid, fairly inevitable. In my case it lasted several months. As they say here on SR you just have to 'chop wood and carry water', sticking to a planned healthy routine one day at a time until things start to get better.
Try to be positive. Double digits is a great start!
All the best. Forwards.
Congrats on your double digits! That's really good going and you're safely past the acute withdrawal phase. Now the hard work of recovery really begins.
Don't worry too much about letting the anti-psychotic shot slip by a day or two with your doctor's consent. The stuff is intentionally designed to wear out gradually over a period of months. Having said that, keeping to a strict routine in this and everything else is going to be necessary to make it through the next phase of getting better.
The depression is, I'm afraid, fairly inevitable. In my case it lasted several months. As they say here on SR you just have to 'chop wood and carry water', sticking to a planned healthy routine one day at a time until things start to get better.
Try to be positive. Double digits is a great start!
All the best. Forwards.
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Fantastic job freedomfries. You've been stuck for a while, but YOU decided to change and you have. That's not easy, so kudos to you for your perseverance. Really heartening to read your post!
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