Alpine

Quick check in before I do some packing. Doing well, will write more later.
The sun is bright
Desire

Alpine

Doing great, keeping busy with packing and preparing for the cross country move to get get back home to help my Mom and his Mom. There is still plenty to do and at times I feel overwhelmed but so darn happy to be sober. There is so much freedom with sobriety..yes I know you all know this.,it just helps me to write it out as a reminder/reinforcement.
Another good day in the books
Happiness

Alpine

Just checking in for my own accountability. Doing great! Still packing, it took more then 3 days to pack and load up all if Mr. Alpine's woodworking tools into the POD which is now full and will be stored for quite a while. Now time for house packing which should not take as long. We are here for another..maybe 1.5 weeks. So darn happy and energized which would not be the case if I was drinking.
There is a new wonderful life ahead
Freedom

Alpine

Quick check in. Doing well, the packing is slowing down temporarily but then will ramp back up. Despite the stress of packing everything to prepare for the big move and significant personal issues I have had no desire at all to drink. I have had every opportunity to drink because Mr. Alpine has been going into work so I could easily walk to a store (my car is back east so when he leaves for the day I don't have a vehicle) get something to drink and pretty much drink all day because he is gone close to 12 hours. That would serve absolutely no purpose. I would rather be stressed while sober vs numb and get nothing accomplished.
it is a great day to be sober
Freedom

biminiblue

Good thinking!

fishkiller

My favorite word in the whole wide world

Alpine

Have not checked in on this thread for a while. Life has been very busy and stressful with the big move and dealing with family situations. I have been doing well with absolutely no desire to drink. I have to thank SR and the people here that have supported me through empathy, tough love, insight, etc. It all has helped and continues to help.
Everyday I move forward
Gratitude

Jo43

well done Alpine You are doing fabulous!! Good luck with the move xx

least

Alpine

So I have been freezing cold all day here in my MIL's house and i can't go over to the apartment where Mr. Alpine is because that is where he is working and has several meetings. She normally keeps her house very warm so I do not know why she turned it down. Well, anyway I mentioned to her when she got back from visiting my FIL at the nursing home that I was not sure why I was so cold. She offered me a glass of wine to warm up, I said no thanks, then tried a few times to get me to have some whiskey saying that would defiantly warm me up. I once again said no thanks. She asked if I just don't drink, and I said I prefer not to and left it at that. I actually have no desire even when it was offered several times. Maybe because I worked so hard to get where I am, I like this version of Alpine better and so does Mr. Alpine, I don't want to get back to how I was...Probably all of the above.
Keep the focus
Happiness

least

Good for you for refusing her offers. If it were me in your shoes I wouldgradually turn the heat up a little at a time. she won't notice and you won't freeze.

congrats on staying sober all this time.

Dee74

Keep the focus indeed - I'm sorry you're still dealing with this tho Alpine.

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MaximusD

Did you read the thread about urge surfing? That is a good reminder in early sobriety.

Alpine

Thanks all!! I am doing great with no desire to drink at all. It is so freeing.
There is always something to be grateful about
Energy

least

So how goes it?

Alpine

Great!! There have been some very challenging and what used to be triggering family interactions which would send me down the wrong path. I have maintained my focus and desire for a better life and a better ability to deal with these challenging situations with a clear mind and memory of what was discussed. Thanks for asking my friend.
I read this quote, not sure where. : "The only place where work comes before success is in the dictionary." I liked this one.
Success

Alpine

Had a hicup/speed bump the other day and got triggered big time by Mr. Alpine and somethings adding up with my MIL. A conversation I had with Mr. Alpine, which he started, made me feel real bad and depressed which set me down a bad path. I need to find a way to not internalize things and let them impact me the way it does. I take full accountability for my actions and feel pretty darn bad and ashamed after how hard I worked. I am back on the right path and refocused. I need to stay this way because I hate hate hate the alternative. I know better.
Keep the drive going
I need to be FREE

Free2bme888

Can you change the thought ‘ I NEED to be this way, to I WANT to be this way?

Makes a huge difference.

Dont drink, no matter what. Doesn’t matter irritating conversation. Find a way to deal with the stress without picking up. Find a way to believe it’s poison, to believe you can handle life without it.

You can. We can.

big hugs 🤓❤️

Dee74

^ thats great stuff Free

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fishkiller

Takes guts to come back. I can imagine how it must feel.
Next time you think only a drink will do remember this feeling.

And everything Free said.
Especially the part where we, Do Not Drink No Matter What
Attitude coming in a very close second maybe tied for 1st. Actually I think it's a draw.

With the right attitude we will Not drink. No matter what.

We can do anything we Want to do.
We Must have the Want though.