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Old 12-30-2021, 10:59 AM
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Day 9 - soooo tired

Day 9 here and I am beyond exhausted Ö I wander around like a zombie during the day and then when I put my light out at midnight Iím wide awake with racing thoughts until 3 or 4 am. Today I couldnít finish the work I had to do as I had to lie down. I have never had this before over a week after stopping. Letís hope it settles down. Iíve got to be compos mentis next week for a load of professional reasons , not to mention the fact itís unsettling. Iíve never slept very well but seem to usually cope the next day but today I just had to give up ! :-(
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Old 12-30-2021, 12:18 PM
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I found the more years I drank the longer it took to recover from a binge. Itís one of the experiences I used to remind myself a drink is not just a drink for folks like us..Öitís the start of something much bigger and much worse for me.

I hope youíll feel better next week ICDT.

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Old 12-30-2021, 12:22 PM
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Yes, I remember you saying that Dee and it popped into my head again today. No turning back now !
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Old 12-30-2021, 01:05 PM
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I think all of the chaos we carry in our minds can make us very tired after we stop drinking. A weight, exposed and vulnerable. I won't remain this way Ican.

Rest, and fluids. Do dishes. Fold laundry.

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Thank you dear Steely. Yes done dishes and laundry … now catastrophising that if I can’t sleep tonight and feel like this tomorrow my work schedule (and things I have to hand in next week) will be completely messed up. Got to get my ‘Acceptance’ hat on and chill !
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Old 12-30-2021, 01:56 PM
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You'll be ok ICDT. I'm sorry you are feeling rough.

Some of the things that keep me sober are the seemingly endless tales of people who drink again after periods of sobriety - some after very long periods of sobriety - and they all find themselves right back at the depths they would have been had they never stopped. That is not intuitive to me, but I read so much about it here on SR and hear about it so much in my real life, I don't dare question it. Scary stuff what alcohol can do to us and there are mountains of proof that people like us can never drink again.

You will get your energy back ICDT, and then let's stay on this sober road together.
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Thank you Surrendered .. yes let’s stay on this road together. I’m sure as heck not taking any other one from now on !
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Old 12-30-2021, 03:50 PM
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Kindling is one of he scarier things I have read about this awful problem
well done for choosing to jump back on the wagon Asap
life is so much nicer without the drama alcohol brings
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Old 12-30-2021, 05:46 PM
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now catastrophising that if I canít sleep tonight and feel like this tomorrow my work schedule (and things I have to hand in next week) will be completely messed up. Got to get my ĎAcceptanceí hat on and chill !
Yes, worrying about not sleeping only makes insomnia worse. I know it's hard, but try to distract yourself and allow sleep to come.
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Old 12-30-2021, 06:22 PM
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The drug (booze) alters the brain. I needed booze to feel normal. Getting through the normalization process takes well over a year. Then the triggers morph into 2 year triggers. Then 3 and so on.

But, even though I wake up feeling like a got hit by a truck, I know that relapsing will make the next normalization worse. So I suffer.

It gets better and the best I can think about is when I am put under pressure either mentally or physically. I know I am the best i can be and that I can trust myself because I am clean.

Even at just a few weeks clean, I was making decisions that turned out to be correct. Life altering decisions e.g. divorce might need some serious thought in the form of a full year, but day to day decisions were good to go.

Suffering and time.

Thanks for the therapy.
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