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Hi all. Have, yet again, told myself that I've had my last drink. I hope being here will cement that. I'm a supposed 'functioning alchoholic', but am at the point where I think I have seriously caused harm. So need to stop now. I'm a type one diabetic but have refused standard blood tests for about 3 years due to fear of seeing what damage I am doing. I need to stop, but already tempted to drink tomorrow. Hope support here will stop that. Thanks...
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Hi Ap88 - I'm so glad you joined us. We're here to support you as you make this big change in your life.
I drank 30 yrs. & didn't really think a forum could help. Here I am many years later - still sober, thanks to the encouragement I found here.
Welcome to a great place.
I drank 30 yrs. & didn't really think a forum could help. Here I am many years later - still sober, thanks to the encouragement I found here.
Welcome to a great place.
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Welcome to SR Ap88. I hope you can make things stick this time. In your past attempts, what has worked and what hasn't? If you are sure you can stay away from drinking today, but you are concerned about tomorrow, maybe write down a plan to stay sober tomorrow. Make an agenda for the whole day. Script every minute. During the window of time you would usually start drinking, that window of craving, maybe really shake things up there if you can and get out on a long hike or away from your drinking habitat.
If you are looking for some reading check out Alcohol Explained by William Porter. It details the science and physiology of everything that is going on with you right now and has a nice focus on these early days.
Good luck and keep posting and let us know how things are going. You can do this. Get on your healthy road for good.
If you are looking for some reading check out Alcohol Explained by William Porter. It details the science and physiology of everything that is going on with you right now and has a nice focus on these early days.
Good luck and keep posting and let us know how things are going. You can do this. Get on your healthy road for good.
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Welcome Ap. Alcoholism is progressive and it sounds like this is what you're experiencing. I'm glad you've decided to stop drinking and to begin recovery. It's always a good idea to have a plan in mind for how you will stop drinking and stay sober.
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Thanks all. Midweek the are typically 3 parts of the day where I would drink. Have thought of a way to try and get past the first part of the day (which I have done today). However the next part during is the most difficult one.. let's see
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Schedule every hour, even every 15 minute increments if needed to get through your “witching hours” these first few weeks. A brisk walk, a jigsaw puzzle, deep cleaning each cabinet and closet in your house—stay busy and keep your resolve. Get some nice flavored coffees / teas, sparkling water or other tasty NA beverages to enjoy as well.
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Welcome, Ap88. Glad you found us.
I would have been considered a “functioning” alcoholic, also, as guess. For me, though, beneath that term was so much internal dysfunction churning and eating away at who I was; it was eating away at my core. I don’t think that we realize, as we are drinking, how much of ourselves (the good stuff) we lose to the demon of alcohol. It happens in subtle and incremental ways. We don’t recognize the losses until they become significant and harmful.
It sounds as though you have come to that point of recognition. It can be a gut wrenching moment; it certainly was for me; it was a life changing moment, though, one that led me to an exponentially better way of life. Embrace that recognition and move forward through sobriety and recovery. I believe that you will find it to be a rewarding, satisfying, and extremely positive experience.
Stay close.
I would have been considered a “functioning” alcoholic, also, as guess. For me, though, beneath that term was so much internal dysfunction churning and eating away at who I was; it was eating away at my core. I don’t think that we realize, as we are drinking, how much of ourselves (the good stuff) we lose to the demon of alcohol. It happens in subtle and incremental ways. We don’t recognize the losses until they become significant and harmful.
It sounds as though you have come to that point of recognition. It can be a gut wrenching moment; it certainly was for me; it was a life changing moment, though, one that led me to an exponentially better way of life. Embrace that recognition and move forward through sobriety and recovery. I believe that you will find it to be a rewarding, satisfying, and extremely positive experience.
Stay close.
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