Hit 2 Years... Some Reflections
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Hit 2 Years... Some Reflections
Recently hit 2 years sober.
Quitting drinking was the best decision I've ever made. I'm a big goals/productivity kind of person, quitting drinking has helped me do things I'd never be able to do while drinking. And no matter what goal I accomplish I always say that any progress made in sobriety is far and above the most important "goal" (if you want to call it that) of anything. Because without this, I have nothing, no other goals seeking, and nothing really meaningful in life for that matter.
Even though 2 years is miniscule compared to many old timers who I respect to the utmost and try and learn from as much as I possibly can. I can honestly say that hitting the 2 year mark just felt like "another day", it's my new normal. I have many improvement points for sure though...
I remember probably 6-8 years ago (a bit of a blur, that's why such a big range), I first thought I might have a problem with alcohol. I remember coming on this forum (from a different handle, not this one), and posting something about being "not sure" if I have a problem...
I denied that fact that I did for a long time. Trying to moderate my drinking. Taking months off at a time. Every time I tried to come back to drinking it ended in extended bouts of mayhem. At some point, after some extremely amplified bouts of mayhem and realizing every time the bouts got longer, harder to stop...
I finally came to the realization that I'm just someone that can never, ever drink normally. This 100% acceptance, and commitment to that idea is what made me stop. And this time, different from the other times I attempted cutting down I seeked help, and that's made all the difference.
I still have many improvement points. I still tend to be a hermit in my free time meaning, I haven't found new hobbies/activities to do outside of work since my whole life previously my hobby was "drink" or "party". This is a big improvement point for me, because it tends to make me unhappy sometimes. But nothing makes me more unhappy than drinking, so it's all good!
Additionally, I need to improve my spiritual growth, and solidify that, not something I've focused on a ton. Finally, I need to still work on my overthinking mind, and discontent mind which is something that comes up over and over again, and while it doesn't ever make me want to drink, it does leave me feeling like "something" is missing.
Anyway, its a bit weird hitting 2 years in that it doesn't feel like anything different than what I've been doing. But I do know that removing booze from my life has been the best thing I've ever done.
Thank you all for being there when I intermittently post and lurk here!
Quitting drinking was the best decision I've ever made. I'm a big goals/productivity kind of person, quitting drinking has helped me do things I'd never be able to do while drinking. And no matter what goal I accomplish I always say that any progress made in sobriety is far and above the most important "goal" (if you want to call it that) of anything. Because without this, I have nothing, no other goals seeking, and nothing really meaningful in life for that matter.
Even though 2 years is miniscule compared to many old timers who I respect to the utmost and try and learn from as much as I possibly can. I can honestly say that hitting the 2 year mark just felt like "another day", it's my new normal. I have many improvement points for sure though...
I remember probably 6-8 years ago (a bit of a blur, that's why such a big range), I first thought I might have a problem with alcohol. I remember coming on this forum (from a different handle, not this one), and posting something about being "not sure" if I have a problem...
I denied that fact that I did for a long time. Trying to moderate my drinking. Taking months off at a time. Every time I tried to come back to drinking it ended in extended bouts of mayhem. At some point, after some extremely amplified bouts of mayhem and realizing every time the bouts got longer, harder to stop...
I finally came to the realization that I'm just someone that can never, ever drink normally. This 100% acceptance, and commitment to that idea is what made me stop. And this time, different from the other times I attempted cutting down I seeked help, and that's made all the difference.
I still have many improvement points. I still tend to be a hermit in my free time meaning, I haven't found new hobbies/activities to do outside of work since my whole life previously my hobby was "drink" or "party". This is a big improvement point for me, because it tends to make me unhappy sometimes. But nothing makes me more unhappy than drinking, so it's all good!
Additionally, I need to improve my spiritual growth, and solidify that, not something I've focused on a ton. Finally, I need to still work on my overthinking mind, and discontent mind which is something that comes up over and over again, and while it doesn't ever make me want to drink, it does leave me feeling like "something" is missing.
Anyway, its a bit weird hitting 2 years in that it doesn't feel like anything different than what I've been doing. But I do know that removing booze from my life has been the best thing I've ever done.
Thank you all for being there when I intermittently post and lurk here!
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Originally Posted by GreatInquiry7 
Recently hit 2 years sober.
I know what you mean about 2 years just feeling like one more day. It feels the same way at 26 years. Once you get this down, you see those annual landmarks coming up. You know you're going to hit them, because that's what you do now. So you can mark it off on the calendar, announce it, or do anything you want to commemorate it (without drinking, of course), but it's just one more day. I would add to that, however. It's one more really fine day, because every day sober beats your best day drunk.
And it's also true that you are never finished. You never have to stop growing and making your life better. I never would have realized that when I started, I may have said it without really knowing it, and I often take time to realize how surprising this has all been. Even when I wasn't paying attention, things were getting better and then every once in a while I will notice and sit back in kind of a grateful wonder about it all.
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